Ssgrimes Posted July 26, 2013 Share Posted July 26, 2013 I have just hit an emotional wall. I don't really know why I am so upset, but I hurt so bad. I know that a lot of it has to do with the exchange between xMM and his wife. I have so many emotions going through me and where I have tried so strong to be strong and move on I feel so used, beat up, and confused about everything. I can't believe the amount of anger that I have towards hm right now. I just want to scream at him for being such an arrogant selfish ass. He is a liar, a manipulator, a cheat, and at this point I hope he is 10 times more miserable than I am. He doesn't deserve his happy life and happy family. He is a user and right now I want him to pay for all the pan he has caused. Rant over, hoping its just a bad night and at some point my mind will stop and I can move on to a better place. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
happy stillmore Posted July 26, 2013 Share Posted July 26, 2013 SS, You have ever right to be angry. Let it out! He doesn't deserve you or his family. Read your post again and let the words sink in. Your words say it all. He is not worth a millisecond of your thoughts. sometimes it is better just to see it as it is in order to move on instead of trying to convince yourself otherwise. "I was played but I'm moving on." This is something to learn from so it isn't a wasted experience. I bet this won't happen to you again because you won't let it! Things will be better for you with this loser out of your life. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Ssgrimes Posted July 26, 2013 Author Share Posted July 26, 2013 SS, You have ever right to be angry. Let it out! He doesn't deserve you or his family. Read your post again and let the words sink in. Your words say it all. He is not worth a millisecond of your thoughts. sometimes it is better just to see it as it is in order to move on instead of trying to convince yourself otherwise. "I was played but I'm moving on." This is something to learn from so it isn't a wasted experience. I bet this won't happen to you again because you won't let it! Things will be better for you with this loser out of your life. Thanks happy, he doesn't deserve my thoughts and I hope once I get all the hurt out I can really work to move on. Link to post Share on other sites
Goodbye Posted July 26, 2013 Share Posted July 26, 2013 Sorry you are hurting so badly right now. Let the pain motivate you to move beyond all of this. May I ask what was the exchange between MM and W? And how did you hear it? Take care...rant away if it helps. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Ssgrimes Posted July 26, 2013 Author Share Posted July 26, 2013 Sorry you are hurting so badly right now. Let the pain motivate you to move beyond all of this. May I ask what was the exchange between MM and W? And how did you hear it? Take care...rant away if it helps. Sure, he contacted me early last week and then she questioned him about the contact and he said he didn't. He contacted me about it and during the exchange she asked for verification that he contacted me. I was always worried that she would contact me at some point and thankfully neither of us went into crazy psycho mode. Just a brief exchange, where I downplayed the actual situation because I really didn't want to be any more involved in the drama. I am pretty sure she has a good idea of what is going on. My guess is she has been watching his phone and email and knew that he contacted me and wanted to see how he responded. He lied, which is really no surprise to me at this point. Link to post Share on other sites
Lady2163 Posted July 26, 2013 Share Posted July 26, 2013 It's okay, it will get better. I completely understand and don't blame you a bit for taking the path of least resistance, even if it may have protected him someway. Not that I'm trying to paint him in a better light, but do remember the spouse has no loyalty to you at all. She may not always be honest with you, either. Hope you are able to avoid the crazy drama. Protect yourself. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
sadwithouthim Posted July 26, 2013 Share Posted July 26, 2013 I can hardly take it anymore. I just want to write to him and pour my heart out. I know he was tired of being OM, and the 4 1/2 years just got more and more frustrating (for both of us). I just want to talk to him. What things can I do to help ease the pain? I feel like I need a hug. Each day, I feel hungover with sadness. It would be so easy to write him. How long until it's a more distant thought? I'm tired of it always being there. (Sorry, I thought I was writing my own post, see I can't even think...grrr.) Link to post Share on other sites
Author Ssgrimes Posted July 26, 2013 Author Share Posted July 26, 2013 I can hardly take it anymore. I just want to write to him and pour my heart out. I know he was tired of being OM, and the 4 1/2 years just got more and more frustrating (for both of us). I just want to talk to him. What things can I do to help ease the pain? I feel like I need a hug. Each day, I feel hungover with sadness. It would be so easy to write him. How long until it's a more distant thought? I'm tired of it always being there. (Sorry, I thought I was writing my own post, see I can't even think...grrr.) No worries, despite all the hurt for some crazy reason I still feel some sort of caring/concern for him...just a little crazy. I have a lot of the same feelings as you do right now Link to post Share on other sites
hippetyhop Posted July 26, 2013 Share Posted July 26, 2013 SS- Hang in there! Think about what you told his W as closure. This is her problem now. What she does from here with him (whether it is denial, divorce, reconciliation) is on her choice. She will be with the liar, cheater, and manipulator. My feelings are the same as yours re. him being miserable. I really hope he is. Link to post Share on other sites
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