I can breathe again

[WakingUp]

Well, its over.

 

And strangely, my most overwhelming emotion is relief.

 

And an undercurrent of excitement that this is the first day of the rest of my life.

 

There is a HUGE weight off my back.

 

The past few weeks have been an emotional nightmare... I have been flying between anger, sadness, despair, hopelessness, anxiety... you name it.

 

Nearly five years this has gone on. It has taken its toll. The destruction has been enormous.

 

So many negatives in an affair.

 

I hope that I keep feeling this way though. You may see a bit of me in the next few weeks. But if you don't, then that means I really am OK.

 

Yay! I got my life back!

 

Hugs to all.

[Lady2163]

You sound like you are in a wonderful frame of mind. I think it must have been the perfect decision for you.

[WakingUp]

I wouldn't call it wonderful, but I really had reached the end of the line.

 

Just over a week ago I was wondering if I would need to be hospitalised, I was so distraught.

 

This is what an affair can do to you. It chews you up and spits you out.

[ladydesigner]

I wouldn't call it wonderful, but I really had reached the end of the line.

 

Just over a week ago I was wondering if I would need to be hospitalised, I was so distraught.

 

This is what an affair can do to you. It chews you up and spits you out.

 

 

I'm so sorry you had felt this way. I am a BS but I can relate to what you are saying that A's chew you up and spit you out, not only the OW/OM but the BS's as well. I believe we are just flip sides of each other.

 

I too became distraught at one point when I found out my WH's A had gone underground and I did end up in the hospital.

 

You are brave to end it and strong and I wish you peace and healing on your new journey.

[2sure]

I hope you post regardless, I like what you have to say and how you say it.

[skywriter]

Happy future to you!