This crappy feeling inside...How do i make it stop?

[SmilingMartin]

Hello!, im new to and first of all i would to say hey to everyone

 

I have a problem and i really wanna deal with it, get it out of me and live a happy life

 

My problem is that, i think very lowly of myself, I feel that im very useless and that im ugly

I dont know what the deal is, i have a lot of friends and some girls think im cute but i just dont know whats wrong

 

I really want to learn how to respect myself and gain confidence. By the way this isnt so i can get girls...its for me

I hate having to come home after hangin out with my friends feeling like a LOSER and a hopeless piece of poo

 

I wanna seek professional help but im too ashamed to tell my parents because they know me as a happy fellow, actually everyone i know knows me as the happy fellow with no problems at all. I choose to hide it because i dont wanna cause drama...i hate drama more than anything

 

What should i do?? im on the brink of breaking down

[BlueLP]

Well, you have a couple choices. You can keep feeling like this, and hiding from your parents and everyone else the fact that your exterior doesn't match your interior feelings...

 

Or you can go and talk to a professional and figure out how to reconcile these feelings with the image you project to everyone else.

 

It sounds like the idea of seeking help is very tied in with the very problem you want to work on...it's good that you have recognized the discrepancy as a source of unhappiness.

 

I would recommend talking to someone, but it is up to you what you are ready to do.