:( Should I keep trying or back off?

[Closecalll]

Hi my name is Sabrina and my (ex) boyfriends name is Chase. Chase and I have been dating for about 2 years now, we both lost our virginities to one another! Before we started dating we were friends( just thought that should be added in there). Chase has cheated on me twice but has admitted to it. he has never cheated in a way that sex is involved! After he cheated he took a break from me, because of family issues, I was very understanding and showed great sympathy! We still communicated with each other and he had stated that he never wanted to lose me again! We soon got back together about a month later! Everything was going great until a year later when something unexpected happened, I was having family and financial issues, the stress was just too much to take on, I became depressed! I told Chase that I needed a break, he was devastated but I assured him that it wouldn't be for long and I told him that I love him very much and deeply and that it wasn't going to be a long term break! He begged for a week for me to take him back, I assured him that I wasn't going anywhere and that we would be together again! 2 weeks later I asked him to take me back,he did, and I thought everything was fine! Then one day Chase decided that he needed a break because I shattered his heart and it needed to heal. Although I was devastated, I understood, and accepted it! Now things are different between us, he says that me taking the break ruined everything and I'm not sure if he wants to be with me! It's like apart of me knows he does but the other part is still guessing! I feel as if Chase and I were meant to be, matter of fact I KNOW we are! But my question is, what should I do? Should I keep trying or should I just try to move on? I try talking about it but it just turns into saying that I'm playing victim, when in reality I'm not! (We don't live together btw) I try doing no communication but I fail to follow through:(! Help me! How do I get him back before its too late! What do I do! (Also he has female best friends but if I have a male one, he feels as he's being replaced and doesn't like it). I've forgiven him for his mistakes but he can't forgive me for taking a break when it was heavily needed! Him cheating has broken my heart before but I still take him back! Help me please!

[Misfortune]

He cheated on you, twice! Admitting it doesn't make it ok. You put up with his nonsense and took him back, but he's upset with you because you were depressed/stressed out and needed time to sort yourself out? Seriously? Do your feelings matter? Him breaking your heart/damaging the health of the relationship isn't a deal breaker but, your emotional health is?

 

He seems selfish and somehow manage to make you feel guilty about everything. Shame, shame. He can also have friends of the opposite sex but you can't?