Layzie1207 Posted November 2, 2004 Share Posted November 2, 2004 Right now I just sent my ex some emails i described in another thread and said how sorry i was for how i acted, and me moving on might mean i still love her, but i want to understand what loving her means and i want to grow as a person. last night i read my conversations i had with her and i realized how bad of a person i was to her. she loved me with all her heart and i saw how mean and nasty i was and how i took her for granted and how bad of a person i was. i just started the no contact thing and i feel really down because i think im totally screwed and just think why would she ever want to give me another chance because i was not a good person. i just know in my heart how i love her and i hope she knows that somehow and knows that i would never treat her like that again. im just feeling really down because im starting to think that i have no chance again and that she is gonna be with her best friend and im going to have to live with myself knowing that i did that to the person i love. Link to post Share on other sites
DJ_Dork Posted November 3, 2004 Share Posted November 3, 2004 You messed up, it's okay. Start over fresh with another girl and try not to repeat the same mistakes. For men with each relationship, we become more efficient at selecting someone that is most compatible with us. For women... it's the same but they become more psychotic. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Layzie1207 Posted November 4, 2004 Author Share Posted November 4, 2004 ive been thinking and i think im going to try and do this. i think i am going to wait a month and a half of just break time and pray that she doesnt fall in love with her best friend lol, and then im going to ask to see her on our winter breaks and ask if i can talk to her. im going to try to tell her how sorry i am for being the person i was and treating her badly and am going to try and ask for forgiveness, becuase i basically broke her heart everyday for 2 years. and im going to try to tell her how im changing as a person and try to figure out why i acted like i did, becuase if i can figure out why, then i can prevent it in teh future. i am also going to try to explain to her how i love her and how i do want to be with her but i respect her will and decisions. any suggestions or thoughts? Link to post Share on other sites
Author Layzie1207 Posted November 4, 2004 Author Share Posted November 4, 2004 i wish i could do it sooner because i view myself as a very bad person and someoen who treated her very badly and during the time off i just think she thinks bad things about me and it eats away at me. i just constantly rack my brain with what im going to say to her and im going insane! Link to post Share on other sites
UnicornGirl Posted November 4, 2004 Share Posted November 4, 2004 Originally posted by DJ_Dork For men with each relationship, we become more efficient at selecting someone that is most compatible with us. For women... it's the same but they become more psychotic. I disagree! Link to post Share on other sites
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