Lostinlife4now Posted August 8, 2013 Share Posted August 8, 2013 (edited) So last nite I received a call from xmm (his wife was out of town with the kiddies) still being a sneak and a liar....and I had this terrible feeling of hatred for this scumbag. With every word out of his mouth I wanted to punch him through the phone. He was going on and on how wonderful his kids are, what a great father he is, how he is climbing the corporate ladder and will be CEO very soon....and all I wanted to do was spit in his face. I do not have a mean bone in my body...my bark is worse than my bite...but I feel such contempt for this person that it really scares me. The thing that he detests most in life is sick people. Yes, that's right, no empathy or sympathy for anyone who is fighting an illness. And guess what, his wife has been sick on and off for a couple of years, (I do feel sorry for her, I don't like to see anyone sick) been to various doctors and great hospitals but no actual diagnosis)...... and this is what he is saddled with. May be there is a God after all. I need to say a rosary today.!!!!! Edited August 8, 2013 by Lostinlife4now spelling 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Lostinlife4now Posted August 8, 2013 Author Share Posted August 8, 2013 Why did you answer and talk to him? I think I would've just ignored call, especially if you have such disdain for him. He sounds horrible. Does his wife know about the affair? Hi Mi Sky.... I knew I had an indifference towards him, had it for a very long time...but last nite I just felt HATRED! No idea why I answered the phone...a knee jerk reaction I guess. No his wife does NOT know about the affair! It was a long term relationship....a point in my life where I was messed up mentally! His wife is battling some kind of sickness...and NO I would not WANT her to find out. She is sick and has enough on her plate. Link to post Share on other sites
IfWishesWereHorses Posted August 8, 2013 Share Posted August 8, 2013 He's toxic, needy, and downright pathetic! Get your indifference back! Anger causes wrinkles! He's not worth it. 4 Link to post Share on other sites
amaysngrace Posted August 8, 2013 Share Posted August 8, 2013 I think it's good that you answered the call. It just reaffirms your decision to not have this person in your life anymore. Maybe you were needing that. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
ladydesigner Posted August 8, 2013 Share Posted August 8, 2013 Well I think your reaction is a healthy one because you are seeing the man and who he really is. Your anger is warranted. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
jphcbpa Posted August 8, 2013 Share Posted August 8, 2013 You are making someone else reponsible for your reaction. Just be grateful you are no longer with him. This should give you futher confirmation that you are on the right path. Refocus that energy. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
MissBee Posted August 8, 2013 Share Posted August 8, 2013 So last nite I received a call from xmm (his wife was out of town with the kiddies) still being a sneak and a liar....and I had this terrible feeling of hatred for this scumbag. With every word out of his mouth I wanted to punch him through the phone. He was going on and on how wonderful his kids are, what a great father he is, how he is climbing the corporate ladder and will be CEO very soon....and all I wanted to do was spit in his face. I do not have a mean bone in my body...my bark is worse than my bite...but I feel such contempt for this person that it really scares me. The thing that he detests most in life is sick people. Yes, that's right, no empathy or sympathy for anyone who is fighting an illness. And guess what, his wife has been sick on and off for a couple of years, (I do feel sorry for her, I don't like to see anyone sick) been to various doctors and great hospitals but no actual diagnosis)...... and this is what he is saddled with. May be there is a God after all. I need to say a rosary today.!!!!! Curious: why didn't you just hang up and tell him to eff off, in lieu of the punch? If he is that annoying, I'd frankly not have answered and certainly, even if I did, I'd not have had him go on and on and on and on...I'd have stopped him after a few words to tell him to not call me back and that I didn't care to hear about his absolute greatness. Link to post Share on other sites
freestyle Posted August 8, 2013 Share Posted August 8, 2013 The thing that he detests most in life is sick people. Yes, that's right, no empathy or sympathy for anyone who is fighting an illness. I hope he gets sick..... Poetic justice. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Lostinlife4now Posted August 8, 2013 Author Share Posted August 8, 2013 "I yearn for indifference" I said those words over and over in my counceling about ap. Almost 2 years later...all I have is deep seeded body shaking hatred. Oh Smoocherific.... Thank you....I thought I was the only one with such hatred! I am doing better now. But....But.....But...... Yes...where my insides are racing because of the hatred! Oh my..... Link to post Share on other sites
Author Lostinlife4now Posted August 8, 2013 Author Share Posted August 8, 2013 I hope he gets sick..... Poetic justice. Freestyle....where I come from we are not to wish bad things on others...it only comes back to bite in the arse......... He is too good to get sick...if you catch my drift!!! Link to post Share on other sites
Author Lostinlife4now Posted August 8, 2013 Author Share Posted August 8, 2013 Curious: why didn't you just hang up and tell him to eff off, in lieu of the punch? If he is that annoying, I'd frankly not have answered and certainly, even if I did, I'd not have had him go on and on and on and on...I'd have stopped him after a few words to tell him to not call me back and that I didn't care to hear about his absolute greatness. Ya know Miss Bee....If I even start going off on him I feel like I will have a HEART ATTACK...AND HE IS NOT WORTH IT!!!!!!! Just let me say this....EFFIN SCUMBAG LOSER!!!!!!! ahhh...there I feel better. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Lostinlife4now Posted August 8, 2013 Author Share Posted August 8, 2013 You are making someone else reponsible for your reaction. Just be grateful you are no longer with him. This should give you futher confirmation that you are on the right path. Refocus that energy. jphcbpa..... and the sad thing is I FEEL SORRY FOR HIS WIFE! I really do! If I only had the balls to tell her what he has done maybe it will snap her into getting better! SHE DESERVES BETTER!!!!! Link to post Share on other sites
Author Lostinlife4now Posted August 8, 2013 Author Share Posted August 8, 2013 Well I think your reaction is a healthy one because you are seeing the man and who he really is. Your anger is warranted. ladyd...... Thanks...I know my anger is warranted! He is a narcissistic, ego maniac, full of himself/the best negotiator this side of the east coast...(his words) oh my I just threw up in my own mouth! Link to post Share on other sites
freestyle Posted August 8, 2013 Share Posted August 8, 2013 Freestyle....where I come from we are not to wish bad things on others...it only comes back to bite in the arse......... He is too good to get sick...if you catch my drift!!! I normally follow that line of thinking myself. In this case, however, the man obviously has a severely impaired empathy chip---so going through the experience of being sick (and dependent on others) might be just what he needs. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Lostinlife4now Posted August 8, 2013 Author Share Posted August 8, 2013 I normally follow that line of thinking myself. In this case, however, the man obviously has a severely impaired empathy chip---so going through the experience of being sick (and dependent on others) might be just what he needs. Free..... I actually want to go help his wife....I know, I know...maybe make her chicken soup and clean her house and do her laundry. He always said..."I don't do the caretaker thing at all." 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Praying4Peace Posted August 8, 2013 Share Posted August 8, 2013 "I yearn for indifference" I said those words over and over in my counceling about ap. Almost 2 years later...all I have is deep seeded body shaking hatred. How Smoocherific? Where did it come from? Link to post Share on other sites
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