LilGirlandOW Posted August 18, 2013 Share Posted August 18, 2013 I hate loving a married man... I love my MM I hate waiting for him to call or text... I forget all that when he calls and texts I hate lonely nights... I hate wasting my wishes... I hate that objects in the mirror are closer than they appear. I hate that A's have valleys that sometimes flood leaving me drowning, looking up at MM on the next peek smiling & waving down at me. Bahh long day & night... Link to post Share on other sites
Art_Critic Posted August 18, 2013 Share Posted August 18, 2013 IMO, with your post in this thread...it should be no different than if you were in a relationship with a single man, if a single man that you were dating treated you this way and made you feel really bad about yourself you would kick him to the curb.. so..... 13 Link to post Share on other sites
ForeverHopeful1 Posted August 18, 2013 Share Posted August 18, 2013 So how do you stop this nonsense? It is eating you alive and that is no way to live. Link to post Share on other sites
fanine Posted August 18, 2013 Share Posted August 18, 2013 It's a roller coaster and a feeling I could never have imagined before I got involved with my xMM. The fact too when we first met he said he was separated....I believed him and I can never understand why I had to be his victim. I get angry he involved me in his life like this. I'm angry he let me fall in love with him thinking we would have a future together. It is not a way to live. The ups and downs emotionally and physically are no good. I love and hate him in equal measure. It is like being trapped. Every time I ended it before he would accuse me of not loving him...crazy. For me, I know the best thing would be to move away. He lives too near, we have mutual friends. I know he will keep trying to get back with me and that hurts more each time and makes me more angry each time. But then I am angry too that my whole life will be turned upside down while he goes back to playing happy families and will no doubt find another victim. But in the end we have to think of our lives....we can't live like this forever. They have shown their colours. One day it will all be a distant memory. However hard it may be to end it, none of us want our lives to be like this. Always fitting in to their schedules, waiting for calls, not being able to show we are upset because of the situation. The times I cried alone because of him. And then yes I would get the fix when he next called and we had a day together. But then he would go home and I would feel so empty. I had to hide so much. The guilt I would feel. How I wanted to meet his kids but of course I could not once I knew he had returned to the wife.... We don't deserve lives like this. You don't. I don't. No one does. I have become a woman I don't recognise. I want the old me back and we both deserve men who will love us fully x Link to post Share on other sites
Quiet Storm Posted August 18, 2013 Share Posted August 18, 2013 You have the power to make it stop. You can love someone, and not be with them. You can logically decide that this person is not good for you. 3 Link to post Share on other sites
LimeBlue Posted August 18, 2013 Share Posted August 18, 2013 I hate that A's have valleys that sometimes flood leaving me drowning, looking up at MM on the next peek smiling & waving down at me. Feeling the same way this weekend. I was doing fine, and am usually alright during the week. But weekends get to me and well... I don't know. I am in the flood with you at the moment Whilst he is looking down if i am lucky, but he has probably not even bothered to look down. Link to post Share on other sites
Goodbye Posted August 18, 2013 Share Posted August 18, 2013 Are you strong enough to be true to yourself? To say you deserve more than wasted hours waiting for a text? Eventually you will have enough. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Archanaart Posted August 18, 2013 Share Posted August 18, 2013 I hate loving a married man... I love my MM I hate waiting for him to call or text... I forget all that when he calls and texts I hate lonely nights... I hate wasting my wishes... I hate that objects in the mirror are closer than they appear. I hate that A's have valleys that sometimes flood leaving me drowning, looking up at MM on the next peek smiling & waving down at me. Bahh long day & night... Then why did you allow yourself to get into this situation? And if you feel like you're "drowning" then do something about it instead of going on about it? Make change and stop being weak and letting a MAN control everything. like wtf 2 Link to post Share on other sites
BrokenPrincess Posted August 19, 2013 Share Posted August 19, 2013 Have you heard from him yet? Any explanation on the disappearing act? Link to post Share on other sites
xxoo Posted August 19, 2013 Share Posted August 19, 2013 If you're drowning, for goodness sake, start swimming for shore! 2 Link to post Share on other sites
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