The Long and Winding Road

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I know I just posted a reply on my other topic.. but adding this to that is just too much reading

Ok so anyway yesterday I called him..we are working on splitting our phone plan. He called me back and talked to me during his lunch at work. Then he called me again during his break. Then he came over after work. Didnt call, just showed up.

 

He had dinner with me. It was kinda odd... like he was rumaging through the cupboards and the fridge.. just like he used to. But this time... when we were watching tv, he sat away from me.. not on the couch ..and he let me have the remote. Thats new!

 

He got up a few times and everytime he came back he sat closer to me. We talked for 5 hours. Laughing and having a great time. The he had to go home. He asked me what I was doing later that night. I was all umm I am going to sleep soon. He said yeh he should probably go to sleep too.

 

It was nice to have him there, it was fun to hang out with him.. and even though I wanted to lean over and kiss him or hold on a little longer for his goodbye hug, I restrained myself. I was kinda proud of myself.

 

The weird thing is, it took him 15 minutes to leave. He went halfway down the stairs and was talking. Then stood at the foot of the stairs and was talking. Then he walked around under the balcony and starting talking from there.. he walked away and came back three times. It was all silly stuff like "hey for $5 I will jump in the pool" he came back "ok $10" so then i said "I am not going to make your decision.. if you jump in the pool you do it for yourself"

 

He finally left but he seemed so reluctant. I dunno it seemed like he felt comfortable here. He also seemed to be more I dunno he just seemed more naturally him than I have seen him or heard him to be in a long time. I dunno why he lingered I dunno why he called so much. I dont know.

 

But I am happy that we could hang out and not be weird. I am just going to continue to be me.. and if it reminds him of why he was with me in the first place then great. If it reminds him of why he left me then thats ok too.