Author hurts2death Posted September 5, 2013 Author Share Posted September 5, 2013 so we experienced sth similar..... do you believe in karma? their karma will get them....dont spend time on it waiting to get them but one day you will see , i can promise you that...... she is my first love too... and guess what now i will visit salonica where we spent our best time living together i hope i can survive it... i dont want to break down... better now than later.. though it would be nice to go and relax somedays just to change the ocasion you know... how much time where you together? did you give it all like me? make him top priority of everything? if i survive this i will be wise i believe.......... but guess what i already am adopting the new universe i am in...... Unfortunatelly this villagelike point of view is exactly how most people think regarding weddings and baptisms etc.Especially if you live in the countryside and not in Athens where everybody knows everybody and they gossip. Yeah don't bother any more thinking about this.Although I'm sure tomorrow you will be here again in your mourning. Last year around this time my boyfriend suddendly broke up with me.He was my first love.I was shocked.Some days later I find out he already has moved on to the next woman.A woman who is older,less attractive and educated than me and who he even had mentioned to me in the past and made fun of.He went in the last months behind my back met this woman and after he had established this relationship decided to inform me that we are done.Of course without bother to mention that he had already found the replacement. You know what?That just there proved to me that i was in love with someone who didn't even exist.It was a creature that my imagination and love had created and was only in my head and heart.In truth he just showed me that he was a scumbag that wasn't even worth two tears.Not the kind of man I thought I was with all this time. Was my love a lie?No.Because from my side my feelings were true and pure and strong and fiery.I am grateful for all the good times we had together for all the nice memories that I lived because of him but..thank goodness he showed his true colours and I can move on to someone who is true and honest. And you know what?Two months later and even though I was absolutely not looking for relationship just trying to enjoy the single life,I met him. I think as time passes your perspective will change you will realise all her faults how she wasn't that great how ****ty she has treated you and how little she cares about your feelings and then you will stop caring because she just isn't worth it.But you have to find some things to do you know?Start some new activity,football or basketball or join a gym.Help yourself to raise your confidence.So that when your path crosses ,even tomorrow who knows,with the right woman ,you won't be too busy crying over someone who doesn't even care for you. Link to post Share on other sites
Malakas Posted September 5, 2013 Share Posted September 5, 2013 so we experienced sth similar..... do you believe in karma? their karma will get them....dont spend time on it waiting to get them but one day you will see , i can promise you that...... she is my first love too... and guess what now i will visit salonica where we spent our best time living together i hope i can survive it... i dont want to break down... better now than later.. though it would be nice to go and relax somedays just to change the ocasion you know... how much time where you together? did you give it all like me? make him top priority of everything? if i survive this i will be wise i believe.......... but guess what i already am adopting the new universe i am in...... Salonika is a big city with lots and lots of places.It is said that the girls there are the most beautiful.Go to some new places and rediscover the city with new eyes now that you are single.Go in the dusk in the castle and drink your coffee by the panoramic view,as night falls you can go to the port and take a taste of the night life.Maybe you don't feel like it but even seeing all these people and beautiful girls laughing and having good times and that life goes on will help you to move on.Listen to some Mitropanos and Kazantzidis and all the other singers who talk about pain and suffering and in the end that it's not worth it !They were meant to be listened foremost in Salonika those singers(even if it's not my cup of tea its the best music for breakups!)There are plenty of fish in the sea.Come on you are what 24?Life just begins.Or you really think that at age 24 you are done as a man?Mourn and cry and move on. About Karma.The truth is I don't care what happens to him.I used in the very beginning to be angry and wish he can feel even for a minute as bad as what I feel but after a while I stopped thinking about him much.Then I saw some dreams from time to time about meeting him and being angry and shouting at him but then even the dreams stopped and now I just don't care at all.But with the character he has revealed he has I think that he will suffer one day.Who cares anyway?We were together 2 years.No I didn't give it all as the top priority in my life.I used to,in the first months then I realised that it wasn't healthy that you can't depend your happiness that much on another person and i should focus alittle more on myself so I can have a healthy relationship with equal partners.I didn't have my life revolve around him I did in the beginning and it was sick.I suggest as you begin to focus again on yourself that you look into this.You can give a girl all your love and care but don't make her or anyone again the top priority in your life.You are your top priority and you should learn to love and care more for yourself. Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 5, 2013 Author Share Posted September 5, 2013 just arrived ... thanks for the tips... i dont think the city has other laces than these lived with her , i turn the city upside down literaly all of it....in and out and chalkidiki too so i must find a way to love it again in an other perspective..... tomorow morning i will go to the cafe we used to go,, cant avoid that its the best so i must find a way,,, all the way i think how she trashed everything for her self it gets easy for me to watch other girls.... but i understand its early but for company no problem i believe,,,,,,.... lets see how its turn out....i hope i will make it... its kind scary that the city that i explored with her was like a fairy tail now it feels like a dark corner full of demons i must defeat this circuit of thinking asap.. god i want to live again,,,,, the best.... john Salonika is a big city with lots and lots of places.It is said that the girls there are the most beautiful.Go to some new places and rediscover the city with new eyes now that you are single.Go in the dusk in the castle and drink your coffee by the panoramic view,as night falls you can go to the port and take a taste of the night life.Maybe you don't feel like it but even seeing all these people and beautiful girls laughing and having good times and that life goes on will help you to move on.Listen to some Mitropanos and Kazantzidis and all the other singers who talk about pain and suffering and in the end that it's not worth it !They were meant to be listened foremost in Salonika those singers(even if it's not my cup of tea its the best music for breakups!)There are plenty of fish in the sea.Come on you are what 24?Life just begins.Or you really think that at age 24 you are done as a man?Mourn and cry and move on. About Karma.The truth is I don't care what happens to him.I used in the very beginning to be angry and wish he can feel even for a minute as bad as what I feel but after a while I stopped thinking about him much.Then I saw some dreams from time to time about meeting him and being angry and shouting at him but then even the dreams stopped and now I just don't care at all.But with the character he has revealed he has I think that he will suffer one day.Who cares anyway?We were together 2 years.No I didn't give it all as the top priority in my life.I used to,in the first months then I realised that it wasn't healthy that you can't depend your happiness that much on another person and i should focus alittle more on myself so I can have a healthy relationship with equal partners.I didn't have my life revolve around him I did in the beginning and it was sick.I suggest as you begin to focus again on yourself that you look into this.You can give a girl all your love and care but don't make her or anyone again the top priority in your life.You are your top priority and you should learn to love and care more for yourself. Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 6, 2013 Author Share Posted September 6, 2013 just woke up 07:25 staring the harbor view ,,, i feel just bitter , i realized i was crying before i woke up completely... had dreams weird dreams about her...... the pain i feel right now is just unbearable...... constant thoughts constant memories poping all the time... if that girl made me psycho sick then she didnt love me,,,,, and someone must tell her that you cant cut the past in order to acquire a better future.....(future past and present all exist at the same time and that is approved) i am sure she will see that,, but it will just be late... how i feel about a trator? i feel numb,.cold and feel pain.. i feel she drunk all my blood to the last drop of it.... last night i was taking a walk in the city center so many beautifull girls eyeing me but i just have this spinning in my head...-they will not be her and whats the point?... i mean it truly feels as a foreign enviroment as you must learn to live in sth new a new universe....... i am to a point that i feel i am getting my karma..all that miles done for her all this countless times in the thiver of the passion that i had in this love are all gone are all made dust are all evaporised,,,, i am paying all this efford now,,, thats my karma and i feel it. i dont know what will be her karma but i dont care that much either.... i am going downtown again.... so this social thing that now makes feel the energy of the people back in the days was the threat of our love and we were keeping it together (like bieber says in -as long as you love me-" " ) now i see i was the only one to respect the values of our RL..... what if there is 6 billion people around the globe.. ? we keep it together no matter,,,,, thats the point,,,, that is love to be mine and be yours and respect that,,,, all other things are bs.... unless if you never felt it.... i hope i will make it through the day... Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 6, 2013 Author Share Posted September 6, 2013 i am back i am soooooooooo tired.. dont know why..... i think i am getting better but the progress is super slow. i am keeping nc as a dumpee..... Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 6, 2013 Author Share Posted September 6, 2013 (edited) give me a break in a city of 3 million people i bumped into her brother hope he didnt notice i changed direction and walked out of the clothe shop.... what a small world..... please tell me should i talk to him? i am keeping no contact all the way.... Edited September 6, 2013 by hurts2death Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 7, 2013 Author Share Posted September 7, 2013 i think i did the best to avoid him imediatly... what you think? Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 7, 2013 Author Share Posted September 7, 2013 woke up had outburst... last night while i was trying to sleep and seeing the city and the harbor from the balcony i was like hell.... once this hole thing was "ours" now i have it alone.... i felt like i should do sth or die while my dreams are getting burned... i wont be pathetic anymore... i wont allow my self to feel that,, i dont deserve it...it is me .not her,,,, getting ready to go downtown again,,, see people,, drink coffee meditate, and let go even more Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 8, 2013 Author Share Posted September 8, 2013 last night i went for a drink ... damn i know things are over.. i saw some gorgeus women turning heads multiple times but its this idea all the time of her,,,how am i going to start over? its impossible i believe ...s hit i feel f uck. i wish her karma arrives.. she brought total nightmare to john(me) i now feel numb and time hurts me... goodmorning to all Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 8, 2013 Author Share Posted September 8, 2013 JUST CHECKED HER UNCLE POSTED A PIC OF HIM AND HER she looks so "all seems ok" wtf? am i so low value? is all that? wtf? i am depressed i dont want to let go i must... god give me the strength Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 8, 2013 Author Share Posted September 8, 2013 i feel the death all inside me.............. so ruined cant take it ,, i am dead man walking,,,,, Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 8, 2013 Author Share Posted September 8, 2013 (edited) the pain i feel is just unbearable....... the love of my life .. the woman of my dreams... the girl that rescued me is gone,,,, what left on universe for me? how my heart will survive this? every city corner has a memory . a scene with her... i am just lost again,,,, Edited September 8, 2013 by hurts2death Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 9, 2013 Author Share Posted September 9, 2013 (edited) woke up // i feel the same.. bitterness and chest presure. my mind is tricking me all the way her face seems so -everything is ok- wtf why do i still care? am i saint or sth? i go downtown now to forget my mind Edited September 9, 2013 by hurts2death Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 10, 2013 Author Share Posted September 10, 2013 guys at night i drink sometimes not much though .... i am stressed in the mornings ..wtf yesterday two guys hitted on me.... they were sooo annoying....omg am i a guy that gays love? and in the bars i go beautifull women are approached by ugly low class (regarding style) people .. and regardless they look poor too(i know it doesnt matter) the girls look to enjoy it... how on earth i will find a nice girl again? toooo many... the possibilities are s hit Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 10, 2013 Author Share Posted September 10, 2013 guys help me i am going to break nc,, cant resist. but she wont change her mind .. and i dont think she will answer too.. how bad i feel,,,,,, keep nc Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 10, 2013 Author Share Posted September 10, 2013 went for drinks again..... as much as i think what she sold for nothing i feel destroyed and angree i cry everywhile ...but i think it gets better.. i am not sure though Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 11, 2013 Author Share Posted September 11, 2013 some mornings i dream of her wanting us back.... f ucking jaden....... Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 11, 2013 Author Share Posted September 11, 2013 i think i found a therapy that accelerates the healing process.. guys if you v been dumped go out there and look sexy and all... i got hit by mothers today and it feels super... i also got hit by a A female probably call girl.... lol my confidence rises.... and its my ex problem she left me she left the RL not me... b itch... jaden go hang. i just feel i have some power eventually.. and the other thing i noticed is i can go for drinks alone for coffee alone and not only i feel full by me but is soooo much easier to flirt around... i will keep you posted,,,, hope it will work Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 11, 2013 Author Share Posted September 11, 2013 the stubborn pain wont let go..... Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 13, 2013 Author Share Posted September 13, 2013 (edited) i am trying to let go.... in the end she did it , not me ... it was not a reason or at least sth that cant be fixed,,,,,, i woke up swaeting like hell and crying.... i dreamed about her,,,, i guess its over in real life but her ghost is there,,,,,,,,,,, i am devastated she was not changing her mind in my dream and she was cold and distant......... i pain like there is no tomorow and i pray to make it through.even if i just could give everything to change time.... thank you all Edited September 13, 2013 by hurts2death Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 14, 2013 Author Share Posted September 14, 2013 woke up and cant breath it is also kind of throw up feeling.... cmon now give me a break.. will i die over this... she dumped me she doesnt deserve my pain at all...wtf am i feeling like that? Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 14, 2013 Author Share Posted September 14, 2013 its been almost 3 week since we met and she said to take space... since then the first 10 days i was like a junkie then i stood up and then i somehow forgot... now i feel sth that i never experienced again .i get stressed like in panic attack and am always tired... i also think of her all the time and the closure events and i try to avoid it.... Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 14, 2013 Author Share Posted September 14, 2013 my feelings are mixed now.. my brain forgets that she dumped me. and sth makes me reach her.. i know its wrong i will not do it. she dumped me... not me and i did everything to ensure any open door with good behavior to let her in if she likes... but aint seeing it. so for me its little soon to trash 3 years.. omg... i will write down to a letter the events of the closure to keep looking at them when my feelings are getting mixed to try and stay clean Link to post Share on other sites
dreamingoftigers Posted September 14, 2013 Share Posted September 14, 2013 It'll probably take about six months to process the devastation. I found that hiking regularly throughout the week for at least an hour each time really helped with that. I've been through some awful breakup and marriage separation circumstances where I felt like I would surely die. You get past it, grow, strengthen abd become more selective on what you will expose your heart to. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Author hurts2death Posted September 14, 2013 Author Share Posted September 14, 2013 i hope i will do it.6 months sounds a lot but i will try...thanks for the answer. cute baby in avatar... -johnIt'll probably take about six months to process the devastation. I found that hiking regularly throughout the week for at least an hour each time really helped with that. I've been through some awful breakup and marriage separation circumstances where I felt like I would surely die. You get past it, grow, strengthen abd become more selective on what you will expose your heart to. Link to post Share on other sites
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