The Truth , I am married to a Bi-Polar Schizophrenic person and it is so hard

[kennedy37]

I made a giant mistake by not knowing and not understanding the mind of a Bi-Polar Schizophrenic person . They are revenge seekers and use anything and everything to get revenge . They also play constant Mind games pulling you into their world so they can Win the mind game .

 

Getting involved with the Swinger couple was the worst thing that I could ever have done . Of course when I got involved with a swinger couple I had no idea that Bi-Polar would be her true diagnosis , after all I had been married to her for over 10 years , we had two children and did all kinds of things together.

 

You Can't talk about Bi-Polar Schizophrenia because no one understands it and certainly they look normal on the outside. You try anything and everything to understand them , your so afraid of your spouse even if it is a woman . But she had never showed hostility towards the children in any way, so what makes her show such hostility towards her husband , or driving a car almost hitting a man or woman on the road and laughing about it . Or constantly instigation of vicious verbal attacks . Or even become paranoid to the extend she may commit murder .

[Clockwork]

I dated a girl that was depressed and took anti-depressants. Initially that isn't a deal breaker, but she had constant mood swings, inferiority complex, jealousy issues, the inability to be discreet with certain topics, and then the attempted suicides.

 

Been there done that, wrote a book about it. The best decision I ever made, other than marrying my wife was getting away from her. So I know exactly how hard it is to deal with a person like that. It is a full-time job and it never ends. Once I became more of a doctor to her than a boyfriend I knew it was over. She refused to get help, counselling or anything. So I feel for you.

[Nyla]

People don't seek help for mental illness out of a sense of shame and foolish pride.

 

What they don't realize is that treatment helps them to avoid situations where their illness could make them look ridiculous.

 

Kennedy37, is there any way that you can have your wife hospitalized? Sometimes a week long stay in a psych ward is needed to determine the best medications and therapy.

 

My husband appreciates the way I handle my bipolar disorder, along with different issues that stem from an abusive childhood. I have a safety plan in place and I know my warning signs for an episode. I also take my medicine, keep a journal and see a therapist as needed. If I behaved like Clockwork's ex, my husband would not have married me.

[janedoe67]

My first question - has she been diagnosed by an actual doctor who knows what he is doing?

 

Here are some reasons that people with mental illness do not seek help:

 

They fear that having a disease makes them damaged goods (even though no one would call a diabetic, asthmatic, or paraplegic damaged goods)

 

They think people will be scared of them (though no one is generally afraid of someone with diabetes, cancer, cerebral palsy, or lupus)

 

They are afraid that having a disease of the brain and taking medication for it makes them less of a person (though we rarely think of the insulin or albuterol user as less of a person)

 

They are afraid no one will ever want to be close to or intimate with them because of their disease (though people are generally not repelled by the person with epilepsy or fibromyalgia or COPD)

 

It can be hard to live with someone who is being treated for a physiological disease of the brain such as bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, clinical depression, or the like. It can also be hard to live with someone who has diabetes, allergies to nuts, asthma, cancer, or multiple Sclerosis.

 

But it is only with mental illness that we as a society would prefer to bring back the mental illness version of leper colonies because we actually believe all those super-dramatized stories on law and order.

 

The happiest day of my life was when my very good and thorough doctor told me that my diagnosis of bipolar disorder during a time of heavy crisi in my life was actually a MISdiagnosis. It was the day I knew society would consider me a valuable and non-scary person again.

 

I hope one day we will shed this silliness that diseases located above the neck are so stigmatized

[pie2]

OP - Are you sure that is the actual diagnosis? That is what her doctor said she was?

[kennedy37]

People don't seek help for mental illness out of a sense of shame and foolish pride.

 

What they don't realize is that treatment helps them to avoid situations where their illness could make them look ridiculous.

 

Kennedy37, is there any way that you can have your wife hospitalized? Sometimes a week long stay in a psych ward is needed to determine the best medications and therapy.

 

My husband appreciates the way I handle my bipolar disorder, along with different issues that stem from an abusive childhood. I have a safety plan in place and I know my warning signs for an episode. I also take my medicine, keep a journal and see a therapist as needed. If I behaved like Clockwork's ex, my husband would not have married me.

 

 

 

Naturally there is much I can not say to you or anyone else especially when it may result in loosing my job . Yes I have put her into an institution some 2 years ago for a month , my insurance covered it or I would have paid it myself . What happened I had asked her to stop seeing her lover , she said she would and did . But She kept on seeing him behind my back , then one day I took her cell phone while she was sleeping and downloaded the last months messages . Then I printed them out , there were over 7,000 messages sent to her lover of all sorts , that she sent , plus he returned them . I went ballistic and walked into the kitchen with the many pages of messages copied and printed . I showed her , like a Cat in and instant she turned and grabbed a knife and tried to stab me , She sliced my hand wide open requiring about 30 stitches . Bleeding I drove myself to emergency . The next day I confronted her that she needs to see a Psychiatrist or we divorce . That is when she was officially diagnosed as Bi Polar Schizophrenic , and as well as believed to be a Narcissistic because she has no emotions or feelings when she does wrong , she virtually never admits to guilt or wrong . I am always the one wrong, I am a controller according to her . Her female Psychiatrist said Run from this relationship that she considered her one of her worst cases . She spent over a month on the top floor of a beautiful facility in downtown Houston . I remember going up on the roof and having sex with her , she wanted sex so bad , I thought she was heeling because she actually wanted sex with me .

 

I told her she can not see her lover again, after she got home she decided to sleep in another bed , so for 2 years we slept separately and had no sex . But she had lots of sex with her lover all the time . So basically this is the way it has been for about 2 years now . To make up for it , she says it is OK to have sex with Shelly , her lovers wife .

 

So yes I have had her in an institution , she also ran up a large credit card expense over 27,000 dollars I had to pay off . After that I took all cards away from and got a lawyer involved. Now I give her 3,000 in cash each month and make sure she has no bills to pay .

She still managed to get a credit card behind my back but the Lawyer fixed it so I am not responsible anymore for her debts .

 

I have live in house keepers and Nannies and a woman comes in 3 times a week to tutor my autistic son . But none last long with her personality ,they get insulted and leave .

 

My wife had an extremely abusive child hood, locked in a closet everyday , she hated her parents and hates authority , hates me for my authority . She was molested constantly as a child and her father did not protect her , her mother was an alcoholic and had sex with other men a million times when her father was at work . her mother had sex many times in front of her , and she hated her mother .

[kennedy37]

People don't seek help for mental illness out of a sense of shame and foolish pride.

 

What they don't realize is that treatment helps them to avoid situations where their illness could make them look ridiculous.

 

Kennedy37, is there any way that you can have your wife hospitalized? Sometimes a week long stay in a psych ward is needed to determine the best medications and therapy.

 

My husband appreciates the way I handle my bipolar disorder, along with different issues that stem from an abusive childhood. I have a safety plan in place and I know my warning signs for an episode. I also take my medicine, keep a journal and see a therapist as needed. If I behaved like Clockwork's ex, my husband would not have married me.

 

 

Believe it or not I still love my wife so much , and I forgive her so easily . She is not a woman , she is a child in a woman's body . When we meet someone and fall in love we do know them or their past . It took about 10 years for her inner self to come out and when it did she became extremely unbearable . I do not have the authority to put her in a institution with her psychiatrist help . I do not tell the psychiatrist everything because she would put her away almost instantly , but still she has never hurt the children .

 

I really love coming home to her and seeing her , we love each other , but no sex , she is 32 and I am 37 , she is in her prime and enjoys sex , but not with me . She constantly says I remind her of her father and she hated her father . She hates being controlled in any way . She refuses to go back to the psychiatrist because she is scared she will put her back in a hospital . Until she does something violent again I will not force her to go back . She plays mind games constantly ,she loves winning her mind games .

[pie2]

OP - Are you sure that is the actual diagnosis? That is what her doctor said she was?

 

It's just that very often, when someone has schizophrenia and bipolar disorder, s/he would most likely have Schizoaffective Disorder. Is that her diagnosis?

[Nyla]

My first question - has she been diagnosed by an actual doctor who knows what he is doing?

 

Here are some reasons that people with mental illness do not seek help:

 

They fear that having a disease makes them damaged goods (even though no one would call a diabetic, asthmatic, or paraplegic damaged goods)

 

They think people will be scared of them (though no one is generally afraid of someone with diabetes, cancer, cerebral palsy, or lupus)

 

They are afraid that having a disease of the brain and taking medication for it makes them less of a person (though we rarely think of the insulin or albuterol user as less of a person)

 

They are afraid no one will ever want to be close to or intimate with them because of their disease (though people are generally not repelled by the person with epilepsy or fibromyalgia or COPD)

 

It can be hard to live with someone who is being treated for a physiological disease of the brain such as bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, clinical depression, or the like. It can also be hard to live with someone who has diabetes, allergies to nuts, asthma, cancer, or multiple Sclerosis.

 

But it is only with mental illness that we as a society would prefer to bring back the mental illness version of leper colonies because we actually believe all those super-dramatized stories on law and order.

 

The happiest day of my life was when my very good and thorough doctor told me that my diagnosis of bipolar disorder during a time of heavy crisi in my life was actually a MISdiagnosis. It was the day I knew society would consider me a valuable and non-scary person again.

 

I hope one day we will shed this silliness that diseases located above the neck are so stigmatized

 

I have learned to stop disclosing my illness in real life.

 

First of all, people do not respect my privacy by announcing my illness to everyone they know.

 

They judge me harshly for having an illness, tell me that I am "weak" "fragile" and "damaged goods".

 

Men have tried to use my illness to control me. They have also demanded that I come off my medicine and then left me when I got sick.

 

I was once kicked out of a place because I was stupid enough to trust the woman who lived above me. She was a nurse. When I was going into an ambulance for a broken arm, she called the landlords and told them I was going to a mental hospital.

 

I came back home and accidentally burnt some toast. This kunt told the landlords I was "burning the house down." There is a special place in hell for people like that.

 

So I hide my illness like a terrible secret because I would like to be respected as a human being.

 

Everyone has preconceived notions of those with mental illness. "Bipolar people are promiscuous manipulators" or "Bipolar women can't have children because it is too risky". It is like living on an island alone.

 

My husband does not judge me for my illness, nor does he patronize me by asking if I took my meds every time I get upset.

 

OP, you cannot stay with your wife. She can murder you if she can slice open your hand! Do you want your kids to see your wife kill you one day?

[kennedy37]

It's just that very often, when someone has schizophrenia and bipolar disorder, s/he would most likely have Schizoaffective Disorder. Is that her diagnosis?

 

Yes she is on disability for Bi-Polar Schizophrenia

[kennedy37]

I have learned to stop disclosing my illness in real life.

 

First of all, people do not respect my privacy by announcing my illness to everyone they know.

 

They judge me harshly for having an illness, tell me that I am "weak" "fragile" and "damaged goods".

 

Men have tried to use my illness to control me. They have also demanded that I come off my medicine and then left me when I got sick.

 

I was once kicked out of a place because I was stupid enough to trust the woman who lived above me. She was a nurse. When I was going into an ambulance for a broken arm, she called the landlords and told them I was going to a mental hospital.

 

I came back home and accidentally burnt some toast. This kunt told the landlords I was "burning the house down." There is a special place in hell for people like that.

 

So I hide my illness like a terrible secret because I would like to be respected as a human being.

 

Everyone has preconceived notions of those with mental illness. "Bipolar people are promiscuous manipulators" or "Bipolar women can't have children because it is too risky". It is like living on an island alone.

 

My husband does not judge me for my illness, nor does he patronize me by asking if I took my meds every time I get upset.

 

OP, you cannot stay with your wife. She can murder you if she can slice open your hand! Do you want your kids to see your wife kill you one day?

 

I must stay with my wife unless she gets physical again . I love her too much to allow her to be miserable . I know I am taking a chance that I could regret but she is my wife . The day she cut my hand was a very bad day , I had cornered her and she goes crazy when someone corners her . Even in an argument she goes crazy . So I have learned not to corner her into a box she can not escape from . She has gotten better to some degree . We have had the Nanny and house keeper for nearly a year now , she loves the special ed teacher for my autistic son. I had a vasectomy so we will never have any more children , and her lover had a vasectomy .

 

She will take her anti-depressants , but if a medication makes her feel bad she will not take it . I get down real easy sometimes . I am leaving tomorrow again. My company makes special equipment used in Hydraulic Frac'ing , we have 6 facilities . The largest is in Texas and all of that equipment goes to China . We just signed a big contract that will take almost 4 years to fill . so about half my time is spent in Texas, I live in the Woodlands Tx.

 

Even though we differ , you are the only one I found that has an understanding of this illness . Night time

[pie2]

Yes she is on disability for Bi-Polar Schizophrenia

 

She is on disability...what does that refer to? As in, receiving state funds because she is disabled?

[janedoe67]

Nyla, my heart breaks for you and I so understand. I lost a job because I thought I could trust my "understanding bosses." Even though my diagnosis was "downgraded" to cyclothemia, I never tell people about it or that I take meds because they look at me differently.

 

I wish I could give you a hug.

[kennedy37]

She is on disability...what does that refer to? As in, receiving state funds because she is disabled?

 

Yes all that means is a person has went to the process and is no receiving disability , it is a hundred times easier now since Obama took office . So it really does not mean much anymore. Yes she gets a small check from SSD , for Mental Illness, many people are legally mentally ill . They still do everything , drive , cook, clean , and work . But normally employers will not hire you if your on mental SSD . She does anything she wants , it means little .

[kennedy37]

I dated a girl that was depressed and took anti-depressants. Initially that isn't a deal breaker, but she had constant mood swings, inferiority complex, jealousy issues, the inability to be discreet with certain topics, and then the attempted suicides.

 

Been there done that, wrote a book about it. The best decision I ever made, other than marrying my wife was getting away from her. So I know exactly how hard it is to deal with a person like that. It is a full-time job and it never ends. Once I became more of a doctor to her than a boyfriend I knew it was over. She refused to get help, counselling or anything. So I feel for you.

 

 

Often we do not know the extent of any condition until it has been properly diagnosed , and even then it is a long learning process because each human brain is different . What makes it even worse , no two Psychiatrist have the exact same opinions , one will say one thing and another say something else . The patient must like and trust the Psychiatrist . My wife does not trust her psychiatrist because she thinks she will put her into an institution , so she refuses to go back and I don't blame her.

 

It was me whom went to the same Psychiatrist to understand my wife after her violence and cutting my hand, A bi-polar Schizo will affect his or her partner or mate and often in a negative way .

[kennedy37]

She is on disability...what does that refer to? As in, receiving state funds because she is disabled?

Sorry , I misspell words , I type so fast and rarely use spell check

[Nyla]

Nyla, my heart breaks for you and I so understand. I lost a job because I thought I could trust my "understanding bosses." Even though my diagnosis was "downgraded" to cyclothemia, I never tell people about it or that I take meds because they look at me differently.

 

I wish I could give you a hug.

 

Here's an online one *hug*.

 

It is sad that we live in a society where people are judged for an illness.

 

The good thing is I learned to walk away from anyone who does not accept me for it.

 

My husband and I broke up for a minute when we were dating. I had another dude on the rebound. When he found out about my condition, he said "Normally I would step back, but I like you so I will give you a chance." I broke up with him by email with no guilt at all.

 

Kennedy37, I can't feel sympathy for someone who allows himself to be abused and exploited. Mental illness or not, if I cut my husband's hand open he would be out the door.

[kennedy37]

Here's an online one *hug*.

 

It is sad that we live in a society where people are judged for an illness.

 

The good thing is I learned to walk away from anyone who does not accept me for it.

 

My husband and I broke up for a minute when we were dating. I had another dude on the rebound. When he found out about my condition, he said "Normally I would step back, but I like you so I will give you a chance." I broke up with him by email with no guilt at all.

 

Kennedy37, I can't feel sympathy for someone who allows himself to be abused and exploited. Mental illness or not, if I cut my husband's hand open he would be out the door.

I understand completely and don't blame you. I am mostly venting and things get built up inside sometimes . your honest and genuine and I appreciate it . Maybe I am the one who is crazy not her . I am so busy most of the time I do not dwell , but then at times I do . My hand heeled fine and later she cried about what she did and said she was sorry . Saying she is sorry is really big for her, those are very hard words for her to come by .

[todreaminblue]

like nyla i have had my issues with disclosure......guys think you give crazy head and sex if you are mentally ill and become actually quite harrassing

 

also like nyla,

people judging, being scared of me when i say i have stayed in a psyche ward, so not only do you have to deal with the illness you have but you have to deal with ignorance and false judgement and try and relate to people who dont understand what the illness is so therefore have no clue who you are or what you stand for....ignorance sucks....

 

 

i have said this before, serial killers quite commonly are normal average everyday people who could live next door to you they have no illness, never been in a psyche ward and they bury people under their floorboard and cut them up and serve them for dinner...some of them even had wives gfs parents who had no idea whatsoever what they were really, with mental illness, people who often stay in psyche wards or mental hospitals......have been diagnosed because they exhibit certain behaviors they are out there open and honest and trying to get help...

 

i am schizo affective.......i am also a pacifist i dont hit or hurt people unless in defense of my family or myself..yoru wife might have issues....the truth is she has these issues and you are aware of how you feel about her, you dont trust her, you are scared of her and you say derogatory things....

 

 

why you were swinging with her??????......when she has these issues i have no idea why you would think risky sex would help......doesnt make sense to this schizo but then i am not "normal" so please explain it to me.....

 

 

 

 

people with mental illness need stability routine and support....not wild sex with random couples...that is just something i know as fact.....

 

you are not suited to yrou wife and you truly do need more help than you will get on this board.....stop the swinging bad move probabl;y bought on an attack.........for starters stop the wild sex and work on your relationship...find a caring compassionate doctor who can guide you into seeking the best possible help to save your marriage...and if that doesnt twork....you did you best...if i knew a partner felt like i could kill him, surprisingly enough,i would leave and not see him again

 

not everyone who has schizophrenia wants revenge........i suffer from paranoia actually going through a bit now, what it does is make me reclusive, i retreat which is common with people going through episodes they bunker down by themselves..... ,i think people are after me and i do not in any way shape or form think i could ever hurt another....unless....i had to for my own life or family....i dont believe in hitting others let alone cutting them up and serving their liver......i took up kick boxing for self defence .....because the only violence i have had in my life is by so called normal people taking what they want from me...and satisfying their own cruel natures and sick desires........you never know anyone you know...

 

 

people normal people can flip and take a rifle and shoot out a whole school........only god knows hearts....i give up trying to understand people......i just try not to judge them and give them a chance or two or three.....i must be mental.....

 

 

 

you do need help and i hope you seek it....i wish your wife well with a husband who loves her....or by herself finding happiness herself....and i wish happiness for you everyone deserves respect and happiness...peace out......deb

[kennedy37]

like nyla i have had my issues with disclosure......guys think you give crazy head and sex if you are mentally ill and become actually quite harrassing

 

also like nyla,

people judging, being scared of me when i say i have stayed in a psyche ward, so not only do you have to deal with the illness you have but you have to deal with ignorance and false judgement and try and relate to people who dont understand what the illness is so therefore have no clue who you are or what you stand for....ignorance sucks....

 

 

i have said this before, serial killers quite commonly are normal average everyday people who could live next door to you they have no illness, never been in a psyche ward and they bury people under their floorboard and cut them up and serve them for dinner...some of them even had wives gfs parents who had no idea whatsoever what they were really, with mental illness, people who often stay in psyche wards or mental hospitals......have been diagnosed because they exhibit certain behaviors they are out there open and honest and trying to get help...

 

i am schizo affective.......i am also a pacifist i dont hit or hurt people unless in defense of my family or myself..yoru wife might have issues....the truth is she has these issues and you are aware of how you feel about her, you dont trust her, you are scared of her and you say derogatory things....

 

 

why you were swinging with her??????......when she has these issues i have no idea why you would think risky sex would help......doesnt make sense to this schizo but then i am not "normal" so please explain it to me.....

 

 

 

 

people with mental illness need stability routine and support....not wild sex with random couples...that is just something i know as fact.....

 

you are not suited to yrou wife and you truly do need more help than you will get on this board.....stop the swinging bad move probabl;y bought on an attack.........for starters stop the wild sex and work on your relationship...find a caring compassionate doctor who can guide you into seeking the best possible help to save your marriage...and if that doesnt twork....you did you best...if i knew a partner felt like i could kill him, surprisingly enough,i would leave and not see him again

 

not everyone who has schizophrenia wants revenge........i suffer from paranoia actually going through a bit now, what it does is make me reclusive, i retreat which is common with people going through episodes they bunker down by themselves..... ,i think people are after me and i do not in any way shape or form think i could ever hurt another....unless....i had to for my own life or family....i dont believe in hitting others let alone cutting them up and serving their liver......i took up kick boxing for self defence .....because the only violence i have had in my life is by so called normal people taking what they want from me...and satisfying their own cruel natures and sick desires........you never know anyone you know...

 

 

people normal people can flip and take a rifle and shoot out a whole school........only god knows hearts....i give up trying to understand people......i just try not to judge them and give them a chance or two or three.....i must be mental.....

 

 

 

you do need help and i hope you seek it....i wish your wife well with a husband who loves her....or by herself finding happiness herself....and i wish happiness for you everyone deserves respect and happiness...peace out......deb

 

 

in many ways I am an evil person , i am using my wife to my advantage to move up the ladder of success. I do my best to love my wife , but it is hard to love a Bi-Polar Schizo , they are complicated to say the least . She constantly lies and plays mind games , she has only one time said she is wrong , when I grabbed the knife from her and she pulled it back slicing my hand wide open . If I would have told her Psychiatrist , she would have put her back into a mental clinic , so I lied saying i cut myself on home projects .

 

My wife was highly abused as a child and teenager . Her weapon of choice is sex ,and her target of choice is me . Now I am using her to gain in my job , my boss's son is a swinger , my boss does not know , he screws my wife's brains out and my wife loves it . She is obsessed with him . Let him screw her , I don't care since i have no control over her anyway . At least I am being treated better than any other employer . I am president of small company , not the owner , this is my first time being President of a company .

 

I am an Engineer , Engineers become CEO's in the Energy business . I am setting things up on my resume' for my next job which will pay twice as much . People think I am crazy for loving a crazy woman , I love her but she is a very beautiful crazy woman . She now loves sex , just not with me .

 

Sure I get depressed because she is so obsessed with her lover whom is married and his wife is good or best friends with my wife . I think she is bi sex now sure , and she has dragged my wife into her world . I do not engage in swinging until I am about to go crazy from no sex then his wife will give me all I want . I have no time for this crazy stuff or partying , My wife loves to party and party and party .

 

I know I am evil for using my wife

[kennedy37]

like nyla i have had my issues with disclosure......guys think you give crazy head and sex if you are mentally ill and become actually quite harrassing

 

also like nyla,

people judging, being scared of me when i say i have stayed in a psyche ward, so not only do you have to deal with the illness you have but you have to deal with ignorance and false judgement and try and relate to people who dont understand what the illness is so therefore have no clue who you are or what you stand for....ignorance sucks....

 

 

i have said this before, serial killers quite commonly are normal average everyday people who could live next door to you they have no illness, never been in a psyche ward and they bury people under their floorboard and cut them up and serve them for dinner...some of them even had wives gfs parents who had no idea whatsoever what they were really, with mental illness, people who often stay in psyche wards or mental hospitals......have been diagnosed because they exhibit certain behaviors they are out there open and honest and trying to get help...

 

i am schizo affective.......i am also a pacifist i dont hit or hurt people unless in defense of my family or myself..yoru wife might have issues....the truth is she has these issues and you are aware of how you feel about her, you dont trust her, you are scared of her and you say derogatory things....

 

 

why you were swinging with her??????......when she has these issues i have no idea why you would think risky sex would help......doesnt make sense to this schizo but then i am not "normal" so please explain it to me.....

 

 

 

 

people with mental illness need stability routine and support....not wild sex with random couples...that is just something i know as fact.....

 

you are not suited to yrou wife and you truly do need more help than you will get on this board.....stop the swinging bad move probabl;y bought on an attack.........for starters stop the wild sex and work on your relationship...find a caring compassionate doctor who can guide you into seeking the best possible help to save your marriage...and if that doesnt twork....you did you best...if i knew a partner felt like i could kill him, surprisingly enough,i would leave and not see him again

 

not everyone who has schizophrenia wants revenge........i suffer from paranoia actually going through a bit now, what it does is make me reclusive, i retreat which is common with people going through episodes they bunker down by themselves..... ,i think people are after me and i do not in any way shape or form think i could ever hurt another....unless....i had to for my own life or family....i dont believe in hitting others let alone cutting them up and serving their liver......i took up kick boxing for self defence .....because the only violence i have had in my life is by so called normal people taking what they want from me...and satisfying their own cruel natures and sick desires........you never know anyone you know...

 

 

people normal people can flip and take a rifle and shoot out a whole school........only god knows hearts....i give up trying to understand people......i just try not to judge them and give them a chance or two or three.....i must be mental.....

 

 

 

you do need help and i hope you seek it....i wish your wife well with a husband who loves her....or by herself finding happiness herself....and i wish happiness for you everyone deserves respect and happiness...peace out......deb

 

about 2 years ago we had the big blow up , she cut my hand after I showed her the 7,000 messages she had sent her lover , she promised that she would quit, and in one month 7,000 messages, I counted each one . She went ballistic , called the cops said I tried to rape her . I put a recording under her seat of her car , movement activated , it recorder her conversations with him , I love you so much , I love you so much , I love you my darling . When I told her I recorded her conversations she again went ballistic again . I left for a week on the job in another state .

 

Since then it is the extreme cold shoulder , we sleep in separate beds and she is now openly on the phone with his wife and him all the time daring me to say anything . But I will not quit loving her because I know how she is , she is crazy and she is still the mother of my two children .

 

If I divorce her I pay a lot more than if I stay with her . So let her have her lover , we are getting along better now , just sleep in different rooms . her young lover is getting tired of her and will eventually dump her . At the same time I am hoping to get hired by another employer making twice the money I am now . We are selling a lot of equipment to China and they want Engineers .

My company makes directional drilling equipment for Hydraulic Frac'ing . China has lots of Energy more so than we have , just all in Shale Rock .

 

So that will put me in a good position to Run a Company from China and make really crazy big money . If she wants to be part of that we can start all over again . She would love Asia , I lived in Japan a year .

 

My wife went from a virgin to a woman who never wanted sex with me, to a woman whom loves sex with her lover and his wife . I have a nanny, a house keeper and a Teacher to teach my autistic son . she does not have to do much at all .

 

I want to be a CEO one day , this is just a stepping stone job for me . I get depressed all the time because I have lost her to a different world , I do not want her to go back into a mental clinic . I simply want her for my wife again , I don't care how many men she screws . As long as she comes back to me .

[kennedy37]

like nyla i have had my issues with disclosure......guys think you give crazy head and sex if you are mentally ill and become actually quite harrassing

 

also like nyla,

people judging, being scared of me when i say i have stayed in a psyche ward, so not only do you have to deal with the illness you have but you have to deal with ignorance and false judgement and try and relate to people who dont understand what the illness is so therefore have no clue who you are or what you stand for....ignorance sucks....

 

 

i have said this before, serial killers quite commonly are normal average everyday people who could live next door to you they have no illness, never been in a psyche ward and they bury people under their floorboard and cut them up and serve them for dinner...some of them even had wives gfs parents who had no idea whatsoever what they were really, with mental illness, people who often stay in psyche wards or mental hospitals......have been diagnosed because they exhibit certain behaviors they are out there open and honest and trying to get help...

 

i am schizo affective.......i am also a pacifist i dont hit or hurt people unless in defense of my family or myself..yoru wife might have issues....the truth is she has these issues and you are aware of how you feel about her, you dont trust her, you are scared of her and you say derogatory things....

 

 

why you were swinging with her??????......when she has these issues i have no idea why you would think risky sex would help......doesnt make sense to this schizo but then i am not "normal" so please explain it to me.....

 

 

 

 

people with mental illness need stability routine and support....not wild sex with random couples...that is just something i know as fact.....

 

you are not suited to yrou wife and you truly do need more help than you will get on this board.....stop the swinging bad move probabl;y bought on an attack.........for starters stop the wild sex and work on your relationship...find a caring compassionate doctor who can guide you into seeking the best possible help to save your marriage...and if that doesnt twork....you did you best...if i knew a partner felt like i could kill him, surprisingly enough,i would leave and not see him again

 

not everyone who has schizophrenia wants revenge........i suffer from paranoia actually going through a bit now, what it does is make me reclusive, i retreat which is common with people going through episodes they bunker down by themselves..... ,i think people are after me and i do not in any way shape or form think i could ever hurt another....unless....i had to for my own life or family....i dont believe in hitting others let alone cutting them up and serving their liver......i took up kick boxing for self defence .....because the only violence i have had in my life is by so called normal people taking what they want from me...and satisfying their own cruel natures and sick desires........you never know anyone you know...

 

 

people normal people can flip and take a rifle and shoot out a whole school........only god knows hearts....i give up trying to understand people......i just try not to judge them and give them a chance or two or three.....i must be mental.....

 

 

 

you do need help and i hope you seek it....i wish your wife well with a husband who loves her....or by herself finding happiness herself....and i wish happiness for you everyone deserves respect and happiness...peace out......deb

 

The reason I am writing these notes is because you actually have knowledge of BPS . The Swinger thing happened first at a party , my company changed ownership and I found out at that party . My wife like normal flirted with many men and embarrassed me , the boss's son was there he was a young man and Impressed with my knock out wife . he offered we go to another party, that one turned to be a swinger group .

 

His wife and him offered to swing , my wife wanted to , but not me . My wife gave him her phone number . Later we met again at his home , I am not an exhibitionist never have been , I am not much to look at . So I wanted separate rooms , and we spent the night in separate rooms . It was great and she loved it . it continued for 2 years and she became obsessed with him , and I had to end it , but could not . That has been four years ago , the same couple for 4 years she is in love with him and that part hurts me . Yes I am wrong completely and wish I had never met my boss's son . but he did have me promoted and that is what makes it worth while to some degree or at least bearable .

[pie2]

Yes all that means is a person has went to the process and is no receiving disability , it is a hundred times easier now since Obama took office . So it really does not mean much anymore. Yes she gets a small check from SSD , for Mental Illness, many people are legally mentally ill . They still do everything , drive , cook, clean , and work . But normally employers will not hire you if your on mental SSD . She does anything she wants , it means little .

 

Your wife has housekeepers, nannies, and a private tutor for her son. Your household seems to earn quite a lot. Getting SSD on top of that...incredible. You'd think everyone would be in Texas with those kinds of benefits.

 

I have live in house keepers and Nannies and a woman comes in 3 times a week to tutor my autistic son.

[kennedy37]

like nyla i have had my issues with disclosure......guys think you give crazy head and sex if you are mentally ill and become actually quite harrassing

 

also like nyla,

people judging, being scared of me when i say i have stayed in a psyche ward, so not only do you have to deal with the illness you have but you have to deal with ignorance and false judgement and try and relate to people who dont understand what the illness is so therefore have no clue who you are or what you stand for....ignorance sucks....

 

 

i have said this before, serial killers quite commonly are normal average everyday people who could live next door to you they have no illness, never been in a psyche ward and they bury people under their floorboard and cut them up and serve them for dinner...some of them even had wives gfs parents who had no idea whatsoever what they were really, with mental illness, people who often stay in psyche wards or mental hospitals......have been diagnosed because they exhibit certain behaviors they are out there open and honest and trying to get help...

 

i am schizo affective.......i am also a pacifist i dont hit or hurt people unless in defense of my family or myself..yoru wife might have issues....the truth is she has these issues and you are aware of how you feel about her, you dont trust her, you are scared of her and you say derogatory things....

 

 

why you were swinging with her??????......when she has these issues i have no idea why you would think risky sex would help......doesnt make sense to this schizo but then i am not "normal" so please explain it to me.....

 

 

 

 

people with mental illness need stability routine and support....not wild sex with random couples...that is just something i know as fact.....

 

you are not suited to yrou wife and you truly do need more help than you will get on this board.....stop the swinging bad move probabl;y bought on an attack.........for starters stop the wild sex and work on your relationship...find a caring compassionate doctor who can guide you into seeking the best possible help to save your marriage...and if that doesnt twork....you did you best...if i knew a partner felt like i could kill him, surprisingly enough,i would leave and not see him again

 

not everyone who has schizophrenia wants revenge........i suffer from paranoia actually going through a bit now, what it does is make me reclusive, i retreat which is common with people going through episodes they bunker down by themselves..... ,i think people are after me and i do not in any way shape or form think i could ever hurt another....unless....i had to for my own life or family....i dont believe in hitting others let alone cutting them up and serving their liver......i took up kick boxing for self defence .....because the only violence i have had in my life is by so called normal people taking what they want from me...and satisfying their own cruel natures and sick desires........you never know anyone you know...

 

 

people normal people can flip and take a rifle and shoot out a whole school........only god knows hearts....i give up trying to understand people......i just try not to judge them and give them a chance or two or three.....i must be mental.....

 

 

 

you do need help and i hope you seek it....i wish your wife well with a husband who loves her....or by herself finding happiness herself....and i wish happiness for you everyone deserves respect and happiness...peace out......deb

 

 

I am very ashamed of what I did , yet I am now taking advantage of it . It has been going on now for four years. It is nothing wild about it . For two years it was in separate rooms , I did not want to see or hear what she did . She never asked me what happened either .

 

I spent time with his wife and she was fun and loved sex with me . So finally I had a woman whom enjoyed sex with me and for the first time in my life I was truly enjoying sex , so I really loved it . At the same time would stop it in a heart beat if my wife would treat me like Shelly treated me in bed . After about the first year I could see she was falling in love with him and obsessed with him . I am gone about 50% of the time or more , I run 6 manufacturing facilities in 4 states , I make excellent money .

 

I wanted to slow it down or try and change her mind , but it was obvious she was extremely excited about her lover . So I had to take advantage and at least use him to secure my job and I did . Then two years ago we had our fight and it has been down hill since .

 

Her lover does not love her , he only loves sex with her , he does not know she is mental or BPS Bi-Polar Schizophrenic , she get legal disability from the government , a small check , because she is not able to hold a job. She does well in college and actually graduated with a business degree . But she can not get along with people , she will curse someone out in a heart beat , or try and run over them with her car .

 

she will do a number of wild crazy things , most of all she will play games with me . We would go months without sex , yet we have two children . And occasionally she can give in , but I have no understanding of her intentions or her mind .

 

She refuses take medications , she even quit he anti depressants because it affected her sexually with her lover . yet I went to over 20 sessions with her Psychiatrist trying to understand her . her doctor said she has the worse case of BPS she has ever seen , and said Run from this relationship while you can , but I love her dearly .

 

But lately I am using her simply for my work and job . So I am an extermely evil person , so if I must allow her to have sex with another man , then I should get something out of it , is the way I feel .

 

So another man has sex anytime he wants with my wife and I have zero sex with her . If I do start to go crazy and need sex then his wife Shelly will screw my brains out all night long .

 

Needless to say I am the one crazy for allowing all of this to happen . it started out so easy , and now it is horrible .

[kennedy37]

Your wife has housekeepers, nannies, and a private tutor for her son. Your household seems to earn quite a lot. Getting SSD on top of that...incredible. You'd think everyone would be in Texas with those kinds of benefits.

 

Getting disability has became extremely easy since Obama he gives it for nothing , and it is also an individual thing , it has nothing to do with your marriage or your work , all it shows is your not able to work . you need to read about it