Rubix123 Posted September 8, 2013 Share Posted September 8, 2013 (edited) So ive been out college for 4 months... Which doesnt seem a long time but ive been on job seekers since then and i really just want a job now, im fed up of not doing anythig, they told me i was on postal that id get stuff through the door cos i live 30 miles away its costing me 7 pound a time on the bus and im having to go in to get them. Im feeling so depressed the last thing i want is to see them every other week, when im not suppose to. I just made a fool f myself infront of my parents and burst out crying i asked if they could pick up my papers cos i just dont wanna go out the house anymore ive had enoug. Im crying my eyes out. I just wanna be left alone. I miss college and achool and all my friends who were once my friends who now i no longer see or speak to, and have fallen out with most, i have my boyfriend tho, so i hope i dont lose him. We get to see each other every couple of weeks. Im 22 btw. :'( Im successful in what i do, in my spare time i try keep bisy see my boyfriend and family too and the kne friend i do have. I like to keep myself busy with drawing. And listening to music. I use to self harm and still have a lot of bad sars. A lot of the time im close to doing it again but i never do i have episodes of feeling so low even depressed i dont know. But i just wanna cry and go to sleep for days . I dont know really what the big problem is cos all i have to do is go in and ask for more papers etcs I dunno if this is really the problem or something hnder lying it is.... Ive neen to the doctors a lot with my condition i have and im able to speak very well with the people i mix with...and very open and confident too. Edited September 8, 2013 by Rubix123 Link to post Share on other sites
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