MrE_UK Posted September 19, 2013 Share Posted September 19, 2013 (edited) Hey, What do you make of this..? It's been 3 months since she went to her mums and declared she isn't coming back (although she did for 4 days two weeks later and we had sex - weird!). Oh, and she came back for another 4 days whilst we packed all our things and got rid of stuff, then moved out. We now live 150 miles apart, but we have a little girl which makes it worse. I went 180, went to counselling, read books, started swimming and losing weight, wrote stories and a book proposal, watched movies, etc, etc.,. She left a week after being told she may be on the bipolar scale and needed CBT treatment, plus shouldn't be coming off her medication. Anyway - UPDATE!!!!!!!!!! She had been distant and cold with me for a couple of weeks out of the blue - she had read a feminist book about dominant males, as well as I think got with someone else or has started dating/sleeping around. She took her wedding rings off, so, I did the same. Still as married on FB though...I am far from dominant (I was the one at home looking after our daughter, cleaning, shopping, applying for jobs, writing, and cooking). After I finished counselling (glad I went!!), and dealing with anxiety issues (am normal again!!!), she said after stringing me on; although, I remained calm and collected, that, "We will never get back together even if I forgive you." (now this is forgiving me for being ill, not being able to find work, losing a flat I rented out, and for being an arse over 5 years ago, etc.,.). I didn't even ask - she just said. She also said something about me having a new girlfriend - I don't have one! I haven't even been on a date!! So, I thought I had a couple of options. I chose this: I said to her that, "I hope you can forgive me in time anyway. I would like to be friends and earn your trust on that basis, and have a new relationship with each other. I think this would also benefit our daughter in the long run. I understand we'll never be back together. I won't get in the way and I hope you don't either. I wish things had been brighter, but moving forward is better for all. I want you to be happy." Now since this, we've been chatting again, sharing stuff, she put me on her insurance so I can drive her car when I visit my daughter, she paid for half for me to go visit Mon and Tues just gone (my daughter and I stayed in a hotel and had a little adventure together with snacks, parks, TV, games, etc.,.), she tells me more about what she's been doing, I fixed her mums' computer, she let me have dinner with my daughter at their house, we played all together in my daughters' room, and I fixed my girls' light and fish tank pump. She saw me off at the train station with my daughter. Whilst in the waiting room my little one said, "We go on train. Go on holiday." We both laughed at this. My ex said she would take her on the train and perhaps for a holiday at some point. My daughter then said, "Daddy come too." To which my ex looked at me (we'd been having a laugh and getting on this day - first since separation - she told me she had a headache and was a bit stressed earlier). I said, "Perhaps. You never know what the future holds. If I get this job, looks like I'll be paying then!" I laughed. My ex laughed too but didn't say anything. Nothing more said. Also when I got back, she wished me luck for a job interview I had yesterday, I have 2nd job interview tomorrow (they contacted me, I didn't apply!!), she called me to apologise for not having FaceTime with daughter and we chatted for a while her asking me how interview went as well, she gave me some interview advice, and she told me a bit about her day. She know responds to my texts to kiss daughter for me with, "Will do x". Well, this is where I am, where she is, where we are. Weird as hell, but moving forward in some way to somewhere, and hopefully with no more anger or resentments. Hardly textbook but stumbling on... Interview for good paying job tomorrow with area manager, who will be my boss should I get the job. Good money too! (I so need this...) Edited September 19, 2013 by MrE_UK Link to post Share on other sites
littlejaz Posted September 20, 2013 Share Posted September 20, 2013 Hope your interview went well. Don't really know what to make of your situation but I would be very cautious, she can turn back just as quickly. Link to post Share on other sites
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