Starnette83 Posted November 23, 2004 Share Posted November 23, 2004 i love my bf to death, been together for 3.5 years -4 years in dec. ANyways we have broken up before and he has hurt me before and i took him back cuz i still loved him. I know we have both nmade mistakes in our relationship and in part i think its because its been both our first real relationship and we are eachothers first and both young, im now 21 and hes 20- we met whne he was 16 and i was 17...anywyas last night we got in a fight, i was mad cuz since sunday i felt he was ignoring me- i dunno if i imagined this but i just expect him to talk to me for mroe then 5 min and ask me how things are and be sweet with me, but instead he was just cold and wanted to hang up...anyways this aggravated me and i took it out on him monday night, - he then got mad at me and told me i had no reason why to be mad cuz he hadnt done anythhing wrong, then i told him maybe it was cuz i was scared of the relationship because hes told me hes leaving to san diego school which is 2-3 hours away, and even tho he knows it bothers me he sometimes mentions it and it just gets me down...anyways he still got an attitude with me and said "thats your problem", "i seriously think u should seek some help"..this got me very hurt and iw as like "shut up, i shouldnt even tell u ****"..and later i also said "dont come to my house for thanksgiving, dont even bother anymore" .then he hung up on me and i tried calling him back but he no longer picked up.... ANyways i couldnt sleep last night cuz i kept crying, i kept crying cuz i love him and im so mad at myself for loving him, i feel that he doesnt respect me and takes me for granted cuz if he really loved me he wouldnt be so cold and just hang up...i also still resent what he did in the past- he had broken up with me cuz he wanted to see what else was out there- i truly feel sometimes that he doesnt deserve me yet i feel so low about myself that i feel that hes the only one who will ever care for me, its really pathetic..i dont know what to do, i dont know if he will call today,, but ive told myself not to call him, thank god im going to work from 6-10 so that should keep my mind off him for that time...but if i see that he doesnt cal i know it will hurt more tonight...ugh!!!!!!i dont know why i love him so much and why i keep believeibng hes the one for me, maybe if i could just tkae that off my mind and realize he will never marry me maybe i can knock some sense in me..... this is annoying me already... Link to post Share on other sites
tattoomytoe Posted November 23, 2004 Share Posted November 23, 2004 well your signals are not the clearest either. everyone reacts to the reactions displayed, and in a long relationship, like yours, you each know what buttons to push. apologize, be the bigger person. value the time you have with him now, and try not to stress too much about the future of you two yet...things change in an instance. Link to post Share on other sites
Puma Posted November 24, 2004 Share Posted November 24, 2004 i think u might ahve over reacted a tad bit..sure you had valid reason if he was ignorin you..but why didnt you jsut tell him to call when he wanted to talk and let him go. he cant be mad a that cause ur being the bigger person there by lettin him coo off and call ya when he really wanted to talk to ya. either way..i live in SAN DIEGO!!!! woooo best city ever..sorry got carried away just call and apologize for over reacting..and tell him whats on ur mind that you felt hes been ignorin ya and if theres a reason? dont stress it too much..i understand how you feel, but i dont think any real damage has been done. g luck take care eat turkey!! Link to post Share on other sites
pancakepalace Posted November 24, 2004 Share Posted November 24, 2004 After reading your post, it is clear to me you over-reacted. You should call and not him. If he is a man, a gentleman, he will not call because that would be wimpy. He would hear you out when you call though. You should apologize. He didn't do anything wrong. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Starnette83 Posted November 24, 2004 Author Share Posted November 24, 2004 ok i called him and we ended up seeing eachother, things were good, he took me to eat and we made love..ahh i just am scared cuz hes leaving to san diego school,. i really dont wan t him to go there cuz ive heard it s a party school and im insecure then ill lose him to someone else...and stuff like that, im just insecured of the whole long distance, i love him so much and i just want to be with him always, overall i think we must love eachother if we have stuck together for 4 years, we seem to also click and its part cuz we are opposites ..anyways i love him alot and i just dont know how to deal when hes gone and scared that he will find someone else, afterall im also very used to seeing him 3-4 times a week, and imma feel lonely without him,........ I wish he would have gone some place closer, like CSUN, thats were im going..owell ,..... Link to post Share on other sites
Puma Posted November 24, 2004 Share Posted November 24, 2004 "distance is not when we seperate, its if we dont return" theres some food for thought..think about that and what you guys have and have hope that everythin will be fine Link to post Share on other sites
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