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Broke NC at the weekend why am I so stupid


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For those that have followed my story I didn't post it at the time but ex mm wanted to see me I ignored him for days until it looked like he was gonna come over whether I ignored him or not so I replied telling him where to go her made his choice blah blah blah I was proud of myself

 

Until Sunday. We exchanged emails and all those feelings came back I felt like her changed realised I wouldn't wait forever etc i wanted to see him but he said we'd have to wait until next week I wanted to see him sooner but apparently it's not possible he can't get away I know it's his bday tomorrow but I don't think he knows that I've remembered I've not mentioned it and neither has he

 

I complained about having to wait to see him and he says something like 'well you'll have to wait longer now I've finished work' and that's it. I emailed him twice ok three times after (few hrs in between lol) and nothing

 

Who is so busy that in two days they don't have time to reply to someone that is sooooo important to them?!

 

I'm so mad at myself for falling for his bull**** all over again he got his ego boost, his validation and then oh bye now I'm so done with him but what will make me more angry is hell make it look like I'm the one with the problem when I refuse to see him next week ugh

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You're not stupid. You're human. If I had a dollar for every time I broke NC or let her weasel in just a little bit only for her validation I'd be able to pay for a week at a 5* resort in Jamaica. As legal said he needed an ego boost. Your a commodity to be used as he needs. A toy that he can pick up off the shelf and put back when he's finished playing with it. *BTW, I have a hard time implementing the very advice I'm easily able to give others.

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Just stop. You know it's over and when contact is broken, you hurt. Nothing has changed. How he's made you feel - Unimportant and he's busy, making you wait? That is NOT a man "in love". It's a man who is selfish and isn't caring much about your feelings. He's detached and in control....You're not which is why you're hurting now.

 

IMP, please cut him out of your life for good. Change your number if need be.

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I'm more mad at myself than him. I'm under no illusions where I stand with him - on a shelf next to his other toys until he decides he wants to play

 

But I'm starting to worry about next week. I plan in ignoring him but hes the type to just turn up anyway and face to face I know ill crumble

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