Dreams

[maidai]

2 months on and I have felt strong since the day I went NC. Getting on with life, no tears, no frustrations and accepting there was nothing wrong with me and everything wrong with him from day one. Day to day life has been mainly normal with lots of fun, new friends and experiences.

 

I was though being plagued by dreams. Possibly my subconcious trying to work things out I was not facing but I genuinally did not think it needed working out. They left me feeling a little bit pulled about on waking and had to give myself a good firm kick, shove it off and carry on.

 

Last night I had the weirdest dream. I dreamt that I woke to find him in my bedroom (it felt very surreal like I *WAS* awake) He told me he made a huge mistake leaving me after 18 months to go back to her after 3 years apart. He told me his marriage was as bad now as it was, he wanted to come back and he wanted the divorce and to be with me. In my dream I sent him away, not even firmly, just a seriously go.. I can not be arsed with this or you, your problem not mine deal with it. Then I did not even watch him go I just fell back to sleep totally indifferent.

 

When I awoke this morning I felt really confused in a that was almost to real was he really here type way!!! Then I smiled and thought you know what had he been I sent him on his way, no regrets, no untruths and I meant it.

 

I am hoping that that is my brain telling me its all nicely mentally sorted now and it will end here.

 

Today I feel amazing!

[Goodbye]

2 months on and I have felt strong since the day I went NC. Getting on with life, no tears, no frustrations and accepting there was nothing wrong with me and everything wrong with him from day one. Day to day life has been mainly normal with lots of fun, new friends and experiences.

 

I was though being plagued by dreams. Possibly my subconcious trying to work things out I was not facing but I genuinally did not think it needed working out. They left me feeling a little bit pulled about on waking and had to give myself a good firm kick, shove it off and carry on.

 

Last night I had the weirdest dream. I dreamt that I woke to find him in my bedroom (it felt very surreal like I *WAS* awake) He told me he made a huge mistake leaving me after 18 months to go back to her after 3 years apart. He told me his marriage was as bad now as it was, he wanted to come back and he wanted the divorce and to be with me. In my dream I sent him away, not even firmly, just a seriously go.. I can not be arsed with this or you, your problem not mine deal with it. Then I did not even watch him go I just fell back to sleep totally indifferent.

 

When I awoke this morning I felt really confused in a that was almost to real was he really here type way!!! Then I smiled and thought you know what had he been I sent him on his way, no regrets, no untruths and I meant it.

 

I am hoping that that is my brain telling me its all nicely mentally sorted now and it will end here.

 

Today I feel amazing!

 

 

That is a great dream. Perhaps it is your mind coming to the acceptance phase. It is fantastic that it left you feeling empowered.

 

I posted on this topic last week. After quite a while of NC, I started having dreams about the exMM. Most of mine were sexual:o in nature. I had one last night that we were sneaking around my grandparent's home, looking for privacy:sick:...of course my grandparents are long dead and that isn't something I would do, ever(I hope). In the dream I also found a big blue parakeet, sitting in a tree. It was cold, so I took it home. Go figure.

[maidai]

That is a great dream. Perhaps it is your mind coming to the acceptance phase. It is fantastic that it left you feeling empowered.

 

I posted on this topic last week. After quite a while of NC, I started having dreams about the exMM. Most of mine were sexual:o in nature. I had one last night that we were sneaking around my grandparent's home, looking for privacy:sick:...of course my grandparents are long dead and that isn't something I would do, ever(I hope). In the dream I also found a big blue parakeet, sitting in a tree. It was cold, so I took it home. Go figure.

 

I really hope it is my mind moving on

 

I am so glad I do not have sexual dreams about him, now having found out that he is a gutless wimp who on the other hand has a god complex I would be

 

Big blue cold parakeet who chirrups off useless random waffle he thinks people want to hear... well you could be describing him to a tee... possibly the reason it was there in your dream! Imagine it describes most of them quite well.

[psm04]

I had a dream two nights ago with my xAP. We were walking to a store. We were completely in love and couldn't stay apart. I woke up with that. Felt a sad sense of loss, accepted reality again, and moved on :-(

 

I almost wanted to tell him about the dream but I'm so glad I didn't do that and open up that door again.

[tiernan]

maidai I had various dreams as well, mostly about BS saying you will never have him and they came out to be so true - they were the reflections of her thoughts. I had them especially during our holidays together, which probably were a big blow for her and she was sending so much of bad energy in my direction. Who knows in your case, maybe he will knock on your door soon...

[maidai]

maidai I had various dreams as well, mostly about BS saying you will never have him and they came out to be so true - they were the reflections of her thoughts. I had them especially during our holidays together, which probably were a big blow for her and she was sending so much of bad energy in my direction. Who knows in your case, maybe he will knock on your door soon...

 

He had better hope for his sake he is never that stupid The mere thought fills me with horror!