crepesuzette Posted October 5, 2013 Share Posted October 5, 2013 I just had to share. My BH and I have been in R for four years. It has been a very long road, but we are finally out of the tunnel and in the GLORIOUS light. I have watched my BH die, he has died in my arms over and over again. He and I BOTH nursed him back to life...and we fought, we fought like hell for ourselves and each other. We have been in the boxing ring and both come out winners. We stand beside each other and behind each other depending on who needs help with having strength on any given day. We are reconciled. He is working today and he just texted me..."Good Morning honey bunny my day is going well but it will be even better when I get home to you."...that I hold so close to my heart. He is not Mr. Romantic by any means, that is why those little moments mean SO much. We are going to Jamaica very soon...I can't wait, but what is even better? He said HE wants to renew our vows in Jamaica...on the beach. HE thought of it, it came from him. HE wants to commit yet again to our M completely. It was when he said those words that I knew he was here, not just here in body, but here with me as my husband and I as his wife. We did renew our vows 2 months after DDay, but that was ME asking him. You see our anniversary was coming up and I went to a local church and spoke to the pastor, and made all the arrangements. We stood in that church, just us and our children and I renewed my promise to my BH and "the new me" holds those vows sacred. Better late then never is all I can say, and unfortunately that is as good as it can get. Shoulda coulda woulda...it's too late for that. There is no changing the past, but I can hold myself accountable each and EVERY day. So we renewed our vows, on the same exact day and the same exact time that we were married many years before. I wanted my BH to have at least something to hang on to on every anniversary date that has come and gone since DDay. We kept our rings (though we have since gotten him a new one that he loves wearing) our rings were blessed at our renewal, as I have been blessed with my BH gift of R. My BH has asked me if I want new rings. I am and have been since DDay completely against that idea. I look down at my left hand where my rings sit, and have sat every day since we were married many years ago and I cling to those rings. Some days they give me strength, some days they bring on my tears and fill me with sadness, other days they make me face the reality of what I did. Nowadays they are a symbol of what we have overcome...for better or for worse. Link to post Share on other sites
harrybrown Posted October 14, 2013 Share Posted October 14, 2013 Did you go NC with the AP? Did you confess or were you caught? Did you get tested for stds? How did you help your husband heal after you ripped out your husband's heart and threw it in the fire? Glad that the two of you are doing better. I do hope he continues to heal. Link to post Share on other sites
lollipopspot Posted October 14, 2013 Share Posted October 14, 2013 How did you help your husband heal after you ripped out your husband's heart and threw it in the fire? lol. No drama here.... 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author crepesuzette Posted October 14, 2013 Author Share Posted October 14, 2013 lol. No drama here.... I had to laugh truly OUT LOUD at this one...thanks for the chuckle :-) Link to post Share on other sites
Author crepesuzette Posted October 16, 2013 Author Share Posted October 16, 2013 It's posts like these that confirm my belief that a lot of people are here for the drama rather than the happy endings I am glad things are working out for you and your spouse, best of luck to you two. Thank you Razui for your well wishes. My BH are doing well. It has been a very long road...we are still on that road...there are still bumps and cracks in that road but we are driving on that road together...I am SO grateful to my BH for giving me a second chance. Unfortunately there are MANY trolls on here...laughing at the pain and hard work of others. I feel sorry for them. They are small on the inside and out. Unhappiness ALWAYS has a way of showing it's face...it simmers and simmers deep inside...and it begins to boil until it explodes and makes the person SO SO ugly from the inside out (much like small dwarfy trolls that live here). Razui, I don't know your situation, but I wish you well and continued growth and happiness. Link to post Share on other sites
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