hayewils Posted October 14, 2013 Share Posted October 14, 2013 Hey all.. Been a little while since ive posted. I just wanted to go over some thoughts. First problem is, i currently work for an oilfield transport company, hopefully not for long. I have a new opportunity that has presented itself which will have me moving three hours away. New scenery, new people, new friends, a new home although temporary but wll be a grea move in the end. More money, awesome benefits.. So im moving in the right direction. An old property that the stbx and i had bought together recently sold finally. So positive things taking place. My major problem is getting over her. Im just now at 7 months since she left but i still find myself hoping she is gonna call or something. Ive involved myself with things that keep me busy, try to stay occupied. Ive done a lot of praying asking god for direction, strength and guidance. I feel that most of those things have been answered except the one asing him to help me let go. To help take her off my mind. Instead i still think of her daily. Not a moment passes without her with me in my mind. Is it crazy to think god is telling me to hang on? Ive gone on dating sites, only to remove myself and profile. I look at profiles thinking it might help boost me out of this funk. But doesnt work. I look at women around me thinking again it might help but all i do is go eeks, stay away.. Ive been through this before and never had this problem. Ive also realized that ive never been in love like this before. I also go over in my mind how i will never let anyone get that close to me again. I will not allow myself to get hurt again, ever. What do you guys have for some good feedback on my issue? I know for one, getting out of this truck where i get to think all day about her is going to be the best move. Link to post Share on other sites
Daisy2013 Posted October 14, 2013 Share Posted October 14, 2013 No, if you are a believer and are listening to God, then no you are not crazy. God's ways are not our ways. He has a plan for you. He may be telling you to wait so you can get a clear head rather than her coming back. Or he could be working on her. Just keep praying until you are at peace with your answer. Link to post Share on other sites
Author hayewils Posted October 14, 2013 Author Share Posted October 14, 2013 Thanks Daisy, Another thing ive learned about myself over the last 7 months is that instincts dont lie. Ive learned to go off my instincts, theyve never lied to me and righ now they are teling me things that i hope arent wrong. Ive asked my mother if she has spoken to my ex. She said no but she asked me a weird question one da out of the blue. She asked if i was on any dating sites. Of course im not but thought that was odd. My ex has told me she would be filing but still she hasnt.?????? If i know my ex good enough, she is wanting time to think, for me to calm down and think.. Im sure im being naive but, i believe anything is possible. My birthday is a week away and ive got a really strange feeling something is gonna happen.. Besides me getting older lol. Ugh, i over think things. The move will be the best thing for me. Or her finally filing will do it for me. Just confused on it. Link to post Share on other sites
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