geegee81 Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 How do you feel today? Upset, content, crazy, etc…. This thread is meant to be ongoing and anyone can write in it at any time. It’s just a place to vent. Link to post Share on other sites
barky2 Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 My Red Sox are getting their asses kicked I'm not happy. Barky Link to post Share on other sites
Author geegee81 Posted October 17, 2013 Author Share Posted October 17, 2013 For the last 2 days I can tell you that I feel damn good. I woke up and went 30 minutes without thinking about the ex. That’s a milestone for me...He was not the first thing I thought about this morning. I went to work and focused again. I laughed a lot today. My appetite has returned. I flirted with a few guys today and was invited on a date…. I’m feeling quite normal again. I’m sure that some days will be better than others, but today I feel good. I don’t feel it is beneficial for me to mope around the house feeling sad, living in the past. What’s done is done and it can’t and shouldn’t be changed. It was not meant to be. But I guarantee that my ex will be back in months or years after he realizes the grass is not greener on the other side. My ex’s always try to return, but there are no second chances. I get my revenge every time when I reject them. Have a nice day. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Author geegee81 Posted October 17, 2013 Author Share Posted October 17, 2013 Thanks for sharking Barkey! 1 Link to post Share on other sites
barky2 Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 I'm telling you what, when I was down and out with my (ex) I'd go out and get hit on by women,have them buy me drinks ect. It helps. Mornings and nights are the worst. Keep fighting, you're almost there. And you're welcome for sharing Barky 1 Link to post Share on other sites
JDPT Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 Right this moment not so great. It still fluctuates, one day at a time. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
BigGirlPantiesOn Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 I feel grateful that the pain has lessened a lot. The obsession has been lifted and I don't hurt too much anymore. I use a prayer routine and meditation to make this happen. Plus all the blocking and detachment tools we teach n preach here. I don't get the angst driving by certain areas much anymore. It's a good thing. It's gets better people... 2 Link to post Share on other sites
ScienceGal Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 Lonely. I miss companionship. I miss loving someone and feeling loved. I miss silly moments and laughter. And sex, I really miss sex. I hope the next guy I am interested in is good, really good down to his bones. I hope he is honest, but loving. And, if he isn't, I hope I'm wise enough to move on. Ultimate feeling: mildly sad, unsure, but hopeful. 9 Link to post Share on other sites
JoelBarish Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 I feel numb and sick to my stomach. Link to post Share on other sites
Lokie Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 I'm am feeling despair tonight. I went on a date with a guy I have been emailing with for a little over a month. Within moments, I could tell it probably wasn't a romantic fit. *Big sigh* I don't remember it being this hard to find a connection with someone. After my last relationship ended four years ago, I was devastated. I took a long time to look inward and see how I was contributing to the demise of my relationships with men. Before this, the longest i'd been single was a year or so. I was 47. This year, I dove into online dating and even dated a couple of guys I met IRL. So far, nothing has stuck. I'm starting to feel hopeless again. I took down my OKC profile and believe my match subscription is over at the end of this month. I wish things were different, but I have enough wisdom at this ripe age to know that accepting where I am in life exactly as it is today is the way to serenity. And above all, I want serenity. L 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Willusmile Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 Not really doing great. Hitting the 3 month mark seemed to bring up a lot of fond memories and I seem to have gone backwards. I know it gets better but not going to lie, it really sucks right now. Link to post Share on other sites
christine07 Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 Feeling like a pathetic, drunk, psycho, ex gf with inferiority issues. Calling my psychiatrist right now. This whole week has be terrible and its only Wed.. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
StyleOnEm Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 I just passed my certification exam today & applied for new jobs -- got dates lined up for the next 4 days -- things are looking good. When I think about the past, it doesn't sting anymore. I know deep down in my core her and I will reconnect again at some point in life -- but I'm moving on. Living life & enjoying meeting new people. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
sambo77 Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 Well, I don't have that acute pain running through me that feels like I'm being cut in half lengthways...that faded a few days ago. But god I feel sad. I miss her so so so much. I wonder what she's doing and whether she thinks of me. I would cut of my foot just to hold her again. And I still haven't completely given up hope. I am becoming more adept at living with the sadness though. That's all it is for me. I'm just learning to be with the emptiness. I was walking through the city yesterday, bumped into a friend and her bf, had a chat on the street corner...as I walked away I felt the uncontrollable urge to weep...it was just coming out and I was walking along fighting it back. People on the street couldn't see my pain and I felt so disconnected from them, so alone. I held in the tears just long enough to get into my flat...where I broke down uncontrollably. I feel like I exist. But I don't live. I simply cannot feel any happiness right now. Link to post Share on other sites
h0000 Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 i feel, "dumped". like rubbish with no value. like he would talk to anyone but me.he would talk to his ex ex gf but me. i dont know why 2 Link to post Share on other sites
todreaminblue Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 i feel stronger today than i have for quite a while at peace...deb 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Lizrd3000 Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 woke up dreaming about my ex girlfriend, looked numbly at the ceiling for 20 minutes, called school off, listened some music, and went to loveshack. I'm not happy today! it's 11;40 AM, 10 hours to go untill I can sleep this day off. I don't want to see friends, I don't know why. Link to post Share on other sites
LBlanc Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 A break up story... Requiem for Romance - Animated Short - Video Dailymotion Link to post Share on other sites
Axee Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 Today I didnt feel like going to work... I just did some studying at home instead.. suddenly I started crying wildly... I was alone at home.. I just cried so loudly that I got scared myself... I regret meeting him.. questioned God why he brought us together I was happy by myself... Why I have been always been unlucky...I feel betrayed.. My heart is broken... Link to post Share on other sites
im_thedude Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 On the short term, I look forward to enjoying a nice cup of coffee by the beach before work today, and I look forward to having my brother's birthday and part of the weekend off. On the long term, I'm excited for a road trip later this month, another friends birthday later this month, and the possible shenanigans I hope to get myself into this Halloween. The local bar always puts on a great party. I'm stressed out about three things, mostly. My ex and I's would-be anniversary is coming up on the 23rd, and I'm hoping that day isn't a hard one to get through. Unfortunately I have that day off so I'm going to have to find a way to keep my mind off it. I'm still struggling with this break up, but the hope of reconciliation is gone and now it's just down to me longing for her, and feeling numb pain in return. Lastly, I'm stressed out about my future. I have a career to get started, and while there is no pressure coming from people around me, I still have this sense of urgency. I'm also really trying to change my life up, namely by moving out of my parent's house and into an apartment with my best friend. It's a big step for me and it makes me nervous! Link to post Share on other sites
Haydn Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 Awful for the last 3 days. Depressed, no appetite, no get up and go. Eyes are dark, going through an REM phase. Joy Divison, you name it. Found some of her T shirts in my wardrobe, made me feel so sick.....Straight in the bin....At the moment things remind me of her! Seem to be everywhere. I am home in London but she stayed here so many times and i am beginning to dislike my flat! I an normally quite vain (WAS) (THAT WAS KICKED OUT OF ME!!!!) But recently i don`t like what i see in the mirror! I what this to stop.......miss her so so so so much, but i guess you guys and gals had already suspected this! Have a better one than me. Haydn Link to post Share on other sites
Never Again Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 Self-sufficient. However, my happiness fluxes. I catch myself thinking about her when I do not want to. I catch myself feeling like crap, feeling like I just wasn't happy or exciting enough for her. She knew she had "something amazing", but "had to toss it away". She insisted she never took the time to heal from the previous relationship...but began chasing someone new only 2 months after dropping me. I still feel lied to, used and devalued. Link to post Share on other sites
rakasan Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 I feel confused. I know you want me back. I know I still love you. I am just scared of us trying and things not working out again. You say you're ready and you want to prove it to me... but I am not ready. I know you better than anyone. I know you are genuine. I know you'll give it your all. But what about me? I'm still scared, I'm still upset. I will never know what the future holds, if we can make it. You were always the optimist. But I couldn't handle another one of these. You say you'll wait. No matter how many times I tell you not to because it is not fair and I'm not asking you to. You need to find yourself, I need to find myself. I care enough about you to leave you alone. Because I know it would be painful and confusing. Ironic because I'm the one confused and hurting right now. I know I can be happy without you. Honestly, I've been okay. I'm committed to being a stronger woman. But after going out with my friends, being single, doing all the things I love, working on me and my problems, feeling okay (even happy) for days at a time... I still miss you. I can't give you what you want right now. One day I might be able to, but in the meantime.. even if it hurts both of us, forget me. Don't hurt because of me. I just want you to be happy. Link to post Share on other sites
BritneyLynn Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 I called him today, we have a lot of loose ends that need to be tied up. Instead of figuring anything out, he blamed me for everything, saying I'm intentionally ruining his life, belittled me, and then hung up. I'm the crazy person when I stayed perfectly calm through his attack on my character? Why am I even putting myself through this? Maybe my stuff and all the other loose ends we left aren't worth this.... Link to post Share on other sites
Wings Of Love Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 Not great today. NC was great to begin with, I even managed to get through an evening spent with his sister and sister-in-law with a genuine smile on my face at the weekend. But since then I've been going downhill more and more each day. I've suddenly burst into tears three times today alone. But I am a little under the weather just now, with any luck I'll be happier once I'm well again. Link to post Share on other sites
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