BC1980 Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 Feeling awful these past few days. Questioning why we met in the first place. I was doing well, but it's all hitting me now. Just can't believe he did this to me. I was a mom to his child. He discarded me like trash. Link to post Share on other sites
Petunia20 Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 I feel scared. I feel like I'm moving on and its a scary thought. Not very comfortable. Tomorrow I might feel different tho... Link to post Share on other sites
JDPT Posted October 17, 2013 Share Posted October 17, 2013 A drink sadly consumes me tonight with no intentions of reaching out thankfully. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Channa Posted October 18, 2013 Share Posted October 18, 2013 This whole weeks been up and down for me. Hormones are off the charts. One minute i'm pissed off and the next, feeling depressed and on the verge of tears. Sometimes I feel like it's a tad harder on girls when recovering from a breakup due to the whole hormone spike we get every month... Highly starting to doubt I will be able to trust anyone for a while. I know that's a normal thing to feel and that we will learn to trust and love again but it just feels like it will never happen. I am thankful for all my friends who are still standing by me. I am most thankful for my obnoxiously stubborn personality that refuses me to stay broken no matter how crappy I feel. In the end, I know I did all that I could to keep the relationship together and I loved harder than I have ever done before so that is enough for me. He was the stupid one to throw away an extremely promising future and he was the one who stopped trying and took the easy way out. Just knowing I came out on top (even though I feel like I'm dead last) is enough to get me out of bed every morning. .... Dam hormones... Link to post Share on other sites
polger Posted October 18, 2013 Share Posted October 18, 2013 I felt lonely today, I missed her for about 30 minutes and then reminded myself that I didn't miss her, I missed the idea I had of her. I saw a few cute girls on my commute, although I'm not ready for a relationship. It's great to feel attracted to other people again, before I was comparing everybody to her. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Stealth3 Posted October 18, 2013 Share Posted October 18, 2013 I feel like ****...I've been packing all day, preparing to move to Seattle tomorrow and there are so many things around my apartment that reminded me of her. It's even worse that she helped me when I first moved in this apartment.... I threw away a lot of **** that reminded me of her. I'm thinking of donating the clothes she gave me for my birthday....I can't see myself wearing them... Link to post Share on other sites
Tryin Hard 2 Make It Posted October 18, 2013 Share Posted October 18, 2013 I keep checking my phone to see if she texted but then i remember i had to block her because she was being ugly in her texts. I feel ok today and it seems each morning is a little bit easier to get up out of bed. I went shopping today for some new shirts and new cologne but i cant see being with anybody at the moment or near future. I want to regroup and relax for a good while. I do feel lonely and not looking forward to this weekend but these feelings shall pass. I was feeling like this not to long ago and i do remember.... Link to post Share on other sites
Salvatore85 Posted October 18, 2013 Share Posted October 18, 2013 Kinda bummed. Just miss having her in bed. Not for the sex although I miss that too but because I used to roll over and she'd be there. After 5 years of that it's hard to realize that's no longer the case. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
jaanu Posted October 18, 2013 Share Posted October 18, 2013 I feel like Im a total wreck without him:sick::sick miss him so much...and hes happy very happy..Saw it with my own eyes...Its killing me within...its all blank and i dont know what to do...how the hell im gonna deal with this?? God this hurts like crazy Link to post Share on other sites
RDawg Posted October 18, 2013 Share Posted October 18, 2013 Feeling tired today. It will be one month this weekend since the incident that led to our breakup but only two weeks since BU. I met with her last night to discuss the sale of the house. We had a couple of beers and did the autopsy on our failed relationship. She says she wants to be friends. Told me about how she's still going to the therapist. Actually took some blame for her part in all of it. We had a couple of good laughs. Going to a friends place for a barbeque tonight so looking forward to that. Link to post Share on other sites
Brown-Eyez Posted October 18, 2013 Share Posted October 18, 2013 A break up story... Requiem for Romance - Animated Short - Video Dailymotion incredibly sad...this ^ made me cry...guess that sums up my feeling right now and extreme loneliness Link to post Share on other sites
Chris715 Posted October 18, 2013 Share Posted October 18, 2013 Was feeling really, really pissed at her last night. Just kinda meh today. Feels like everyone else finds someone they're compatible with so easily and here I am, stuck in a huge rut in life, unable to move on completely, and hopeless to meet anyone. Link to post Share on other sites
sad_bubble Posted October 18, 2013 Share Posted October 18, 2013 I feel ups and downs. But more bad than good. He asked me to wait 1.5 week, not promising anything. and now this idea is not looking good - I mean I sort of gave my heart to him, and after 1.5 week he might smash it. He doesn't call, no emails, and he said that he is looking for a new room. So far we lived together. I mean all the things say - he is moving on, while I am waiting for my heart to be smashed. Should I keep waiting or just tell him how I feel and ask if he cares, to let me know whether I should be moving on. Why he needs those 1.5 weeks? Link to post Share on other sites
Author geegee81 Posted October 18, 2013 Author Share Posted October 18, 2013 Today was good. I kept busy all day long, and I didn’t think about him much. I went to work and had a productive day. I’ve known him for years, and I still care about him. But I can tell that the lustful feelings and butterflies are dissipating. The denial about his true character and the breakup are over. I’m now able to see him for what he is. He’s a confused, childish, guy that has no idea what he wants in life. I can now see his flaws. I can admit the mean and childish things he said and did to me. I definitely deserve better.…. On the brighter side, I’m going on a date in one hour! This guy seems nice, so hopefully he is normal. Though I have no expectations with him or this date. It’s just important for me to get my life back, and this is a major step. I refuse to sit around the house sad. As mentioned above, i hope to one day find a guy that im compatible with. Where is he? 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author geegee81 Posted October 18, 2013 Author Share Posted October 18, 2013 Its Friday, so try to pick yourselves up and enjoy the weekend. Remember that there are people in worse situations than you, and that would give anything to have your life. Our problems will pass, just be patient and have faith. Link to post Share on other sites
Axee Posted October 19, 2013 Share Posted October 19, 2013 Today I woke up with difficulty.. had bad dreams I dreamt I was in love with a rich guy and he ultimately dumps me and marries another rich girl and I was screaming from the rooftops that this is so wrong when their wedding takes place... As soon as I woke up , I missed him.. Remembered his smile, his touch, our time together .. Tears are filling in my eyes even as I type this.. I am on on day 17 of NC.... I am pretending to be strong but somewhere I am in depressed state of mind.. Link to post Share on other sites
JDPT Posted October 19, 2013 Share Posted October 19, 2013 I'm not certain what's going on with me lately. It almost feel as if I'm regressing the pain creeping up all over again. I'll like to think I'm on the real low side of the rollercoaster and that eventually, hopefully soon I'll get back to business and focus on what truly matters. In the meantime I'll just endure the pain. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
BC1980 Posted October 19, 2013 Share Posted October 19, 2013 I'm not certain what's going on with me lately. It almost feel as if I'm regressing the pain creeping up all over again. I'll like to think I'm on the real low side of the rollercoaster and that eventually, hopefully soon I'll get back to business and focus on what truly matters. In the meantime I'll just endure the pain. I too have started regressing into nostalgia. Don't know what's happening with me. Did you look into that book on NC? Link to post Share on other sites
ponchsox Posted October 19, 2013 Share Posted October 19, 2013 Saturdays are the worst for me. It was date night for me and my ex. Now I feel super lonely. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
JoelBarish Posted October 19, 2013 Share Posted October 19, 2013 I feel crappy. I have a headache. I keep wondering where she is and if she ever thinks of me at all. Link to post Share on other sites
AnnaAnna Posted October 19, 2013 Share Posted October 19, 2013 I feel optimistic, calm and relaxed. A great day for me... So far. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Mariposa10 Posted October 19, 2013 Share Posted October 19, 2013 Saturdays are the worst for me. It was date night for me and my ex. Now I feel super lonely. Weekends are really bad for me... That's when we used to hang out too... Link to post Share on other sites
sambo77 Posted October 19, 2013 Share Posted October 19, 2013 Sh?t day today...one of the sh?ttest...and just when I felt better for a day?! This David Foster Wallace quote about sums it up today ;-) "It is a level of psychic pain wholly incompatible with human life as we know it. It is a sense of radical and thoroughgoing evil not just as a feature but as the essence of conscious existence. It is a sense of poisoning that pervades the self at the self's most elementary levels. It is a nausea of the cells and soul. It is an unnumb intuition in which the world is fully rich and animate and un-map-like and also thoroughly painful and malignant and antagonistic to the self. It billows on and coagulates around and wraps in Its black folds and absorbs into Itself, so that an almost mystical unity is achieved with a world every constituent of which means painful harm to the self. Its emotional character, the feeling Gompert describes It as, is probably mostly indescribable except as a sort of double bind in which any/all of the alternatives we associate with human agency — sitting or standing, doing or resting, speaking or keeping silent, living or dying — are not just unpleasant but literally horrible." See why I just wanna get today out of the way? ;-) Link to post Share on other sites
faithfully Posted October 20, 2013 Share Posted October 20, 2013 I feel like death, just upset!! Very emotional today. Depressed but went gym to get out the flat!! Link to post Share on other sites
JDPT Posted October 20, 2013 Share Posted October 20, 2013 I too have started regressing into nostalgia. Don't know what's happening with me. Did you look into that book on NC? Not yet, where you the one that mentioned it and I replied if it was geared towards females? Today was just a bad day overall. I was in pain and couldn't figure out the reasons why. Perhaps it was the inadvertant memories that I paid too much attention to. I kept rerouting my thoughts but even that became a challenge today. Link to post Share on other sites
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