Should I take the plunge ?

[landent]

I'm not sure if I should be posting this on this thread but anyways I'm 23 a female us never been in a long term serious relationship but had one short relationship 5 or six years ago that was the first and the last time I ever felt like I was crazy in love with someone and was ready to anything to be with him. But the relationship never got intimate as I wasn't ready he was suggesting it indirectly but I hated the fact that he'd harbor such dirty thoughts about us I was only 17 and he was 19 then so please understand. Now in hindsight if we stayed together for a little longer I might have given my V card away to him. He was special and will always have a place inside of my heart. Anyways fast forward to now or 4 or 5 months back I met a guy he was a true gentleman I never have been treated like a queen in my life as I was by him so far. I felt like we hit it off though he was doing most of the work as far making sure he had a good time and asking me out on dates consistently while keeping in touch on a daily basis while we where apart. It's funny but I was expecting things to get steamy but it never did guess you can't just force things. I told him that I'm seeing him casually cos in the back of my mind no matter how well he treated me unlike the first guy that I fell in love with when I was 17 there was this nagging voice that he isn't the right guy. Yes at this stage of my life I'm on the lookout for the right guy after all I've spent way too much time alone of course I have been dating here and there in fact if I'm in the mood i could be a serial dater. And yes I still hold onto my V card and will not give it away until I find the one and I hope I will get married to him.

 

So I have been seeing him less and less and a month ago I met another guy he's been asking me out for a while now but I kept him on hold as I was busy seeing the other guy that I wasn't so sure of after all and keeping things casual with him when I know deep down inside that we're not right for each other was just pointless. So finally we met , a month ago to be exact and my first impression of him he's very laid back and relaxed that he makes him look like he can't care less about almost anything I found that a little annoying at first few minutes into the date actually. As we get to or I should say as I get to ease myself a little through the date I actually started to really like him which happens very rarely. I felt like I was home when I was with him and i didn't feel the need to prove anything about myself to him and I didn't have to hide anything. And sure I felt that static electrifying feeling when we our eyes locked not sure if he felt it too or not. And I found him funny and I laughed at his lame jokes. There was something about him that to this day I still can't quite address what it is. We've made plans to meet for another date and but we had to cancel because I was traveling to an another state for a month and now I'm back all this time he's on my mind almost 24/7. It's funny to admit but I miss him. I find all his quirks to be cute actually.

 

Is he the one ? Or am I just imaging things. I've been out on gazillion dates I can differentiate between infatuation/interest/attraction/connection. It's just that this time with him it feels different and as much as I'm afraid to admit it feels like it this is it. But at the same time I feel running away to the other direction. Should I take the plunge and see how things turn out , he's a bit reserved in pursuing women I find so I have to be a bit aggressive which is so very unlike me or should I just carry on with my life and concentrate more on my career I feel like I'm in no rush.