Feeling sad but making progress.

[Wings Of Love]

Well I've certainly made some progress the last few days. Despite blocking him on Facebook a while back, I was still able to see his profile picture changing as I still had messages between us in my inbox. So today I decided I'd had enough and deleted all our message history. I also went through all of my photos and deleted every comment he ever made. Perhaps a bit extreme, but I felt better. Realised I still had him as a "neighbour" on a game we both play, and that he has been visiting my neighbourhood, so I deleted him from there too.

 

My mum, two sisters and my closest friend have all decided to have nothing to do with him now. I was shocked, especially as my older sister knew him long before we even met, but I was touched. It's nice to know my family will support me no matter what.

 

Tomorrow I'm going to look for a big enough box to put all reminders of him in, and put it away out of sight.

 

Yes I do feel quite sad. I still have feelings for him and I'd be lying if I said I didn't want him back. But we haven't spoken since August now so he clearly has no intention of coming back, and it seems he no longer cares at all for me. Also, if the rumours are true, he will be leaving for Sydney for 12 months in July (at the time of our would-be 2nd anniversary) so perhaps any reconciliation would be pointless anyway. At least this way I will be able to walk down the street without fear of bumping into him and his future girlfriend.

 

So I'm doing this in the hope that I can truly start to move on. I'll never forget our time together but now is the time to put the past behind me.

[im_thedude]

You are doing great! Keep moving forward, even if it hurts. On those days where you feel sad, or have some urge to reach out, or want to check out what he is up to online... just know that by remaining strong today and not giving in will make things so much easier for you down the line. It's a process and a long road but if you consistently acknowledge and respect that, things will go much more smoothly.

Edited November 8, 2013 by im_thedude