How to go about dealing with this...?

[Nicebro]

So I've been talking to this girl now for about 4 months an its been the most confusing thing ever, all I know Is that I really like her an I'm not intresteded in anyone except her, whenever I first started talking to her an met her she was living with her ex that she's dated for 2 in a half years an really didn't want to be with him, she would sneak out at night to come chill an, the first night she did that she even slept over at my house which surprised me an even more than that ended up happening. At first i thought I was jus a one night thing an didn't really care. But she continued to hit me up everyday an keep talking, even hanging out an sleeping with me. After like a good two weeks in of her hiding it from her ex cause she didn't know how to break things off wit em, he ended up finding out about us by going thru her Facebook messeges, he moved out in the next three days an said nothing to her or even saw her. So of course she quickly came to me for closure.

So at this point I'm thinking things are over between them an realize that she really wants to be with me if she's gunna pull this. 2 more weeks go in an we start dating. I started seeing her almost every night an spending the night with her. I started taking her out an even introduced her to all my friends an family after meeting hers. A month goes into dating her an I begin to realize she's still stuck on her ex. She cries whenever I'm not around an I begin to realize I might lose her an I really like her at this point an dont want that so I tell how I feel one night when she was Layin in bed, crying an ignoring my calls. She doesn't say much so I thought if she went an talked to him she would be alright. I ****ed up by telling her that an the next day she tells me that shes going back to him an I can't make her happy, so I'm like **** ! We meet in person like 2 days after that an say our goodbyes, I was real mature bout it an said take care of yourself all I want is for you to be happy even if it means you being wit another person.

So after 3 days go by of drinking heavily, she text me while I'm drunk an starts askin me how I'm doin. She says all she does is thinks about me while she with him an says that I'm starting to realize that u were right when I said "it won't work between you guys" we see each other soon after that an tells me how she feels, how he's not like me an he doesn't do anything right like what u do, she continues to see an talk to me while she's seeing him still at this point. She claims that she doesn't have sex with him an kisses him even whenever shes wit him an only does it with me. I found it hard to believe but she's been real trustworthy with me so far so I believed her, about 2 weeks an some change goes in of the same thing happening an she eventually breaks things off with him an says "good luck" to him. They haven't said anything to each other since.

So about another week goes by an everything is fine an we keep talking a lot, she eventually starts telling me I feel like **** an it hurts so bad an i don't know why ect. So I get confused again an dont know what to do, she tells me that whenever I'm around I keep her mind off her feelings but at the same time she claims she has feelings for me. I realize now that I've been like an emotional block to her an kinda wasted my time.

So I feel like now she's been yankin my heart around an i have more feelings than she does. The last time we saw each other was like 5 days ago now which has been the first time in a while an last I talked to was like 3 days ago. Not a moment goes by where I'm not thinking about her an I've already told her how I feel, she said she would talk to me later an I kinda feel like breakin things off with her or jus letting things sit an not doing anything. I have no clue what to do right an I'm mad confused, I really wanna be with her but it seems impossible an alot of my friends have told me to jus walk away. But I really don't want to...

Edited November 13, 2013 by Nicebro