6 years, Gone

[JohnKrause]

She left me tonight forever. This was all suddenly without warning. Just looking for places to vent, and some insight from people who have had similar experiences to me.

 

Literally 4 days ago everything was fine. She is in supposed constant struggle with all of this. She now knows that she "Can't be with me ever again." and that I'm supposed to "Release her from myself."

 

She asked for guidance and an internal voice told her that she can't be with me. Even though it feels great to be In Love with me, she must be alone, because she knows I'm not the one.

 

SO WILD!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

I had a dream about Her before we met, when I was doing a lot of Lucid Dreaming. I was in Colorado at the time, and I had a very vivid captivating dream of a girl in Boston. I remembered the feeling of the dream and took it with me to Boston, where I would also study.

 

I found the literal girl of my Dreams, and we spend 6 wonderful, challenging, growing years together. Traveling from state to state with just each-other in mind. Each of us working as hard as we can to do what's right, and to pursue a life where we do what we want more than what we have to do....

 

4 days ago she was In Love with me like usual, and now she's gone forever.

She renounced her material possessions, quit her job (where she was nearly up for a 9-15k raise), and is moving to a spiritual place to find herself.

 

I found her when she was 18, and I was 22. I can imagine wanting Time and Space to grow for oneself, but to completely abandon a constant feeling of six years for a feeling that one's had for 4 days is remarkable to me.

 

I will never be able to trust words out a women's mouth again at this rate. I'm shellshocked.

[karnak]

How old are you right now? I suppose you're both under 30, right?

 

Do you have kids?

 

Be strong.

[JohnKrause]

Both under thirty, no kids.