Author Star4223 Posted December 10, 2013 Author Share Posted December 10, 2013 Splitscreen, I just talked to him and he had an answer for everything. I just so mad at myself for feeling like I am being taken for granted. I do realize that my feelings for him run much deeper than his feelings for me. He is running loads just about 3 hours from my house and his and if I see him tonite I am not for sure. Does your Trucker live in your town or another? Link to post Share on other sites
splitscreen Posted December 10, 2013 Share Posted December 10, 2013 Yes, I feel the same. I am always making my schedule fit his. I want to believe that he really loves me but my mind tells me that he just loves himself. Which I have a hard time dealing with because I am crazy about him. He is a local trucker. His loads are all within three hours of his house. So he is home every night. Also, one difference is it sounds like you are not married, right? I am so I have the whole other side to deal with too. All I can say is I never, ever believed I would be in this kind of situation. And all this complaining and I still cant say no... I don't know what is wrong with me? Link to post Share on other sites
splitscreen Posted December 10, 2013 Share Posted December 10, 2013 ohhh...I forgot to add. We live in the same town. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Star4223 Posted December 11, 2013 Author Share Posted December 11, 2013 I know I have a serious problem because I am in love with him and I thought he was in love with me until recently. Now he says he is afraid of the L word and I am still hanging onto the past. I want to talke to him several times a day and its pushing him away. He was supposed to spend the night with me tonot and now I dont thimk he is going to and it will break my heart because he said in a joking text that I am falling in love and need yo be bitch slapped back into reality, lol. I know he might say this in a joking mannor, but what he says is true, so know its likely that he wont stay with me because of it. How can I possibly keep my feeling out of it? When we started the entire thing it was with the understanding that he was getting a divorce even before we started seeing each other. I am constantly wondering how to act, what he's thinking, Stuff like that. Link to post Share on other sites
ByMyself01 Posted December 13, 2013 Share Posted December 13, 2013 I know I have a serious problem because I am in love with him and I thought he was in love with me until recently. Now he says he is afraid of the L word and I am still hanging onto the past. I want to talke to him several times a day and its pushing him away. He was supposed to spend the night with me tonot and now I dont thimk he is going to and it will break my heart because he said in a joking text that I am falling in love and need yo be bitch slapped back into reality, lol. I know he might say this in a joking mannor, but what he says is true, so know its likely that he wont stay with me because of it. How can I possibly keep my feeling out of it? When we started the entire thing it was with the understanding that he was getting a divorce even before we started seeing each other. I am constantly wondering how to act, what he's thinking, Stuff like that. WHY do you put up with this. The only reason you are falling for him like that is because you are not allowing yourself to move on. You should get you a new man that belongs to you and only you. Girl, forget him and move on. Because when I first met my ex and he was seeing someone I demanded he talk to me whether she was there or not and he did. That's how you will know when they are serious about you. They won't care just like he doesn't care about your feelings. He already knows who he will choose and I think you know too but you are in denial. But also, life is unpredictable, no one knows the end-end result. Maybe when you find a new man, he may come running back and you may not want him an believe me, it will be the BEST feeling in the world because it happened to me before. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Star4223 Posted December 16, 2013 Author Share Posted December 16, 2013 It seems like I am getting my feelings hurt more and more lately. Its sometimes like I am not a person, but an object. I need him to be here for me sometimes and its just like thing are more and more complicated. I know I am coming to my breaking point and maybe that is what he wants, for me to end it cause he sure isn't. This is the time of year where Families get a little closer, but for a while and we are kinda pushed aside and that hurts very much! I am tired of feeling the emptieness and loving someone who is so changes the last couple of months. No more sweet words, messages or anything like that, I only feel like and imposition anymore, like its a drag for him to make an effort for us to be together. When we are together its great but when he is gone, he is gone!!! Link to post Share on other sites
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