TranslucentThoughts Posted December 28, 2004 Share Posted December 28, 2004 I just need to let this out... It's been 3 months and it's not getting any easier. I know he has a thing for someone else. School is torture... Having to look at him... always wondering what he's doing.... is he talking to her. It's like i'm in a constant state of heartbreak.... it just won't go away. Even when I don't have to see him... I think about him all the time. I decided I wanted to try and be friends. I finally got the nerve to call him today... we actually had a good conversation.. it was friendly and it wasn't even awkward. I asked him if wanted to meet to play pool tomorrow... he said he had to ask his family because he thought they all had holiday plans together... he said he'd call back and let me know. He called back... he can't go. "family stuff" I don't know whether or not he's even telling the truth. He asked me if I was going to this guys new years party that apparently everyone is going. He said I should go... he said we could hang out there instead... since he can't tomorrow. I want to go... but I think I want to go for the wrong reasons. I think I just want to be there because that girl he likes will be there and I want to keep an eye on the situation. I know it probably won't be a good idea... but I can't help wanting to go... I just want to see him... I want him to see me... realize that he's made a mistake. When we broke up he told me he stilled loved me and cared about me... why would he say that?... and not show it? I don't get it. I feel like I won't be able to get over him. Thinking of being with anyone else makes me feel sick. I love him so much... i've never loved anyone this much before. I'm just so tired of missing him... and feeling hurt over this. I don't know what to do with myself without him. Link to post Share on other sites
renee2005 Posted December 28, 2004 Share Posted December 28, 2004 Hi, Only time and love will heal your wounds. Don't let him play you . If you go to this party and the other girl is hugged up with him , how would you feel? You do not want to go through the new year sad and upset . You will meet someone new in time but until then focus on yourself and see what you can do to improve. Get all your tears out; Its okay to cry and hurt but then try and let it go before 2005 is here. He probably does have love and care for you. Why wouldn't he? you were a part of his life. Just try and think of this: when you are thinking of him is he thinking of you ? When you are miserable and sad, is he? Trust me, someone who is right for you will come along. Hang out with your family or girlfriends / try and do something fun. I have been through it and yes it hurts but if you love yourself as much as you care for him, it will be OK Link to post Share on other sites
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