Author BlessYourCottonSocks Posted December 8, 2013 Author Share Posted December 8, 2013 My heart is broken. I wish I could describe my pain, but I can't. Life has no meaning right now. Link to post Share on other sites
LadyM Posted December 8, 2013 Share Posted December 8, 2013 I know how utterly awful my own BU was and I feel terrible that anyone else has to go through the same pain. I'm so sorry you are having such a difficult time. It is the worst feeling. And the pain does get better in time, but it just seems to take SUCH a long time. If it is any help, my heart goes out to you because I have felt that pain, along with the rest of us here, if that is any consolation. I can guarantee you one thing - hang in there because life WILL have beautiful meaning for you again one day. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author BlessYourCottonSocks Posted December 9, 2013 Author Share Posted December 9, 2013 Just wanted to let you all know this past weekend I moved out. It was the hardest thing yet and has been very emotionally taxing for me. I am not quite ready to talk about it because I cry the minute I do. But for now, I'll stick to helping out other people and trying to make them happy. <3 Thanks for the tough love. It's time to move on. And yes, he is completely blocked and has no idea where I live. 6 Link to post Share on other sites
anna121 Posted December 9, 2013 Share Posted December 9, 2013 Very glad to see this, and very sorry - I know what you must be going through. Link to post Share on other sites
LostConfused123 Posted December 9, 2013 Share Posted December 9, 2013 Just wanted to let you all know this past weekend I moved out. It was the hardest thing yet and has been very emotionally taxing for me. I am not quite ready to talk about it because I cry the minute I do. But for now, I'll stick to helping out other people and trying to make them happy. <3 Thanks for the tough love. It's time to move on. And yes, he is completely blocked and has no idea where I live. BIG BIG hugs to you!!! When you're ready to talk, we'll be here Link to post Share on other sites
LadyM Posted December 10, 2013 Share Posted December 10, 2013 Wow, you have my admiration! It took a lot of strength and courage to remove yourself from that unhealthy situation. That said, I know how very difficult and painful this is for you. We are here. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author BlessYourCottonSocks Posted December 10, 2013 Author Share Posted December 10, 2013 I'm just so angry. Just completely steamed. He was so cold and distant and mean. UGH. My heart is racing with anger. How do I calm down?? Link to post Share on other sites
LadyM Posted December 10, 2013 Share Posted December 10, 2013 Did something just happen with him? When was he cold, distant and mean? Link to post Share on other sites
Author BlessYourCottonSocks Posted December 10, 2013 Author Share Posted December 10, 2013 When I left his house... Link to post Share on other sites
Author BlessYourCottonSocks Posted December 10, 2013 Author Share Posted December 10, 2013 Now that the anger subsided, sadness has settled in. One thing I know for sure is that this too shall pass. Every time I get sad I think about all the things he didn't do for me and how poorly he treated me near the end. Plus, I imagine a fictional 6', brown hair, green eyed, wash board abs and a dozen roses in his manly calloused hands knocking on my door asking me out to a 5 star restaurant (maybe that's a little too much hehe)....A girl can dream right? Link to post Share on other sites
LostConfused123 Posted December 10, 2013 Share Posted December 10, 2013 Hey Cotton, Just wanted to drop in and tell you I'm thinking of you today 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author BlessYourCottonSocks Posted December 10, 2013 Author Share Posted December 10, 2013 Hey Cotton, Just wanted to drop in and tell you I'm thinking of you today Aww thanks. :-) It's nice to have people here for you. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author BlessYourCottonSocks Posted December 10, 2013 Author Share Posted December 10, 2013 I have a question!!! Is it okay to start taking drugs (depression meds/anxiety meds) while coping? And seeing a therapist?? The thing that hurts the most is how distant he was and careless. Like just completely aloof. He didn't care at all, if anything it was good riddance to him. I need help. Link to post Share on other sites
stillafool Posted December 10, 2013 Share Posted December 10, 2013 I have a question!!! Is it okay to start taking drugs (depression meds/anxiety meds) while coping? And seeing a therapist?? . This is something you should ask your doctor not people here. Link to post Share on other sites
radiodarcy Posted December 10, 2013 Share Posted December 10, 2013 I have a question!!! Is it okay to start taking drugs (depression meds/anxiety meds) while coping? And seeing a therapist?? The thing that hurts the most is how distant he was and careless. Like just completely aloof. He didn't care at all, if anything it was good riddance to him. I need help. By all means yes! This is an incredibly painful and difficult time for you. But only if a doctor feels that you need medication, then take it. He's acting the way he is because now that you've moved out, he's no longer in control. Nor can he comfort himself by playing the good guy and letting you cry on his shoulder. Or play mind games by telling you he's meeting his ex for drinks. You spoiled all his fun. Too bad for him. You have a life to live. So do what you need to do: cry, mourn, let it out, go to therapy and keep putting one foot in front of the other 3 Link to post Share on other sites
LostConfused123 Posted December 10, 2013 Share Posted December 10, 2013 By all means yes! This is an incredibly painful and difficult time for you. But only if a doctor feels that you need medication, then take it. He's acting the way he is because now that you've moved out, he's no longer in control. Nor can he comfort himself by playing the good guy and letting you cry on his shoulder. Or play mind games by telling you he's meeting his ex for drinks. You spoiled all his fun. Too bad for him. You have a life to live. So do what you need to do: cry, mourn, let it out, go to therapy and keep putting one foot in front of the other Re read this! Link to post Share on other sites
Author BlessYourCottonSocks Posted December 10, 2013 Author Share Posted December 10, 2013 Is anyone on depression/anxiety meds? What is your experience with them. I'm thinking of moving back home and going back to school. I need to get away. I've never been so sad before and I don't know how to shake it!! Link to post Share on other sites
LadyM Posted December 10, 2013 Share Posted December 10, 2013 It's alright to feel sad. It's a normal human emotion. There is MUCH information everywhere how psychiatric medications do not even help and often make you feel worse. Think twice and three times before you begin such a regimen. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author BlessYourCottonSocks Posted December 10, 2013 Author Share Posted December 10, 2013 It's alright to feel sad. It's a normal human emotion. There is MUCH information everywhere how psychiatric medications do not even help and often make you feel worse. Think twice and three times before you begin such a regimen. :-( I don't feel good. I just need someone to talk to. Link to post Share on other sites
LadyM Posted December 10, 2013 Share Posted December 10, 2013 I so much understand. For some reason, I was blessed to have a male friend who was willing to talk with me all the time and any time, during the worst of it, which was a long time. I don't know how or why he did it, but he saved me. Are there any friends or family you can call right now? It can do the trick to keep you going for today. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
LostConfused123 Posted December 10, 2013 Share Posted December 10, 2013 :-( I don't feel good. I just need someone to talk to. Hey girl, I have a short work day today. Can you message me so I can give you my phone number? I don't know how to do that Anyway, I have to head to work for just a couple hours and we can talk all afternoon and night if you want. Hang in there okay!! 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author BlessYourCottonSocks Posted December 10, 2013 Author Share Posted December 10, 2013 Hey girl, I have a short work day today. Can you message me so I can give you my phone number? I don't know how to do that Anyway, I have to head to work for just a couple hours and we can talk all afternoon and night if you want. Hang in there okay!! I have a short work day also! I can't message at the moment. But I have an email, [email protected] Thanks so much! <3 Link to post Share on other sites
Author BlessYourCottonSocks Posted December 10, 2013 Author Share Posted December 10, 2013 I so much understand. For some reason, I was blessed to have a male friend who was willing to talk with me all the time and any time, during the worst of it, which was a long time. I don't know how or why he did it, but he saved me. Are there any friends or family you can call right now? It can do the trick to keep you going for today. Wow, that is so nice of your friend!! You really see who is there for you when you're at your weakest. I do have friends, but I feel so annoying to them that I just kinda fell of the radar for now. Link to post Share on other sites
LostConfused123 Posted December 10, 2013 Share Posted December 10, 2013 Okay, got the email. Now go edit it and erase it. . . LOL! just being cautious We'll talk soon! STay strong! Link to post Share on other sites
LadyM Posted December 10, 2013 Share Posted December 10, 2013 I know what you mean. I could not even discuss this with some friends, other friends didn't really understand why I was still hurting and also became annoyed. That he should just be forgotten and I should be on my merry way kind of thing. But this one man, went above and beyond, with time, great feedback and advice and undying concern. I bought him a gift, but I'm thinking I should buy him another great gift for the holidays. Link to post Share on other sites
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