Good friends, different countries, different personalities. Why am I getting mixed si

[Cher93]

So there is this guy I've been friends with for three years now, though what we have seems very tricky

 

I have hardly seen him...probably five times tops. We talk online everyday, because we're studying in two different continents, and whenever we manage to go home for the holidays during the same time, we meet up. I feel we have gotten to know each other pretty well, for two strangers who hardly see each other. I trust him with my life, and he seems to be opening up a lot more than he used to (Being a scorpio guy, any improvement in that area is a major one). My mom doesn't seem to be his biggest fan, but I don't really understand why, because its rare any guy really gets me the way he does, and I'm always myself when I talk to him.

 

Anyway, there are times when we have conversations that are...tense, for lack of better word. And if any random person were to read it, they would definitely conclude he has a thing for me..but just as you jump to that conclusion, he shifts back to his usual self (And as it goes without saying, I shift back to the friendzone as well)

 

Now, after three years of being friends, I have come to realise I may like this guy, but I don't know what to do! He seems so vague in what he thinks of me, I can't even tell if its platonic or not.

 

Is there any way I can find out what he actually thinks, whether its in my favour or not? I will be meeting him, after a very long time, and I really want to know where I stand so we can take it from there.