phi_one_zero Posted January 2, 2005 Share Posted January 2, 2005 It's myself that I have to forgive, really, and it's ridiculous that I haven't yet. It has certainly been long enough. I'm going to have to find a way, because as much as I might like to, I can't go back and make it so I never met her. And really, it's probably better that I can't. I did learn some very valuable things from the experience, and I don't doubt that I'm ultimately better off for it. But there's still a pretty strong what-the-hell-was-I-thinking factor. All I really wanted was a free place to stay while I was in her area for a weekend. Then sex happened, and I ended up getting emotionally invested in something I knew perfectly well could never actually work. I knew we were fundamentally incompatible from the beginning, and I let myself get involved anyway. Stupid, stupid, stupid. The problem is me. It's not her. It never was. Which really makes me feel horrible that I lost my temper (yet again) because she dared to send me a well-intentioned email wishing me a happy New Year and saying that she remembers me fondly and hopes I'm doing well. In my defense, she did promise to respect my space, but that's really more of an excuse than a defense. I'm pretty sure I'm not a complete a**h***, but I feel like one right about now. Link to post Share on other sites
neptoon Posted January 4, 2005 Share Posted January 4, 2005 How long were you going out with her for? Link to post Share on other sites
tattoomytoe Posted January 4, 2005 Share Posted January 4, 2005 well after hearing only a small re-cap of your side... you do seem like @ssole material, but there are ways around the seemingly inevitable. Link to post Share on other sites
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