Ever since the breakup I feel as if I'll be alone forever

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i've been with this girl for almost 6 years, i thought it was perfect and all but she changed after the 1st year of university and we broke up, she found someone else.

 

Moving on wouldnt be so bad if i wasn't such a loner. I've been told im really good looking, well in high school at least when girls rated guys i was normally in the 8+/10 area. I love playing video games, i have a small circle of friends from elementary but they dont seem to understand me. Non of them are going to school(persuing trades) i only have 1 good friend i play ps4 with online but even then i can never get that kind of support i feel like i really need because he doesn't understand me. I'm a quiet and shy guy, i have troubles making friends in university. I play a certain sport that requres me to be in shape year round so i only party 3 times a year normally. Everything together made me so much more different than her once she started living on campus meeting new people. I'm very socially awkward, i think self esteem is quite low yet i feel as if i'm a bit special and no one understands me(maybe a bit narcisistic?) but i just want to be able to make friends easier, and not just the friends i say hi to at school. but i want to be able to hang out with people for once and i just don't know how. Looks can only get you so far, its worked against me because girls don't go after the guys. Instead all i hear from some school friends i just made was that i looked snobby but when they got to know me they said i was really nice. A big problem is that a lot of the kind of conversations i have are like to do with big deep kinds, nothing pointless because i just don't know what else and i think i put off a bunch of people. I just feel so bad about everything right now, moving on, NC for about 3 weeks, cut off fb and twitter of her and everything in general. Now its almost christmas and i feel just so alone. It was like this before and its like this after the breakup.

 

 

I just wish i could have that somebody i could talk to everything about and they could do the same, they don't have to be a girlfriend or anything just a really amazing friend. My only friend i can only really talk to him about guy things but what made me and my gf so good was that i was a sensitive guy who could talk about anything and you could get those type of conversations that really felt deep if you guys get what i mean. Now im sitting here just trying to move on and trying my best to make friends that i can hang out with but i cant and it sucks. I feel sick to my stomach i honestly feel like im going to be alone forever. My personality must be ****ing **** if i have such a hard time making friends, i'm just at an all time low right now and it just sucks.