Feeling terrible about my weight gain

[pink_sugar]

Ever since I moved out from home at 18, my weight has gone up and down a few times. My worst was when I was 156 about 5 years ago. (I average about 125, which is a good weight for me). Every time I experience a new change in my life, usually jobs where food is involved, I get carried away and have minimal self control. I've been thin all my life, but since I've been on my own, my weight has fluctuated according to my life style. Last year and earlier this year, I had dropped an extra 10-12lbs, because I was so depressed and stressed out, hardly eating. I've gained it back and I weigh 133 (I'm 5'3") I know it's far from fat, but I feel terrible about myself. My husband finds me attractive, but I am unsatified with myself every time I look in the mirror and wonder why I let myself gain this weight back. I am trying everything I can to get back to 125. I was at an all time low of 118 earlier this year...hadn't weighed that since middle school. I know it's a small weight loss, but barely fitting into your jeans makes your feel so fat. I wish I could feel better about myself, but I grew up with a weight-obsessed father who notices if I gain one ounce. He's always talking about how his ex-girlfriend must be 130 and how she packed on weight and etc. (He's not thin himself either).

Edited December 16, 2013 by pink_sugar

[Els]

If you're going to stay in contact with your father, you need to be able to not let his words affect you. I know this is way easier said than done (my mother is obsessive about weight, too - she thinks anything beyond 110 lbs is 'fat'), but you need to, for your own sake. You're going to develop an eating disorder if you persist this way.

 

I mean, think about it. There are two components of weight - aesthetic and health - your dad's opinion really doesn't matter about the former, and he's hardly the expert on the latter. Believe your husband when he finds you attractive, and believe medical guidelines that state that 133 lbs at 5'3" is okay and healthy.

[pink_sugar]

If you're going to stay in contact with your father, you need to be able to not let his words affect you. I know this is way easier said than done (my mother is obsessive about weight, too - she thinks anything beyond 110 lbs is 'fat'), but you need to, for your own sake. You're going to develop an eating disorder if you persist this way.

 

I mean, think about it. There are two components of weight - aesthetic and health - your dad's opinion really doesn't matter about the former, and he's hardly the expert on the latter. Believe your husband when he finds you attractive, and believe medical guidelines that state that 133 lbs at 5'3" is okay and healthy.

 

Thanks so much for your support! I know logically my dad is being unrealistic and obsessive, so I need to try and focus on how healthy and energetic I am. I know sometimes I overeat and trying to get control on that, but otherwise, I exercise regularly and eat right.

[Els]

That's great. Keep it up, girl!

[MuscleCarFan]

I tell Pink she is attractive all time, she doesn't listen.

 

If I didn't wear a belt, my pants would fall off, lol.