Sad about my issues, when people call me out

[rockmanmegaman]

I get really depress due to two reasons.

 

1) I have Bi-polar and Social Anxiety, and I suffered from extreme depression for awhile. Life really sucks for me because I'm so scared of talking to people, and when i do make friends with people, I tend to freak out whether they'll leave me. A lot of people that do leave me, are probably cause by my own doing... One time 1 person confess their love to me, and even though I like that person, I find myself rejecting her because I was just so afraid of getting hurt in the future (Whenever I lose a friend, I get hurt really badly, I don't want to imagine how painful it is to lose someone you love).

 

2) I get really upset and almost want to cry when people just tell me I have Bi-Polar, social Anxiety or Asperger, or other mental illness... It's like no matter how much I try to fit in with society, everyone just seem to call me out, and make me feel like I'm a freak or weirdo.

[Mario79]

I have social anxiety and suffer bouts of depression. I understand being called out on it, I havent been told directly you have social anxiety or depression, it tends to come out as, you are very shy or very serious, you are too in your head or you are always by yourself.

 

Since we are the minority, we tend to stick out like a sore thumb once people get a general idea about you. This is when the first thing you have to do is really accept who you are, so when people call you out on it, it will not hit you as hard.

 

I at work only had 1 friend, and not only that she is still my best friend, but I really needed her at work since I spend 9 hours here, she had to quit to pursue a masters and that has hit me so hard, she also had to leave the country and also I lost my girlfriend. The two key people in my life gone.

 

Right now I have to keep myself really into work, go to therapy to work on my interactions with people, and am on anxiety meds just to keep myself in check. That's my experience. I do say learn to love you. That's my goal.

 

PS.

Love your user name.

Edited December 18, 2013 by Mario79

[sarbunoemi]

I had bipolar disorder too due to being bullied in middle school and physically abused in primary school and because of that I hated to interact with people, sometimes I was a people pleaser, sometimes I was so anxious that I even erased any contact with my only two friends because I was fed up being a people pleaser. I was shy but because I hated to interact with people and done activities on my own, felt awkward around people so I kept the distance with my classmates too.

I even abused myself physically a little if I made a mistake so I went to a psychologist to tell her my problems. She suggested I should see a therapist. I was afraid, I did not wanted to admit I had a mental disorder.

 

Which helped me to overcome my anxiety was working out. It made me to feel confident. I did not go to any therapist because I thought it was unnecessary.

I started to work out, lost like 10 kg, from 65 to 55 kg and started to attend Taek Won Do classes. It made me to love myself more.

 

These social activities helped me to interact, even though at first it was very awkward, but in the end, I finally started to understand how does the social world work.

It's hard when you start and when you need to keep trying, but the results were worth the hard work.

And what it helped me to overcome my people pleaser habit is that I started to read psychology books about the balanced way of living a fulfilling life, character traits of a confident person etc.

Started to act as a confident person each day and after a few months, I begin to see myself as beautiful human being along with my mistakes.

Also I watched motivational videos which helped me to be more confident.

Here is one I recommend:

All I can tell you is, bipolar, social anxiety disorder or any other mental disease, it's curable. You can cure it with your own thinking, attitude, perception. Depends on you.

It's hard to fight when nobody believes in you, it's hard to fight when nobody acknowledges your work, it's hard when you can't fit in, it's hard but if you start start accepting yourself, along with your flaws, others will accept you too. There might be people who will want to hurt you, there might be people who just want you to go downhill with your dreams. You might fail again and again, but in the end you will win because you had the courage to lose and to stand up. It doesn't matter how you start, it's matters how you finish the last few meters. Will you stand up if somebody would push you down? Will it challenge yourself to invest in you, in your ability, in your time? Do you dare to believe in yourself, when nobody believes in you?

 

This is my experience. Thank you for sharing yours.

Edited December 28, 2013 by sarbunoemi