insert sad username Posted December 27, 2013 Share Posted December 27, 2013 I don't think I can keep my silence anymore, I want to text her and just have a conversation about anything at this point! It doesn't matter, just as long as i'm talking to her.. this Christmas break was suppose to be our time . the time where we would stay up late texting and talking till the next morning (LDR). She was my best friend and it hurts me so much that she potentially replaced me with someone else to talk throughout the day. I wonder if she ever thinks of me during this time? have I ever crossed her mind at all since NC? I can't help but think about what she could be doing... Obviously, There is much more to the story but I killed any chance of reconciliation. I made all the stupid mistakes that pushed her further away! when she told me to stop, I didn't listen to her..I wanted to fix things and make it happen in an instant but that was so selfish of me! She threw it at my face and told me straight up that I am pushing her away if i keep on like this..but i didn't listen to her and now I'm here My last words to her were so terrible, even when we tried to end it on good terms for the third time! but I was so hurt that she was so happy to move on, she told me she is living life and not looking back..I completely lost it when she told me that and gone NC since. i'll be an idiot to try to talk to her huh? Link to post Share on other sites
LadyM Posted December 27, 2013 Share Posted December 27, 2013 Yeah, it's probably best not to talk to her for now. I gotta say, I LOVE your username. It is so creative! 2 Link to post Share on other sites
tem7074 Posted December 27, 2013 Share Posted December 27, 2013 I'm sorry that you are going through this. I think going NC from a failed LDR can be very difficult since alot of the relationship is based on phone/text/skype interactions. You essentially become addicted. Good job on two months NC. The longest I have gone is 11 days, though I am hopeful that I will break that record soon. We quit calling each other. No more Skype. Facebook is blocked. Even after that she has texted me a couple times and I have given a polite response that doesn't lend itself to further communication. Good luck. Of course try your best to do things to keep her off your mind. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
xUnknown Posted December 27, 2013 Share Posted December 27, 2013 I'm sorry that you are going through this. I think going NC from a failed LDR can be very difficult since alot of the relationship is based on phone/text/skype interactions. You essentially become addicted. Good job on two months NC. The longest I have gone is 11 days, though I am hopeful that I will break that record soon. We quit calling each other. No more Skype. Facebook is blocked. Even after that she has texted me a couple times and I have given a polite response that doesn't lend itself to further communication. Good luck. Of course try your best to do things to keep her off your mind. yep, same situation here. Went from a LDR when everything was texting/calling/skyping..to nothing. Definitely went through withdrawal. But I kept strong with NC. Only texted her once in 3 months (serious issue that needed a response so I tied up the loose ends. Occupy your time with something else OP. Get a new hobby to take away the thought and temptation. Go out with your buddies, meet some new girls, maybe a rebound (not the best way to get over someone but it does help in the short term lol). Keep your chin up, post here when you get tempted. Link to post Share on other sites
organizedchaos Posted December 27, 2013 Share Posted December 27, 2013 I don't think I can keep my silence anymore, I want to text her and just have a conversation about anything at this point! It doesn't matter, just as long as i'm talking to her.. this Christmas break was suppose to be our time . the time where we would stay up late texting and talking till the next morning (LDR). She was my best friend and it hurts me so much that she potentially replaced me with someone else to talk throughout the day. I wonder if she ever thinks of me during this time? have I ever crossed her mind at all since NC? I can't help but think about what she could be doing... Obviously, There is much more to the story but I killed any chance of reconciliation. I made all the stupid mistakes that pushed her further away! when she told me to stop, I didn't listen to her..I wanted to fix things and make it happen in an instant but that was so selfish of me! She threw it at my face and told me straight up that I am pushing her away if i keep on like this..but i didn't listen to her and now I'm here My last words to her were so terrible, even when we tried to end it on good terms for the third time! but I was so hurt that she was so happy to move on, she told me she is living life and not looking back..I completely lost it when she told me that and gone NC since. i'll be an idiot to try to talk to her huh? So you want to go and do the very same thing she told you drove her away when you wouldn't stop? Yeah, brilliant idea. Link to post Share on other sites
Author insert sad username Posted December 27, 2013 Author Share Posted December 27, 2013 (edited) So you want to go and do the very same thing she told you drove her away when you wouldn't stop? Yeah, brilliant idea. Not necessarily, back then i would presure her and rush to get things going again, which made her run away. I've noticed whenever we didn't talk about anything about the relationship, she would eventually open up and tell me that she saved my number again but eventually things turned sideways out of nowhere whenever i tried talking to her again. I thought i had her when she was the one texting me again but i guess not.... Edited December 27, 2013 by insert sad username . Link to post Share on other sites
cavalier99 Posted December 27, 2013 Share Posted December 27, 2013 Stay NC. Urge will pass. Then will come again. Then will pass. Then will come again. Stay NC. Do this 6 to 8 months or until recovered.. Cav Link to post Share on other sites
Author insert sad username Posted December 27, 2013 Author Share Posted December 27, 2013 Stay NC. Urge will pass. Then will come again. Then will pass. Then will come again. Stay NC. Do this 6 to 8 months or until recovered.. Cav that's the thing, her birthday is coming up around that time 6 month mark..would it be a bad idea to shoot a happy birthday text? Link to post Share on other sites
mtnbiker3000 Posted December 28, 2013 Share Posted December 28, 2013 would it be a bad idea to shoot a happy birthday text? Yes (10 characters) Link to post Share on other sites
Author insert sad username Posted December 28, 2013 Author Share Posted December 28, 2013 Yes (10 characters) Hmmm I guess i have to see how i'm feeling when the time comes or if she wished me a happy birthday since mine comes before hers..Ah and this where I start hoping she does contact me Link to post Share on other sites
clementyne Posted December 28, 2013 Share Posted December 28, 2013 I love your username Link to post Share on other sites
Author insert sad username Posted December 28, 2013 Author Share Posted December 28, 2013 I love your username haha yea all the good sad usernames were taken Link to post Share on other sites
Author insert sad username Posted January 1, 2014 Author Share Posted January 1, 2014 I couldn't handle being home on new years so I had to text her..ah it was so hard to not think about her during this time but luckily i refrained myself from trying to have a conversation out of the text. I do not feel any differently though, which is surprising but at least she did respond in a timely manner. i wished her a happy new year and she wished me one back. This is coming from someone who said she will NEVER respond to me ever again so don't know what to think? but anyways i'm not going to get my hopes up just yet. Link to post Share on other sites
FortunateSon Posted January 1, 2014 Share Posted January 1, 2014 Don't get your hopes up. My ex, who I NEVER thought I would talk to again, contacted me recently. It was selfish and self serving on her part, she said she just wanted closure and to "make peace." Nothing good came from it, it was all about her. Stay NC and keep focusing on yourself. Link to post Share on other sites
BC1980 Posted January 1, 2014 Share Posted January 1, 2014 I couldn't handle being home on new years so I had to text her..ah it was so hard to not think about her during this time but luckily i refrained myself from trying to have a conversation out of the text. I do not feel any differently though, which is surprising but at least she did respond in a timely manner. i wished her a happy new year and she wished me one back. This is coming from someone who said she will NEVER respond to me ever again so don't know what to think? but anyways i'm not going to get my hopes up just yet. Nothing will come of this. Speaking from experience, it will probably make you feel worse later. Link to post Share on other sites
Heatemyheart89 Posted January 1, 2014 Share Posted January 1, 2014 Stay nc now. honesty it will be worth it in the end.Just because she responded honestly I don't think it means anything. My ex would respond to me if I sent him that but I know he would never get back with me. Link to post Share on other sites
Author insert sad username Posted January 1, 2014 Author Share Posted January 1, 2014 (edited) yea I def will stay nc from now on. I honestly don't think she will want me back anytime soon anyways (possible GIGS) but I would eventually like to be friends later down the road because she was my best friend before we took things to the next level but of course I need more time to get over us being more than just friends. thank you for all your input guys, much appreciated. Edited January 1, 2014 by insert sad username . Link to post Share on other sites
Author insert sad username Posted January 6, 2014 Author Share Posted January 6, 2014 why do I keep losing focus on things i have to do and be reminded of her at everything I look at!?!?!? today was my first day back in college and i couldn't help but daydream about her and wonder if she even thinks of me. I would've thought by now she would at least try to reach out/heal from what happened. I can't help but think of the new people that are in her life that maybe I've been replaced already. I'm not going to text her but it's tempting though..but i can't do it cuz what can i tell her? that i miss her? that i still love her? I told her all of this already when i couldn't let go. I don't want her to have that perception of me being needy, pathetic, clingy etc. all over again. I want her to forget that! then there's the "hey how you been?" texts but there's a chance she wont reply or she probably will but I know i won't get much out of it..ah this is so dreadful. it kills me to not know anything about her anymore. I just need to vent guys, you know how it is lol Link to post Share on other sites
Author insert sad username Posted January 6, 2014 Author Share Posted January 6, 2014 wishing her a happy new years was a bad move cuz now that I feel terrible for not trying to start a conversation..i started crying just now knwoing that this semester I am no longer going to have her to talk to throughout the day..this first day seems to get worse Link to post Share on other sites
Author insert sad username Posted January 7, 2014 Author Share Posted January 7, 2014 (edited) i'd feel like im on top of the world and limitless to what i can do if she was just back in my life..i walk around campus feeling so lonely, no one to talk to, eating alone, etc. I just look at my phone most of the time to see if I would ever get anything from her. Edited January 7, 2014 by insert sad username . Link to post Share on other sites
LostConfused123 Posted January 7, 2014 Share Posted January 7, 2014 You are SO CLOSE. I mean really really close to feeling so much better. Everyone says the 2-3 months Mark is a real biotch!! it is. I am just coming out of it. Christmas day for me was my last "breakdown" I don't know what happened but the last week or so, I have felt much better. Please just hang on. If you break NC you'll have to start all over. You're so close. Don't throw it away. Come here instead. It's almost over (well the really hard part) anyway. stay strong!! ((Hugs!!)) 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author insert sad username Posted January 7, 2014 Author Share Posted January 7, 2014 You are SO CLOSE. I mean really really close to feeling so much better. Everyone says the 2-3 months Mark is a real biotch!! it is. I am just coming out of it. Christmas day for me was my last "breakdown" I don't know what happened but the last week or so, I have felt much better. Please just hang on. If you break NC you'll have to start all over. You're so close. Don't throw it away. Come here instead. It's almost over (well the really hard part) anyway. stay strong!! ((Hugs!!)) thank you so much for responding, you have no idea how much that means to me. i was doing so well lately, i never broke down crying like this, not even when things ended. it seems every time i come home, i just cry out all the pain i hold inside from the people I see everyday at school..i think it finally hit me that this really happened and possibly the end once and for all. Link to post Share on other sites
polynomial Posted January 7, 2014 Share Posted January 7, 2014 thank you so much for responding, you have no idea how much that means to me. i was doing so well lately, i never broke down crying like this, not even when things ended. it seems every time i come home, i just cry out all the pain i hold inside from the people I see everyday at school..i think it finally hit me that this really happened and possibly the end once and for all. It's perfectly normal to break down after 1-2 months. Like you said, the reality is finally hitting home and it isn't nice! But you have to go through it and you will be in a better place. Stay strong! Link to post Share on other sites
PinkIsLove93 Posted January 7, 2014 Share Posted January 7, 2014 Sorry to hear you are going through this!! I 100% know where you are coming from as I'm in a very similar situation myself where I am desperate to break NC. How are you feeling now? I think its important to remember that this will get better, you just need to stick at it and keep your head up Link to post Share on other sites
Author insert sad username Posted January 7, 2014 Author Share Posted January 7, 2014 Sorry to hear you are going through this!! I 100% know where you are coming from as I'm in a very similar situation myself where I am desperate to break NC. How are you feeling now? I think its important to remember that this will get better, you just need to stick at it and keep your head up I thought i was past the grieving stage already but ever since i started school again, a whole mess of memories came tumbling in my head as i go through the day realizing that she is no longer going to be a part of my life to create new memories. It's like I'm back to day one all over again and I don't understand why is this happening after 2 months+ of NC. anyways luckily today i managed to compose myself after a few minutes of tears and decided to hit the gym along with doing some homework in advanced to keep my mind busy. Link to post Share on other sites
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