Cocochai Posted January 1, 2014 Share Posted January 1, 2014 I walk in a store and see NOTHING but Valentines stuff!!! I'm like I haven't been able to truly handle the NC I just did last Fri (holiday and around too many folks) although it's the best decision knowing I will get nothing out of this A. It's been a pattern of this back and forth but I finally see where I'll get nothing but hurt in return which out ways the good times we have. It still hurts like hell to have the mental vision of him going all out for his BS on that day. Her to boost about it and carry on like he deserves the husband of the year award. I'm not saying I didn't have a hand of putting myself through what I'm going through... But still it makes me angry to the core. I'm venting but it's making me feel better as I am typing. I would never tell his BS (that's just trying to hurt her). But I swear if he ever tries to reach out... NC won't work (have a hard time holding my tongue) I will tell him off in so many ways where he won't try to contact me again. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Oldspiceywolf Posted January 1, 2014 Share Posted January 1, 2014 I always wanted to tell her off when she would call me after just the night before she would be all "confused" wanting to work on her relationship because she felt bad not giving it 100%. Instead of being pissed I would just laugh at her for being weak. She hated that reception. It'll get easier just remember this is not what you want and you don't just deserve to have something special, it's attainable with time and patience. Sorry it stings, hope the next 6 months go by fast with no breaks in NC! 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Cocochai Posted January 1, 2014 Author Share Posted January 1, 2014 I always wanted to tell her off when she would call me after just the night before she would be all "confused" wanting to work on her relationship because she felt bad not giving it 100%. Instead of being pissed I would just laugh at her for being weak. She hated that reception. It'll get easier just remember this is not what you want and you don't just deserve to have something special, it's attainable with time and patience. Sorry it stings, hope the next 6 months go by fast with no breaks in NC! Thank you! I was venting but that truly helped. It's like your doing everything you can to forget and then it's forced in your face again. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
daretotrustlove Posted February 9, 2014 Share Posted February 9, 2014 I totally get what your saying. Valentines Day, what Valentines Day, it doesn't exsist for me. Its still to hard. Its be 5 wks for me NC. He went home to tell the W it was over between them and for whatever reason, I will never know. He decided to stay. I just feel numb. This is the second time he has done this. I won't give him the oppertunity to do it again. When I last talked to him he said, that if he comes back he will be free. If I don't want it, I can tell him to f' off. If she did contact me, I would tell her the truth. I hurts like hell and back, x 100. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
PurpleCardigan Posted February 10, 2014 Share Posted February 10, 2014 I walk in a store and see NOTHING but Valentines stuff!!! I'm like I haven't been able to truly handle the NC I just did last Fri (holiday and around too many folks) although it's the best decision knowing I will get nothing out of this A. It's been a pattern of this back and forth but I finally see where I'll get nothing but hurt in return which out ways the good times we have. It still hurts like hell to have the mental vision of him going all out for his BS on that day. Her to boost about it and carry on like he deserves the husband of the year award. I'm not saying I didn't have a hand of putting myself through what I'm going through... But still it makes me angry to the core. I'm venting but it's making me feel better as I am typing. I would never tell his BS (that's just trying to hurt her). But I swear if he ever tries to reach out... NC won't work (have a hard time holding my tongue) I will tell him off in so many ways where he won't try to contact me again. Yup. Feeling much the same way about Valentines Day. (((hugs to you))) I'm trying so hard to get to feeling indifferent towards him and less angry. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
inappfriendly Posted February 10, 2014 Share Posted February 10, 2014 Agreed. Cupid is stupid! I've put any romantic notion surrounding the holiday out of my head and have been focusing on Valentines for the kids and their teachers. Thought it might be helping until I inexplicably burst into tears this morning at work! Ugh. Denial is clearly not working! Hugs all around. Link to post Share on other sites
proseandpassion Posted February 10, 2014 Share Posted February 10, 2014 Valentine's day is for self love, too. “Self love's the only love, the first and the last!” - Richie Rich 1 Link to post Share on other sites
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