Laying on the bathroom floor

[Omei]

Hey bless sounds like you're going through a hard time, it gets better once NC is on for good you might never stop loving or caring and you might not even be the same person after but after NC is there for a few months it does become livable again where you won't have to cry every moment.

 

I dont know if it was said yet but instead of trying something different med wise maybe you should just not be on anything at all? Anti depressants can backfire and make you feel more depressed when I was broken up with after a 5 year I actually found I felt better when I stopped taking my anti depressants they were only magnifying everything esp that anxious feeling.

[JDPT]

I'm even more convinced that you are the artist formerly known as youngnlove89 now.

 

 

I've been refraining myself from saying this but you do have a point.

[Simon Phoenix]

I'd stay off the meds too. You need to stop trying to get around the pain or mask the pain. One of these days you are just going to have to tough it out and take it straight on. You've been trying to cut corners for years and it gets you nowhere -- it's time to just deal with it.

[Trapito]

BycS,

 

The first couple of weeks after my breakup, I couldn't eat. I puked if I ate or I got the runns when I thought of him, heard or saw him. I couldn't sleep, so I drank to help me sleep. That didn't help. So I got some sleeping pills from my dad. They did help me sleep, but I got horrible nightmares where I would be with my ex a d he broke up with me again and again. I would wake up screaming and crying hysterical. So that didn't work either.

 

I took up running again, it helped. It made me tired and feeling ok about myself, it also releases endorfines (or something like that). Try running or any other sport to make you feel better.

 

Change your number again or block him in every way that you can. You were making great steps to heal yourself, don't stop.

 

He called you because you gave him the opportunity. You changed your number and then decided to text the asshat for his birthday. Asshats don't deserve a happy birthday text. Asshats deserve silence, long hard silence. Now you are asking yourself why he called. It is because he has your number, you gave it to him on a silver plate. You gave the asshat an opportunity to make you miserable. Don't ever give that asshat an opportunity to make you miserable again.

 

You can do this! Hang in there!

[Trapito]

Oh sorry.. It was for happy holidays and not happy birthday. My bad.. The outcome is just the same though.

[maiden555]

I dont know if it was said yet but instead of trying something different med wise maybe you should just not be on anything at all? Anti depressants can backfire and make you feel more depressed when I was broken up with after a 5 year I actually found I felt better when I stopped taking my anti depressants they were only magnifying everything esp that anxious feeling.

 

They can definitely backfire. I took Wellbutrin specifically and it really made me feel worse- agitated and irritable, whereas I had been more sad and melancholy before. I had better luck with Effexor (although it's HELL to go off) and briefly, Lexapro. Eventually (and once I started my last relationship and was happier) I realized I hardly laughed anymore and that my emotions were just flat. I went off the meds and will try my best as long as I can to stay off of them. If it's more pain than you can manage, then by all means meds can be a great help.

Talk to your doctor about finding a different med if you don't feel any improvements - I'm definitely glad I didn't continue with Wellbutrin.

I hope you're feeling better soon.

[KatZee]

I ignored.

 

Doesn't matter. You WANTED him to have your number, because you WANT that door to be open.

 

Change your number.

 

If you message him again, change your number again. Continue doing this until you get so goddamn fed up with how much of a pain in the a.ss it is to continue changing your number, and then maybe you'll learn to stop messaging your ex.