ComingInHot Posted January 5, 2014 Share Posted January 5, 2014 Dude, listen to Journee. What you need is what you are searching for just in the wrong places. Oh God have mercy if I'm left to be my own leader. I'd be lost 6 ways to Sunday too! Heaven forbid nothing is placed in your path to "distract" you or "frustrate" you or "tempt" you. ie; Affairs, unhealthy relationships, unhealthy pastimes etc You think the master of that world would want to loose you? Heck No!! You'd become a great enemy and cause lots of damage. You may have to fight for your freedom from this. Who do you know or whom have you heard of that you can share your story with? I mean by way of a BIBLE based Truth leader. I encourage you. No. I challenge you to walk into a nondenominational church and sit down with the first woman you meet and tell her EVERYTHING. ** MY BET is that in 12 months YOU will be visiting My home town where I will by tickets to hear You speak. ...This is one of those cases where I'm NOT wrong. CIH* 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author moving2fast Posted January 5, 2014 Author Share Posted January 5, 2014 I'm angry I am around some days, because I just don't see the point. I'm angry that He allowed certain things to happen. I know I should be angry at people, I know but the whys get in the way. I don't like getting angry, just like I don't like feeling sad, so I try to avoid things that cause reactions. I don't like feeling a lot of stuff. The challenge of walking into a church and talking to someone is a scary. Putting myself out there, like really out there to someone(anyone) has me hesitant. I fear there's no real place for me to just be. I am curious about what its like to go to church just worried I won't fit/belong. I will never know until I try though. You guys are great, I worry I'll be a disappointment to you all as well. Link to post Share on other sites
Journee Posted January 5, 2014 Share Posted January 5, 2014 I'm angry I am around some days, because I just don't see the point. I'm angry that He allowed certain things to happen. I know I should be angry at people, I know but the whys get in the way. I don't like getting angry, just like I don't like feeling sad, so I try to avoid things that cause reactions. I don't like feeling a lot of stuff. The challenge of walking into a church and talking to someone is a scary. Putting myself out there, like really out there to someone(anyone) has me hesitant. I fear there's no real place for me to just be. I am curious about what its like to go to church just worried I won't fit/belong. I will never know until I try though. You guys are great, I worry I'll be a disappointment to you all as well. I totally understand. Again, there are many different opinions about religion but you do not have to make your journey start with walking into a church. You can begin a relationship with GOD on your own in private. I know it is overwhelming to think about a congregation of people surrounding you. Your salvation is between you and GOD and is the most personal relationship one can have. You do not have to feel pressure to attend services in my opinion. Go at your pace just invite God into your life. That is all he wants. Once you do this....the things that will begin to change! You will not disappoint us. We are rooting for you. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
rosedl Posted January 7, 2014 Share Posted January 7, 2014 It sounds like you have work to do on co-dependency and needing other people to validate you. A lot of us do. No amount of attention will ever be enough. It is something that has to be addressed outside of relationships. It takes time and work. If you don't do it, you will keep repeating the cycle endlessly. I feel for yeah. I am JUST starting to get a true handle on it and not need to soothe myself in this way. And, I am forty two. Link to post Share on other sites
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