Author somecamel Posted September 4, 2014 Author Share Posted September 4, 2014 Was my birthday today, I have kind of expected a message from her today, I haven't looked, but has still been on my mind today. I remember this time last year when I was with her, my life was Crap back then. My last post spoke about her opening emails that I had sent back in feb/march of this year, I'm going to assume they were the emails where I told her to never contact me again, maybe she wanted to reach out. I'm glad I didn't look today to see if she has sent me an email. I will probably check tomorrow, will be Better if she hasn't. Link to post Share on other sites
Author somecamel Posted September 18, 2014 Author Share Posted September 18, 2014 Been a while since I last posted Moved into new place, have had some great weekends already, love the area I live in, even had sex for the first time last weekend lol, only been 9 months celibate, (wasn't great sex but at least that barriers down). It actually helped, she's still on my mind though and sometimes I feel like I need to cry to get rid of the unhappiness. I promised myself that I would become a better person from this but sometimes I feel like I'm fooling myself a bit as I haven't accepted what has happened and I feel like I may still be in denial which is stupid considering how far I've come. I suppose it's the unfinished business and maybe I need a shock from her to tell me that it is over. I've seen her picture on some of my old facebook status', she's blocked but it still showed her profile pic. I feel like Ive lost my best friend Link to post Share on other sites
loversquarrel Posted September 19, 2014 Share Posted September 19, 2014 For the love of God, stop. I feel less and less sorry for you as I read through your posts. Seriously don't take this the wrong way, but grow some balls and stop checking emails, etc. Women are so turned off by needy guys. Do yourself a favor and throw out your skirts and buy a pair of pants. I may be coming off as a jerk to you but I'm just trying to give you the proverbial slap in the face you need. Link to post Share on other sites
Author somecamel Posted September 19, 2014 Author Share Posted September 19, 2014 For the love of God, stop. I feel less and less sorry for you as I read through your posts. Seriously don't take this the wrong way, but grow some balls and stop checking emails, etc. Women are so turned off by needy guys. Do yourself a favor and throw out your skirts and buy a pair of pants. I may be coming off as a jerk to you but I'm just trying to give you the proverbial slap in the face you need. I wasn't looking for your sympathy, I was feeling low so I put my thoughts down that's all. I don't check my emails for her anymore and we've been NC since end of July. What I was looking for was some positivity. Link to post Share on other sites
Chi townD Posted September 19, 2014 Share Posted September 19, 2014 I wasn't looking for your sympathy, I was feeling low so I put my thoughts down that's all. I don't check my emails for her anymore and we've been NC since end of July. What I was looking for was some positivity. So am I! So, I want you to tell me some of the positive changes you've made in your life since this happened. What positive changes you've made? I know you moved to a new town for a fresh start. What else have you done? What are some of the positive short term and long term goals you've set for yourself? Link to post Share on other sites
Author somecamel Posted September 19, 2014 Author Share Posted September 19, 2014 So am I! So, I want you to tell me some of the positive changes you've made in your life since this happened. What positive changes you've made? I know you moved to a new town for a fresh start. What else have you done? What are some of the positive short term and long term goals you've set for yourself? Hey Chi, Moving away from where I was living was one of the best things I could have done, I have an apartment right on the harbour with lovely sea views, work is great and I'm earning good money, my relationship with my son is is better as well now (she came between us). I had a bit of a low moment yesterday but she is still always on my mind. I'm accepting that it's over and that it's time for me to move on. I miss the companionship more than anything, having that person who is your rock and you can confide in but that's not to say I won't find someone as good and better. Moving forward I'm not really too sure where I'm heading next, I've kept myself positive to all of those around me but this is where I vent a bit as you're all strangers to me. I'm away this weekend taking my little sister to University, I'll have a think about some short and long term goals and come back to you:) Link to post Share on other sites
Chi townD Posted September 19, 2014 Share Posted September 19, 2014 Hey Chi, Moving away from where I was living was one of the best things I could have done, I have an apartment right on the harbour with lovely sea views, work is great and I'm earning good money, my relationship with my son is is better as well now (she came between us). I had a bit of a low moment yesterday but she is still always on my mind. I'm accepting that it's over and that it's time for me to move on. I miss the companionship more than anything, having that person who is your rock and you can confide in but that's not to say I won't find someone as good and better. Moving forward I'm not really too sure where I'm heading next, I've kept myself positive to all of those around me but this is where I vent a bit as you're all strangers to me. I'm away this weekend taking my little sister to University, I'll have a think about some short and long term goals and come back to you:) Yeah dude, you're not doing enough. You might have a great place to live and like your job. But, that's your only existence. Go to work and come home. That gives you way too much time to think about her and the situation. I know there are clubs that you can join in your area. Like, take the plunge and sign up for a men's football league. Join a Running Club. They go around to different places for 5k's, 10k's, half and full marathons. They even do Mud Runs like the Warrior Dash, or they have the Zombie Run UK. Zombie Runs are fun as hell!!! Or join a cycling Club. They take their Mountain Bikes and go all over the place. You need to get out there and meet new people. You never know who you'll meet along the way. You might meet the girl of your dreams doing this stuff. Then, Travel! Go see something new! You got your kid, save and take him to Disneyworld in Florida! You and him in the happiest place on earth! Might meet a single mom there and enjoy some time together! Think of a place that you've always wanted to visit. Make a plan and save. Then GO!! There's nothing stopping you but YOU! Take a chance. Man, you got the world at your fingertips and NOTHING holding you back! Take advantage of it! Have some fun adventures! White water rafting, horseback riding, deep sea fishing, scuba diving! Time to step out into the world and see what's out there! 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author somecamel Posted November 16, 2014 Author Share Posted November 16, 2014 She emailed me last night saying she had had a water bill through from an old property we lived at and wanted me to pay half which was £70. I paid it no problem. I did ask her to give me an update on how Gizmo was getting on. She told me that he was put down in August as he had a brain tumour and the vet had told her it was probably down to him being 'hit'! I haven't replied but it did really upset me. He went at the end of July so hadn't even been gone a month. She was obviously trying to imply that I had hit him (which I never had). I'm going to let her believe what she wants to believe and not contact her. Link to post Share on other sites
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