Mondmellonw Posted January 25, 2014 Share Posted January 25, 2014 Getting back to school is making me feel more like "me" again, finally. But at the same time, it brings back some memories about my ex. We met there, so it's kind of the inevitable, since I can't erase my memories. But what I learned, it's that someday I'll be able to look at those memories (hope so) without feeling as much anger or sadness as I feel nowadays. Actually, it is fading away more and more. It can be seen on my face and actions, from what my family and friends have gauged. (and myself) Memories. I was remembering that he told me this, a lot of times: "The worst thing I could ever do to myself, is to hurt you". Everytime he told me that, the glare on his eyes, the sound of his voice... I was madly in love for him, and to me it wasn't only that. I believed him completely. Maybe it wasn't all of a lie to him, I'll never know. I just know he lied about his ex, and started to do this silent treatment, and taking me for granted, and being manipulative and an emotional abuser. Of course he had "these" things that made me fell hard for him. We shared a lot in common. And, mostly, he was a gentleman. He was damn intelligent and he seemed to be the most good-looking guy to me. I just think I need to work on myself from now on. They always say that relationships are like mirrors. That is what I've been thinking and trying to resolve lately. His flaws... It's like, how can I blame him if I have them too? Of course, I didn't lied, I didn't cheated. But I never learned to (correctly) set boundaries and speak my mind. My insecurities just grew inside of me... I hope that every and each one of you can get something from this, from your own break ups. Just wanted to share. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
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