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Its okay to be sad. Hope is something which isn good for any of us. Heck, I still have hope but I know even if he comes back I wont take him, we dated for 3 years. Its time to let go. Cry if you have to. Dont put yourself in pain by stalking her.

 

Sighh sometimes it's hard to just cry. I'm so used to holding everything in, my head gets so worked up with thoughts it gets exhausting. Sometimes I want to cry, but it just doesn't happen. I feel weak when I cry and too embarassed to let anyone see my emotions. It was so easy for me to cry infront of her when she broke up with me..I never cried infront of a girl before it was so embarassing.. I remember before we got into the relationship she told me if she ever saw me cry she would kiss me and in my head i was thinking "yeah right, that won't ever happen" since it's so hard for me to cry. But it happened.... I never got that kiss....

 

I'm glad you aren't going to take him back, If mine came back I would take her back... even though I know the same things will happen and I will be left broken again. It doesn't matter... with the way she is, I think her ego is too big to beg for me to come back anyways and she would rather sit in silence and move on and find someone else.

 

:( I'm guilty of hope too guys.... I can't kill it.... I search for the littlest string to hold onto to... Sigh

Why was I so stupid. I wouldn't be in this mess right now if I wasn't a mess and did stupid mistakes

 

I'm doing the same thing... when I first had the BU I was finding every way to have an opportunity to get back. Any thought that gave me hope I pursued and did it, even if I was advised not to. Just for that 1% chance that she might change her mind...and that it might make a difference...:/

 

Okay not feeling good at all. Ugh. Suddenly cant stop thinking about my ex. Ugh.

 

Aww... listen to more music! Everythings going to be okay. I'm here for you and discover, and FailedFirstLove too! =)

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Sighh sometimes it's hard to just cry. I'm so used to holding everything in, my head gets so worked up with thoughts it gets exhausting. Sometimes I want to cry, but it just doesn't happen. I feel weak when I cry and too embarassed to let anyone see my emotions. It was so easy for me to cry infront of her when she broke up with me..I never cried infront of a girl before it was so embarassing.. I remember before we got into the relationship she told me if she ever saw me cry she would kiss me and in my head i was thinking "yeah right, that won't ever happen" since it's so hard for me to cry. But it happened.... I never got that kiss....

 

I'm glad you aren't going to take him back, If mine came back I would take her back... even though I know the same things will happen and I will be left broken again. It doesn't matter... with the way she is, I think her ego is too big to beg for me to come back anyways and she would rather sit in silence and move on and find someone else.

 

 

 

I'm doing the same thing... when I first had the BU I was finding every way to have an opportunity to get back. Any thought that gave me hope I pursued and did it, even if I was advised not to. Just for that 1% chance that she might change her mind...and that it might make a difference...:/

 

 

 

Aww... listen to more music! Everythings going to be okay. I'm here for you and discover, and FailedFirstLove too! =)

 

:( my motivation in doing everything is cause of that 0.0000001% of hope.... But I've sabotaged all hope now I think... His SO angry to the point if telling me to delete his number.... I think his trying to move on and his finding it hard? I don't know :( too much ego to ever forgive and come back...

 

My only hope >.> (yes... Even when I sabotage my own hopes... I still search for a little more... Even if it's a needle in the haystack....)

I'm hoping that maybe if after a couple months or so, his completely calmed down... We cud start a clean slate... Maybe... Oh man what am I saying....

Right now even when he talked abit to me... He wud end up getting angry again because his never let go of the past...

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I just read this somewhere, thought I would share with you all as well, it is really inspiring. Do read it :

 

"Don’t hate them anymore. I know, you’re hurt right now and you will still. But remember this: You and that person are just parallel lines. You were intertwined at one point, and you are not the same as you were before. They changed you, you changed them, and you both learned a lot about each other, relationships, and ultimately, yourselves. And there is no saying that maybe someday, if the fates allow, you might cross each others paths again. Maybe when the time is right, you two will meet again and forgive the past and show each other how much you’ve grown and changed, and maybe this time, you will fit together perfectly. And maybe it won’t happen, and you will just infinitely be moving on in a different direction, only to see them from afar or from the rearview mirror when you miss them or think about them. And then someday, somebody else will cross your path, and you will understand why this person doesn’t fit with you anymore. And realize, that it wasn’t a waste of your time, because it is BECAUSE of this person you were with, that you were able to reach that point. You had to go through a lot and learn more, and just because it was sad and it hurt, it was worth it because you were finally able to allow this person into your life who makes you so happy you could shout it to the world. And don’t we all want that at the end of the day?

This is all happening for a reason, and it was meant happen this way. And you are in this healing stage right now that will take a lot of time to recover from. But when you can think of it in the big picture, and realize that it’s not anybody’s fault; it just wasn’t meant to work out right now, because you are two different people traveling in two different directions who happened to meet each other at maybe the wrong time, I think that is when you can start letting go of the anger and resentment. That is when you can stop thinking about the things they did that hurt you, or you can stop missing them or wanting to talk to them again. Because you are just going to get hurt, because it’s just not meant to happen right now. Take your time away from that person, as hard as it is, and keep on going in your own direction and focus on your own life. Once you reach a point on your own path where you are in a good place, you will be okay again, and I know that along the way you will have many more people cross your path and make you a better person in some way, and eventually you will become the best version of you, and somebody will come around and you will intertwine again perfectly, without getting hurt. It will all end up at a wonderful destination, but you just have to do the best you can to get there :)"

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I really enjoyed your story bubbles, it's so inspiring.

 

It indeed is inspiring :) but I didnt write it. I just found it online!

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It indeed is inspiring :) but I didnt write it. I just found it online!

Bubbles,I am writing to you in gmail...oh god..it is inspiring but made me sad...so freaking sad...today is sad...

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Bubbles,I am writing to you in gmail...oh god..it is inspiring but made me sad...so freaking sad...today is sad...

 

I just saw. I am there now :) Talk to me.

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I don't think you are getting my messages....what is happening?

 

Yea I aint getting them :( I think your net is slow or something?

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Yea I aint getting them :( I think your net is slow or something?

No..my internet is perfect..I don't know what is going on...maybe because you are offline and you can't see me writing? I dont know...;x ;x ;x

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No..my internet is perfect..I don't know what is going on...maybe because you are offline and you can't see me writing? I dont know...;x ;x ;x

 

Let me come online and check :) I will do something

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Another thing I saw

 

Suddenly it will just stop, you know. Your tears will stop from falling, your heart will stop from breaking and everything will just stop hurting. You won’t notice it at first of course, but eventually, you will. You will hear his name and your heart will not falter a beat. You will listen to the song that both of you have listened to but you won’t treat every line as a dagger that aims straight to your heart. You will start waking up every morning and he won’t be the first one that would come to your mind. You will look at your phone without expecting his name to flash on your screen. You will stop whining about your broken heart and you will just be.. okay. You won’t notice it but little by little, you are starting to move forward. You may not forget everything that happened, you may not remove all the pain inside you, you may not be the same after but you will get better. One day you will just look at yourself in the mirror with a smile on your face because you made it. The hardest part is over and you are ready to move on to the next chapter.

 

Hope it helps you all :)

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These are inspiring bubbles. I keep trying to put good thoughts into my head like these..

 

I do feel like everything happens for a reason, even though from our perspective it seems bad because it hurts and we perceive it to be bad whenever something doesn't go the way we want it. Maybe it's happening because it's preparing us for something much better and it's happening for reasons we will never understand only God or whatever higher power will understand. What we see is only temporary. What we don't see is more valuable...

 

The only problem I have with all of these theories, if they are true... is having patience.... it could take years before I finally find someone... and I don't know how long I can wait.

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These are inspiring bubbles. I keep trying to put good thoughts into my head like these..

 

I do feel like everything happens for a reason, even though from our perspective it seems bad because it hurts and we perceive it to be bad whenever something doesn't go the way we want it. Maybe it's happening because it's preparing us for something much better and it's happening for reasons we will never understand only God or whatever higher power will understand. What we see is only temporary. What we don't see is more valuable...

 

The only problem I have with all of these theories, if they are true... is having patience.... it could take years before I finally find someone... and I don't know how long I can wait.

Be patient! That's all I have to say, patience!

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I found it easier to stop looking for "her". "She" will cross your path when you least expect it. If you keep looking for that woman, I feel like you're looking too hard and writing off possible "candidates" for the wrong reasons.

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I found it easier to stop looking for "her". "She" will cross your path when you least expect it. If you keep looking for that woman, I feel like you're looking too hard and writing off possible "candidates" for the wrong reasons.

 

A friend tells me all the time... "the best things happen when they are least expected"

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Yeah, exactly. When I was at school, every girl I would date or hook up with I looked to see if they could be my girlfriend or someone I would fall for. I realized I was looking and wanting to find "her" so hard that I either tried to hard and failed, or overlooked some prospects that I know I could have. Of course, I look back now and kick myself in the ass for it. When I stopped looking is when I crossed paths with my ex.

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Okay idk whats wrong with me. I tend to sleep for 10-12 hrs now. I mean , I wasnt much of a sleeper anyway. But now its like sleeping is my escape. Maybe its because I am free right now? Is it even normal?

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Okay idk whats wrong with me. I tend to sleep for 10-12 hrs now. I mean , I wasnt much of a sleeper anyway. But now its like sleeping is my escape. Maybe its because I am free right now? Is it even normal?

 

Yeah its normal. I used to do the same thing. I went from not sleeping at all from wanting to sleep the entire day. As you said, it was an escape. For me, if I slept 12 hours, that was less time I would be away and have the thoughts of the breakup on my mind.

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The times when I sleep are when I feel like I don't have control over my own thoughts. I tend to try to sleep while thinking about her and middle of night and mornings I wake up thinking about it immediately while half asleep. Having to deal with this roller coaster is like a virus :/ I'm really tired of this...

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I think that you should enjoy your sleep and not use it for an escape..I mean,c'mon confront the pain and fear,don't run away...and try to ignore the thoughts of her with your thoughts of like "She left, what can I do,I should be happy, I don't deserve this pain"!!!

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