The Last Letter To My Love

[ddindc]

This was the last letter I wrote to my love. It brought an end to a five year relationship, complete with engagement with plans to wed this October. She left two weeks before Christmas. What I'm asking - I guess - is was it any good? Did I say enough?

 

How do I contain a remaining life’s love in a single passage, when volumes would burst with what I have left to give you? What do you say to your love when you are never to see her again, never to kiss her again, never to hold her in the predawn light like you had so many times before? Words are insufficient, but if fashioned carefully, they live long after the bond is broken. And so I will try to leave you with something that, for one brief moment, blows life into the cold embers of what we once were.

 

When I first met you, I was a ship adrift at sea. Scarred, hardened, and suspicious, I was sure to spend the rest of my days alone, unable to care for another or allow another to care for me. And then, through some amazing twist of serendipitous fate, you came to me; how immediate was our love! With an effortless grace, you passed through a lifetime’s worth of carefully constructed defenses and revived a broken heart.

 

I loved you more than any I had ever known, and may have never loved anyone but you. My days were walking dreams, consumed with thoughts and plans that brought smiles to my face and warmth to my soul. My affection for you was complete, accepting and immutable; you were my heart, my reason for being, and my purpose in life. Certainly we shared tumult, but all great passions do; what value romance without struggle?

 

I asked for your hand knowing there was work yet to be done, but I was confident that, in time, I would be able to give what you asked. I hoped that my commitment would calm any doubt and reaffirm your value to me. For this and more, I made my pledge in gold and stone.

 

With one final night, a concluding kiss, and an ending embrace, we say our last good-bye. I am sorry for who I am and what I could not quickly become. I only hope that you remember it all, and cherish it as I cherish you. You have given me so much more than you will ever know, and I pray that every time you read this, you are reminded of just how much I love you,

 

Now and forever,

[Naive]

It almost made me cry. Did you send it out already or are you planning to send it out?

[SpaceCoyote]

It's very poetic.. not my style... but to each his own. And it made me sad nonetheless and a bit teary eyed (and I have not cried in a few weeks now). I would think a lot of broken hearted souls at this site can see a bit of themselves in your words. For me, it was when you said you got warm just thinking about her, and also when you said you were sorry for being who you were. I think when a person gets rejected, they can't help but see it as a rejection of everything they are and they can't help but feel sorry that they can't be the person that their loved one is looking for. I know that is how I felt - as though it was all my fault that I wasn't the right person for her.

 

I sent a similar letter to my ex as a final goodbye, wanting her last memory of me to be a good one, and hoping that she remembers me fondly and maybe even with a little sad regret that she left me and I am gone. I think you accomplished the same with your words here.

[Three of Swords]

Originally posted by SpaceCoyote

I think when a person gets rejected, they can't help but see it as a rejection of everything they are and they can't help but feel sorry that they can't be the person that their loved one is looking for.

 

Yup - that is exactly how I felt and STILL feel. Like what is wrong with me - aren't I good enough??

 

Nice letter BTW.

 

B.