Victimised and pressured at work...

[Demoralised_10]

Towards the back end of last year I was going through a difficult time with anxiety, to which I've suffered on and off for a number of years. This led to me being withdrawn at work and as a result of my various issues my worked suffered somewhat.

I spoke to my superiors and explained my current situation, although I didn't want to go into complete detail. My company offered me the chance to see a therapist for a six week period.

Now since the start of 2014 I have had a disciplinary, accusations have been made about me personally in relation to my attitude towards other members of staff which I don't agree with and the fact that my time keeping wasnt up to scratch. However it seems that every other member of staff can roll in late (I've been keeping a discreet record) except me!? Ive been told in more or less no uncertain terms that if I'm such as a minute late I'm liable to be sacked.

My boss is always looking over my shoulder, picking up on the slightest of indiscretions and this pressure is really getting to me in my current situation. Should I have to work under this conditions on a daily basis?

Your advice would be greatly appreciated.

[dichotomy]

So you kind of explained to them you were dealing with mental health issues. I suspect they have now formed an opinion of you as flawed.

 

When your boss or supervisors or coworkers form a negative opinion of you - it becomes extremely (if not impossible) to turn it back around. It does not matter if this view is justified or not - they have the view and people find it difficult to change their view.

 

Start looking for another job right now. Best time to look for a job is when you have one.

[Samara11]

I second what Dichotomy said... Start looking for a new job.

 

I was in a similar situation last year in my job, except I don't have a diagnosed anxiety disorder or anything. I was too honest with my supervisor and told her that I'm easily stressed out, and they formed a negative opinion of me that continued all year long.. no matter how hard I worked, it didn't matter. They were constantly watching me, and finding things I was doing wrong. My contract was renewed, but I ended up quitting and finding a new, WAYY better job.

 

If you absolutely have to stay, I don't know how much you can do to change their opinions.. it's really hard.

[CarrieT]

What Dichotomy said.

 

You opened yourself up, believing you could be human and honest and now it is too late.

[Tullyseptember]

Can you talk with someone in HR? I understand how difficult it is to work under such a pressure cooker. I wonder if you spoke with HR or even some type of labor relations that could give you direction and a place to vent in a safe environment?

[Radu]

You mentioned the journal, maybe you should talk with a lawyer specialized in labour law.

 

Know your rights.

[HokeyReligions]

Did you go to the counseling?

 

Ive been in the very unpleasant place of having to let someone go when I knew the reason for their poor performance was an abusive home. I couldnt prove it and she wouldn't admit it. But the bottom line is that companies don't exist to support people, people are there to support the company. Or else the company would go under and no one would have a job. The fact that they offered you some help and didn't just find a way to terminate you speaks volumes about the company itself. Perhaps hour manager and the HR manager can put you in a different area. You need to to your part too and see a doctor and take care of yourself. Maybe even some professional courses to help you move your career forward and show yourself and others that you are willing to put in the effort. That will also help you when looking for a new job.