Have we become more than FWB?

[lifric]

I'll try and make this as short as I can, but there's a lot to this story.

I was in a relationship when I started university and we broke up during my second year. I had made some good friends in my course and one guy, John, especially. We were really close and people always asked if we were dating and we both found that awkward because the thought never crossed our minds.

A couple months after my breakup, I saw John at a club and we were both drunk and made out. The next day we just laughed it off and didn't think about it again.

Over the next few months, tension started to build and when I was chilling at his place one day we made out again (sober) and then he apologized saying that he doesn't want to lead me on etc.

I absolutely didn't want to get back into a relationship because I'm living with my parents again and they are strict practicing Muslims who don't want me to date before marriage, and so don't allow me to go out at night aswell. They didn't know about my previous relationship and I didn't like lying to them.

Anyway so I told John that I'm not emotionnaly available at the moment and we figured that we were both on the same page and thought we'd have some fun. So we became fwbs.

Our other friends don't know about it, we didn't want it to become a big deal, we were fine with just hooking up from time to time. He even slept with another girl once when I was on holiday and I was fine with it. I've been on a couple of dates with guys aswell.... Just exploring

 

But now it's been 9 months and we've grown closer, we spend a lot of time hanging out after sex and talk about our issues etc.. We kiss a lot, not only as foreplay and it's become quite confusing. I know I'm not in love with him but I do miss him when we're not together, cause I've grown to enjoy his presence and at Christmas he gave me a gift aswell (and I didn't so I felt stupid!!)

 

Im just starting to feel that we would actually be really good together but at the ssame time my whole family situation comes back in question. I'm also moving away after the summer to study in another city so it's all quite complicated !!

 

One part of me wants to tell him that I like him more than I show but at the same time I don't want to ruin what we have... We both know that it's a strange situation and hace mentioned it before but we're both enjoying what it is: good friends that sometimes have sex.

 

Is it worth trying to see how far we can take this relationship, knowing that there's an inevitable end to it once I move away? (we both know that the long distance thing just wouldn't work for us)