Shattered Man Posted March 24, 2014 Share Posted March 24, 2014 It's all my fault. Got driven out of the house. I had regretted deeply. Even took to professional counsiling. My world shattered. Been crying all day for 2 days in a row. Can't eat, sleep or anything at all. I feel like ending it all. She told me if I chop 1 of my hand she will believe me. I love her too much and I am most willing to try. I am totally at a lost right now. I want to save my marriage. I am begging her for a final chance but she rejected. What should I do now? Link to post Share on other sites
almond Posted March 24, 2014 Share Posted March 24, 2014 Respect her wishes, and keep working hard on yourself. The improvements you make are the only thing that could possibly convince her to change her mind. Pestering her and begging will only make her distance more...let her have some space. Tell your therapist if you are experiencing suicidal thoughts. Keep yourself busy, exercise, and eat right. Spend time with friends and family. You will get through this either way. Just keep working on building your own life, and if your wife changes her mind then she will let you know. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Jerseydevlin Posted March 25, 2014 Share Posted March 25, 2014 I am going through the same thing buddy. Like the other reply stated, just give her the space she needs. It's easy to want to just call her up and desperately change her mind, but that doesn't work. Trust me. That will push her further away. If you work on yourself, counseling, get a gym membership, join a club, go out with friends, you will feel a little better. Don't drink, don't eat like ****, and keep a journal. Everything you want to tell her, write about it. The only message you should send her is something to the effect that you support her decisions, and will work on yourself and that you don't want a divorce. That's it. That way if the divorce does follow through, she was aware you wanted to work on it. Take care brother! Be strong! 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Shattered Man Posted March 29, 2014 Author Share Posted March 29, 2014 Its day 6, been starving for 6 days, only water & cigarettes keeps me going. been sleeping after popping desirel, otherwise would stayed up all night staring at her photos. Wanted to crash my car but no guts. Climb to the ledge several times but no guts to jump. I am such a Failure. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Shattered Man Posted March 30, 2014 Author Share Posted March 30, 2014 Can anyone share what is a better way to die? Link to post Share on other sites
Arieswoman Posted March 30, 2014 Share Posted March 30, 2014 Shattered man, Please, please get some help with these destructive thoughts you are having. No-one, repeat no-one and no situation is worth killing yourself over. Speak to your doctor, your religious advisor (priest/pastor/vicar/imman) and do it NOW. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Shattered Man Posted March 30, 2014 Author Share Posted March 30, 2014 If only i can turn back the clock, i would have treated her like a queen. She didn't kill me, my ego & my pride did. Its all too late now. Tried calling my counsellor and he not working today. Called sos and line cannot get through. I really cannot take it anymore. Link to post Share on other sites
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