Kill Me Now

[Intel]

I had been dating my girlfriend for over 3 years. When we started dating, i was 22 and she was 18. Over the years, the only time we ever had any problems was when she'd go out dancing with her friends. I felt as though it wasn't right for my girlfriend to be "clubbin" when she was going out with me. She said that I should just trust her and she would still end up going but she claimed that she wouldn't have as much fun because she felt as though I didn't trust her and she felt bad that I would rather her be with me than out with her friends. Still, the relationship maintained until about a year ago, she told me she didn't want to be together because she felt she needed space to figure out what she wants. After a couple hours though, we got back together. A few months later it was the same argument about her going out...same result, we got back together the next day. Everything seemed to be going great. We talked about moving in together and we took a trip to Las Vegas together for her 21st b-day in Sept. Thanksgiving rolls around and she comes over after work and I had cooked dinner for us. She said, "we have to talk". She broke up with me again, she said that I wasn't the right person for her and that she didn't feel the same...she loves me but wasn't IN love with me anymore. I tried to talk to her about it but she stormed out and left. She said she felt bad that it had to be this way but she need to do this.

 

It's been about 2 months and I was holding out hope that maybe she'd realize that she made a mistake...until I found out that she is now pregnant. I called her and she answered...it was the first time I talked to her since she left me. She told me she was 2 weeks pregnant with her current boyfriend that she claims she met after we had broken up.

 

I'm not sure anyone knows exactly how I'm feeling right now. This is a person who I thought I'd end up marrying. The same person who told me I should trust her and no matter if she was cheating on me before she left me or not, the fact is, it took her all of 6 weeks to get pregnant (of all things) from somebody else. So, what I'm dealing with right now is a number of things. First, this hurts more now than the day after she broke up with me. Second, I really don't see any reason to ever trust another female again. I put everything I had into that relationship and I ended up so much worse than before I started that I wish it had never happened. I don't know if I should feel sad that we're not together still, mad because it seems as though she walked out and never looked back, bad because she'll be an unwed mother of a kid with a guy who (according to her) she barely knows, or stupid because I never thought that the girl I dated for 3 years was capable of doing such a thing. If you know what the lowest point of your life has ever been, then you can relate to what I feel like right now.

 

In fact, I'm so scared about how bad I feel right now that I don't know what to do. I really don't know how much longer I can last with this.

[SexiiPinkLadii]

I was with my child's father since I was 14. I can honestly say it was love at first sight, at least for me. He was a constant @$$hole and I overlooked it. I thought we would be married. We were together for 5 years. We just broke up a month ago, for good this time. And I can honestly say, yes it breaks my heart to know that I won't be marrying him. It breaks my heart that we can't be together. But in the long run...I'll be better because of it. My child will have a better life because of it. I will find someone. Maybe I won't love them the way I loved him. In fact, I know I won't. But when a door is closed, another one opens somewhere. You might not notice it for some time. But trust me, time does heal. And a broken heart does still beat....I hope you find the hope & strength you need soon. ::hugs::

[WantanS4]

*****n'..... When it rain.. IT POURS!!!!

 

I feel for both of you........