Mickey1982 Posted April 5, 2014 Share Posted April 5, 2014 So I've made it through and remained NC... Still feel strong and know it's the right thing for me. I will always be sad deep down as I know there was a lot of love between us and I truly believe we did, and could have continued to have a wonderful relationship... But, when I look at the cold hard facts, he has made a choice and he is gone, the only choice in front of me now is either to move on, work through the sadness to a happy and fulfilled future without him or continue to see him, waste my life waiting for crumbs, feeling second best, prolonging the agony, and all the while being responsible for preventing their marriage reconciliation from having a chance. As hard as it is and as gutted as I feel, there is no choice really. Just acceptance this is where we are and trying to behave in a grown up and dignified manner to do what is right going forward. I hope so much that he remains NC. I find it very difficult to do the ignore thing, I think someone on here said it feels like rudeness and I agree and suffer from the same thing. I hate being ignored so feel I wouldn't want to behave in that way. Pray he respects the NC rule and I can keep putting one step ahead of the other. YOU are AMAZING---I admire you, I want to be as strong as you, I want to move forward like you, I want to see things like you... thank YOU for giving me the faith that perhaps I can one day be like you. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Devastated1969 Posted April 5, 2014 Author Share Posted April 5, 2014 YOU are AMAZING---I admire you, I want to be as strong as you, I want to move forward like you, I want to see things like you... thank YOU for giving me the faith that perhaps I can one day be like you. Mickey, you ARE strong, you have done 10 weeks NC which is truly FANTASTIC. My situation was much shorter than yours although we were full time together during the 6 months, (living together for 4) family dinners, holidays together, etc, but nevertheless, you have invested a much longer period of your life to your exMM and I think that possibly makes it a little easier for me. I'm not sure how long you were single before the xMM but I had been single for well over 3 years and was happy before so guess I feel I need to return to the place I was back then, happy and single :-) Hugs Mickey, keep walking forward and we are all here to help each other on our journeys Link to post Share on other sites
Patna Posted April 5, 2014 Share Posted April 5, 2014 I hope so much that he remains NC. I find it very difficult to do the ignore thing, I think someone on here said it feels like rudeness and I agree and suffer from the same thing. I hate being ignored so feel I wouldn't want to behave in that way. Devasted, these are my exact thoughts on my situation! I hate being ignored so much I once told my exMM never ever to ignore me. Even after Dday, I told him that he cannot be cold towards me. He promised me that, and he had always kept his promise thus far. For the past one year, even after major quarrels, he would still always pick up my calls, never once hang up on me, etc. Even after Dday, he still kept those promises. I feel bad, in fact, horrible, that I am going to do all those rude & horrible ignoring stuffs to him. So I'm hoping he won't contact me. At least that's the easiest way out for me. If he calls me, then I'll feel bad for ignoring him. Worst, I may be so tempted to pick up the call! But if he doesn't call, it hurts that I'm out of sight, out of mind. Sighs! But him not contacting me will do me much better in the long run. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
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