movingon45 Posted April 4, 2014 Share Posted April 4, 2014 you end up wanting for more! After 2 days of NC that I initiated after a huge fight I got the you'll always have a special place in my heart which is the first time he's ever written about his feelings. He said that after I said that I'll leave him in peace. I cried and yet felt relieved ready to let go. That night though I ended up wishing he'd contact me. So guess who's back to square one? NC again and it does get better each passing day. Link to post Share on other sites
Nattie Posted April 4, 2014 Share Posted April 4, 2014 I hear you. I haven't officially initiated NC yet but I haven't talked to him in five days and I'm starting to mentally prepare myself for life without him. The emotional rollercoaster is hell, and it makes me so mad. I wish I could flip a switch and turn it off, but I know I have a rough few months ahead. Hugs to you! You WILL get through this and come out a stronger person in the end. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author movingon45 Posted April 4, 2014 Author Share Posted April 4, 2014 Thank you. Oh the roller coaster ride. Been there done that. 5 days is a long time. Hugs back at you. I find the first 2 days are the most difficult times. It's best to get angry and remember the bad times. But yeah the flip switch. I want! Link to post Share on other sites
jwi71 Posted April 5, 2014 Share Posted April 5, 2014 you end up wanting for more! After 2 days of NC that I initiated after a huge fight I got the you'll always have a special place in my heart which is the first time he's ever written about his feelings. He said that after I said that I'll leave him in peace. I cried and yet felt relieved ready to let go. That night though I ended up wishing he'd contact me. So guess who's back to square one? NC again and it does get better each passing day. Perfectly said. There is no magic answer he can give - if you don;t like aht you hear, well, and its human nature, time to go back and do it again so you get the answer you want. Always another Q or angle that only HE can answer. Hogwash. Closure comes from within. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
jellybean89 Posted April 5, 2014 Share Posted April 5, 2014 I just went back to read your old threads -- I thought the affair was over last year? He isn't the person for you to have a FWB situation with (what was discussed in one of your last threads). If you must have sex outside of your marriage, find a single man. Have you and your H discussed his medical issues (impotency)? Is he willing to see a specialist? Is there a medical reason for his issue? I hope you can continue NC and break the hold the MM has over you. One bit of advice, stop looking at his social media pictures...it isn't going to help you or ease the hurt. Block him so you aren't tempted to take a peek! Good luck! 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author movingon45 Posted April 5, 2014 Author Share Posted April 5, 2014 "Closure comes from within." I like that!!!! Link to post Share on other sites
Author movingon45 Posted April 5, 2014 Author Share Posted April 5, 2014 I just went back to read your old threads -- I thought the affair was over last year? He isn't the person for you to have a FWB situation with (what was discussed in one of your last threads). If you must have sex outside of your marriage, find a single man. Have you and your H discussed his medical issues (impotency)? Is he willing to see a specialist? Is there a medical reason for his issue? I hope you can continue NC and break the hold the MM has over you. One bit of advice, stop looking at his social media pictures...it isn't going to help you or ease the hurt. Block him so you aren't tempted to take a peek! Good luck! Yes, it was over! And then back again. On and off just like when we were in college. Recently he sent me a musical composition on guitar that he composed for me and that just touched my heart. We had a fight though after he sent it because I couldn't understand what he was trying to say through his music. And then I realized that I care too much for this to be a FWB situation. I can't do it. I can't be casual. H not willing to work on his issues. Diabetes and a rare kind of cancer he had when he was an adolescent. My exMM and I have blocked and unblocked each other. Thank God he decided to remove all his photos. My H does oral sex with me and recently I bought a toy for penetration but I still haven't used it fully. It's huge! Thanks for this. I need to hear this. I'm just an obsessive person. Link to post Share on other sites
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