Fallen in love for the first time (I think)

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So, the person in question here has been in my small group of friends for years, yet we never spoke. We never had direct conversation and always sat on the opposite side of tables from one another.

 

One day, we decided to go out on a picnic somewhere but when I arrived, my friends had informed me that this person had told them to send me away and that I shouldn't be here. I stayed and the picnic proceeded to be two hours of awkward silence once she arrived. Since we never spoke to each other, I have no idea what opinion she could have formed of me to ban me from an outing with friends. I returned the resentment for a year or so.

 

At the start of 2014, she was kicked from the group. I had no say in this, although I probably would have agreed with it. I was ecstatic that the source of all awkwardness within the group had finally been disposed of but this feeling didn't last. Later that same day I saw her on a table, alone, eating lunch and staring blankly in no particular direction. Instead of feeling the sense of triumph I though I would, my heart simply sank. Nobody deserved this. Not even her.

 

And so I made it a mission to speak to her every day. Some days the talk would go on for 20 minutes, other times she would brush me away quickly.

As I learned more about her, not only did this barrier between us break, but I may have fallen for her. I'm not certain, as I've never felt this before, but I probably have.

 

Now it's just a case of being able to tell if she feels the same way. She sometimes initiates conversations with me, although they're not very long. She appears to laugh at a lot of things I do, too, and I also manage to catch her looking at me from time to time (although not nearly as often as she catches me).

 

Despite all this, she still seems distant a lot of the time. It could be due to the fact she just wants to be with her new found friends or maybe she really just isn't interested.

 

I simply have no idea where to go from here, if there is a way to go at all.