organyx Posted April 16, 2014 Share Posted April 16, 2014 (edited) Hi, I was in love, long term relationship, then we broke up because of misunderstanding. 2 years during the breakup, she was dating and used me 5 times as an emotional support whenever there is a dispute with her mate- throwing all blame to me making me feel guilty while I try to get her back. I failed as she was fishing and put me as backup. Now, I want to revenge, curse her for everything she did to me putting me in this misery, but every time I heard about her, my rage will drop as I feel the pity in her. I am not a bad guy... Now, I just realize that I am the one that cause all this mess and expelled her away from me. I am not asking for a 2nd chance. My mistake- I have to afford it. Being selective, I have no goal, I am a loner for over 2 years now and I do not know what to do in life... I feel exhausted everyday. After work, I fall down in bed. I try to motivate myself by going out with friends playing sports, but whenever I am back alone, the feeling will come back and whatever she told me in stuck in my mind like a curse. Nothing can make me happy as the problem is from me, from my inside- really insecure. When I was with her or with people, her/their happiness is my happiness > this is wrong. My happiness should be in priority. Where can I find it and how? What should I do to live a normal life as before dating with this girl? She or myself is ruining my life... I apologize for the poor grammar... Edited April 16, 2014 by organyx Link to post Share on other sites
Leegh Posted April 16, 2014 Share Posted April 16, 2014 Just let time pass. Time can heal most of us, and eventually we emotionally move on, and meet other people. You may want to get a medical check-up since you indicated you are exhausted. Anemia can make people fatigued. You sound great, and I think in time things will get better. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
learning_slowly Posted April 16, 2014 Share Posted April 16, 2014 Look at what interests you and join a club where others do it. You don't know what interests you. Then choose anything, once you start doing it will teach you what you do like & you'll meet new people and ideas. It won't be easy, but that's why it'll be worth it. Good luck Link to post Share on other sites
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