I close the Book too quickly on things...Do You?

[InBloom]

I feel like I'm way too quick to want to close the book on things with work... Like I need closure immediately so that i don't have to think about it, because I admit i'm an 'overthinker'.

 

In the past 5 years since I've been married and have a son now, I've either passed on -or- quit a handful of cool artistic endeavors and projects related to the design field I'm in -- only to totally regret it months down the road to the point where I'm all torn up inside about it.

 

It's like I freak out about the commitment and being 'tied' to multiple projects and worry too much 1.) about it taking up too much time away from home and my husband and Dad duties and 2.) about not being able to contribute 100% to the multiple projects and 'carry my own weight' so to speak.

 

Deep down inside I KNOW I'm a great artist and have a great work ethic, I get asked to contribute to things all the time. My Wife is and has always been super supportive.

 

I think it's a confidence issue and that i'm scared of the pressure that may present itself..."may" present itself (see 'overthinker') if i take on too many things at the same time.

 

Anyway, I just want to be able to think clearly and not just jump ship every time or turn down something cool because I'm afraid too much commitment might be needed from me...

Edited April 22, 2014 by InBloom