mandylev Posted April 24, 2014 Share Posted April 24, 2014 (edited) I posted here a while ago ( in August ) about my ex. We dated for almost a year and for the most part we did have many reoccuring issues. I found out later that he cheated which he still to this day denies. I just caught many of his lies and he still thinks I believed him. We broke up officially in September and talked on and off for a while. He lives in a different city far now so I only saw him once in December when I went to visit his city for afew days. We had an amazing time and he was so happy to be with me (until I saw he had a dating website account). Keep in mind we were broken up but we still talked and he knew I still loved him. Anyways in February I was fed up with everything and decided to completley cut him off. I deleted him from facebook and didnt call or text him. He texxted me on Valentines day but I did not reply. I didnt talk to him at all until 2 weeks ago when he called me. I hesitated but secretly I was happy he had called and I answered him. Weve spoken a couple of times since and we agreed we really missed each other and could not forget about each other. I was happy but now I feel Im entering the cycle of misery again and I dont know if it is just me. I feel like I have expectations as hes not texting or calling on a daily basis. I feel like Ive opened him up to that intimate emotional connection but I dont wanna text or call him daily so he doesnt say Im needy. Also, I dont know if hes telling me the honest truth or not saying hes missed me deeply and could not forget. Its too early but he never said he wanted commitment again especially that were long distance. I just feel so sad because I feel like Im in a hopeless love and Im not gonna get that attention or consistent affection from him. At the same time, I havent been able to truly move on. Ive met a few guys but hes the one thats always been in my heart (I truly wish I could forget). Its also makes me insecure and miserable because there are some attractive women in his city that give him alot of attention and clearly admire him. Thoughts please. Edited April 24, 2014 by mandylev Link to post Share on other sites
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