JustAnotherz Posted April 24, 2014 Share Posted April 24, 2014 Hi everyone, I am feeling rather hopeless or confuse about my life right now. I am adopted since I am a baby but only found out when I am about 14 years old. It been 11 years since I found out I am adopted and only a year back I told my adoptive parent I knew about it which relieve me quite a bit. Sometime I fear the lost of my adoptive parent, be it pass on or some other thing. I feel I have not repay them for what they did for me and most importantly I fear being alone. I was adopted out of my birth country. So it will be difficult to find any one who are related to me by blood and furthermore partly because I did not want to find them at all. But I fear, being alone. I am graduating from University soon, I study for the sake of looking for a job in order to let my parent retire comfortably. I have no interest in my field of studies. Worst off, I do not know what I am interested in. All these years, I being only putting on mask showing only a happy face to other people worry about question they will be asking me if I look unhappy. I do not want my personal story to be known by others. Although I had my circle of friend. But yet I still felt alone. I do not know why. I hope someone enlighten me why I am feeling this. Link to post Share on other sites
MidwestUSA Posted April 24, 2014 Share Posted April 24, 2014 Your adoptive parents WANTED you, so get away from thinking that you need to somehow reimburse them for taking you in. If it comes to be that you can help them later in their old age, great. Your main focus should be on finding a field of study that you enjoy. I suggest career counseling (or start with some general counseling) to find something that you are passionate about. It sounds as if you really have no joy in life. Things won't get better if you continue doing something you don't even like. How did you make it to near graduation in something you have no interest in? Link to post Share on other sites
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